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[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

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Do you take any other medicines?

[Moonchild67]

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Yes anti depressants, I'm a fun one aren't i !!! 100mg

[Moonchild67]

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My plan with gp as of yday was to bring my husband in and discuss the seriousness of my illness and work out a workable plan, then last nite happened.....

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

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Sending you a PM

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

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To others reading here... we "casual drinkers" often underestimate the power of antidepressants combined with alcohol- Moonchild and I are chatting in a PM, and after we Googled, "Pristiq, Alcohol and Blackouts", you get a plethora of comments from people that have mixed them without thinking there would be repercussions.

A couple of examples:

I have been taking Pristiq for about a month and a half and lately when I drink i have no memory of it and my husband tells me that I also get mean towards him. When I wake up I have no idea why he is mad at me most of the time. Before Pristiq I could usually remember a night of drinking the next day. It's like I black out while still functioning. It is pretty scary!

That is exactly what happens to me. It is like i become a totally different person and I remember nothing of what I did. I went to a party recently and even had the were-with-all to take some videos of the party...came across them looking for another pic to show a friend of something else...came across them and i was mortified...i was totally functional...having a good time with friends...and i dont remember ANY OF IT. And i had only a small amount to drink, 2 or 3 beers...and this happens ALL OF THE TIME. Total black outs

:hug: Patty

[Moonchild67]

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The guilt may kill me, I know it's counter productive and to move forward I must let it go but for today I'm still beating myself up over it. HATE alcohol!!!!!

[Moonchild67]

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Just a question in the Newbies Nest do we read from page 1 or go straight to current posts? Not sure

[K9Lover]

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Hi Moon!

How are you doing today? I would start at the last page of the Newbies Nest, maybe go back a few pages actually, just to catch up on what people are currently doing. I look forward to seeing you there!

[j-vo]

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Hi Moonchild,
Many of our drinking histories are the same, long and progressive. I'm two years your senior and am finding myself in a much better place. Do you feel you can quit drinking without the assistance of a doctor? Have you quit before? Just asking, as withdrawal can be different for all. Be careful with it. My advice would be to tackle this al problem with the help of people here, as so many people can offer guidance and support. Check out the Newbie's Nest to get to know the people here. Do you have a therapist you can talk to? This may be helpful with the deep struggles you're feeling at this point in time. I know how it feels, been there as so many of us have. What you're going through now may be a blessing in disguise to finally get al out of your life and begin anew. There's a toolbox in the Monthly Abs thread. Lots of great tips. Please stay here and you'll find the help you need if you're open to making a plan to get alcohol free. It's not easy but it's possible and life and be wonderful.

[j-vo]

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Moonchild,
I just read Turnagain's story in the section "tell your story." I was riveted and think it would help you greatly if you read it. Check it out!

[Moonchild67]

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Thank you J, I can't afford a therapist at the moment although over the years have seen many, hypnotherapy, AA the whole thing, my GP is wonderful and can help me without charging, am going to call her today. Am a little less anxious today prob as the booze has worn off, but still, scared, fragile and wondering what has happened to me. I definitely notice how over time my drinking habits have changed, couple a nite, always been a weekend binger, now it's a bottle or 2 wine a nite, litre of whiskey on weekends and starting earlier and earlier ( not working ATM) I do change when I drink like a Jekyll and Hyde, and blackout often, nearly every time. It's ruining/ruined my life and I'm scared I'll drink tnite, although I have tipped all remaining alcohol down the sink)

[Moonchild67]

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I just read Turnagains story, wow what courage it must take to get that far, I only hope that I can find the strength and listen to my inner "wise woman" who I know is there, although her voice is dimming, but she is there! Will stay close to MWO today

[j-vo]

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Moon,
She is in there. I'm just finding my inner wise woman as well. And our drinking is very similar in that mine progressed from the beer to beer with whiskey, or wine, vodka...I was always a weekend binger then it creeped into my week days. But the truth is, we can get away from this addiction and habit with tools and help from others. Connecting with others is a huge factor in recovering from this condition. One step at a time, one day at a time. Did you make a plan for yourself? You said you were not working atm and I was thinking that it's good to have a structured plan in place for tomorrow. Glad you got rid of the poison that was left. Great first step.

[fennel]

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Moon, I hope you are doing okay tonight. The main thing is to keep alcohol out of your system, now. That will keep any crises at bay for the moment. :h

[mama bear]

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sending you love and support Moon