can't find my way out

[MossRose]

Can't explain it, but it just feel like life sucks. I want to be grateful for the good things, but I would really rather be sleeping. Which I do a lot of these days. Sorry, but that's the truth. I'm in serious trouble. Can't find my way out.

[Rusty]

can't find my way out

Moss,

What's going on, neighbor?:l What do you mean you are in serious trouble? Are you drinking, or did you drink and it lead to horrible consequences?

[MossRose]

can't find my way out

Rusty, you are such a good-hearted person. You watch over me, like a guardian angel. I just feel really crappy tonight. Can't stop crying. I feel like my life is a joke. A bad one. Thanks for being there.

[Byrdlady]

can't find my way out

Talk to us, Moss, what's going on? Maybe talking about it will help?! B

[Rusty]

can't find my way out

C'mon, Mossy. You and I have always been able to talk. What do you mean that your life has been a joke?? You were a good wife....your husband is the one who thought with his little head and then blamed it on you....yes, I have read most of your posts.:l:h

SPILL IT. We are here.:l

[available]

can't find my way out

MR i am sending you hugs girl, you have been through a lot at the moment and you know we are here for you, always and forever! We cant be grateful every bloody day or happy or content, would be nice but not in the real world.
xxx

[Rusty]

can't find my way out

Rusty, you are such a good-hearted person. You watch over me, like a guardian angel.

Ah, but you're worth it.

Maybe you are depressed and that's why you're sleeping??? Have you tried 5-HTP? It's natural serotonin (sp?) and it has helped me tremendously.

[MossRose]

can't find my way out

Ok - I'll spill it. My youngest son (the one I have been estranged from for too long) has a very big event going on tonight. It's in another state, and everyone is there. His dad, his GF and her family. I didn't have the money to get there. I wanted to be there. I really did. In fact, I gave him the money so he could get there, but then I didn't have enough left over to pay the rent and travel too. So now, I am watching everything unfold on Facebook and I feel terrible. I know this sound stupid. They are all having a great time. I'm jealous, or may envious. Wow - how many mortal sins can I commit tonight?

I'm just so lonely. I'm embarrassed to admit this. But it's the truth. I'll be ok. Just really sad tonight.

[available]

can't find my way out

you have committed no sins MR. you forfeited going so your son could go and that is what any mother would do for her child. i hope he understands what you did for him. its ok to be sad. My son is celebrating his 21st in August in another State and i cant afford to go but he wants to spend it with his friends. its sad when they grow up and spread their wings but its life and you should be proud.

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

can't find my way out

Hugs, my friend. :l

Can you do yourself a favor and log off of Facebook for tonight? Go take a bubble bath, or find your favorite book, or a favorite movie... Go take a walk, if the weather isn't rainy there? Go to a local coffee shop and have an ice cream sundae and espresso. GO to the grocery store and buy something special to prepare tomorrow for Sunday dinner.

Trust me that your presence will be missed... but don't beat yourself up. Watching everything unfold on FB is cruel and unusual punishment for your heart, Mossy.

Gentle hugs and a loving kick in the pants. Go take care of you. :groupluv: Patty

[Byrdlady]

can't find my way out

Happy, that is great advice! Moss, my thoughts are with you and I am wishing you strength and peace. B

[MossRose]

can't find my way out

Rusty - thought you might find this interesting. My ex managed to woo a very nice women. They lived together for a while until he screwed her over. OMG, then she called me!!! It was weird, but in some ways, it was healing. Life is strange. She's really nice. Glad she got out early on. Good for her.

[MossRose]

can't find my way out

Thanks Happy and Byrdie. I'll be fine. Sent out an SOS and you answered. Appreciate it.

[Guitarista]

can't find my way out

Hey Moss rose

I think your son will reflect and be very, very grateful that his mum made it possible for him to attend his big event. This is what you did for your son. There's no denying your loving action in anyone's book. Maybe no-one else is aware of your action. So what. You know it, and your son knows it, forever more. I reckon you are a great mum and you kick serious ass. Turn off the untrue, unreal, false monkey mind radio station.

G bloke.

[scottish lass]

can't find my way out

MR - sorry you are feeling this way - I don't totally understand as this hasn't happened for me yet, but know it will - it hurts enough when it happens in the same town that I am in, never mind in another state - I can only imagine and I am so not looking forward to it - let me know if I can help.....
Well done for reaching out - it does help when we take that step, but not an easy one - sending lots of love and big hugs...:l:l