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[coriander]

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Thankyou g bloke. You too.
I'm not up for emoticons just yet.

[MossRose]

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Hi coriander. I understand the war in your head. Bad place to be. Sorry you are there. But I've been following your thread and I'm seeing something good happening here. You probably totally isolate when you are edging towards the edge of the cliff. I understand. I do the same thing. Been there more than a few times.

But the more you talk here, the better, right. Remember always, we understand. So, stay engaged. You asked for advice on climbing out of the abyss. My only advice is to reach out - keep reaching out - even if it's uncomfortable. I get it. But, keep talking as much as you need. We are here. Take very good care of yourself. xx

[coriander]

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Thank you Moss, I get ya.

[mama bear]

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be well Cori!

[fluff]

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Hi Cori- I like your name! A spice- coriander which is wonderful.
I get how you're feeling and this is a good place to post your feelings because I think ALOT of us get where you're coming from. I, too, have had suicidal thoughts just to get out of this trap- but, I have two kids who need me, so that's just not going to happen. I reassure myself, I exercise- which really helps- and you know what? If you don't drink those thoughts do tend to go away.
All the best to you

[coriander]

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Thanks mama, you've always been such a caring lady, and fluff, Thankyou.

[MossRose]

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coriander - how are you doing today? Thinking of you. xx

[coriander]

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Hey mossy, i think the midday quetiapine is helping. It's foreign to experience moments of self care, AND I'm going on a date next week:blush::blush::shocked:
Seeing my lovely doc again tomorrow to get a concrete plan in place in case i crash again, and Jane27 has suggested mood tracking.
And yourself? Doing ok?

[MossRose]

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Cori - relish the moments of self-care. You first! And everything will fall into place after. Know what I mean? I am doing well. But the fact that you asked tells me who you are as a person. You have empathy for others. So you will be ok. I know that sounds simplistic. But you possess one of the most important traits - empathy and caring. I will always be here for you, coriander. And let us know how the date goes..fingers crossed. Have fun!!

[coriander]

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Oh mossy you nearly made me cry. Thankyou for your support. Gotta shift arse and take names for now, may i be so bold as to send you a :l

[panadol]

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Hi Cori and Mossy
Great support you're getting here Cori!! Awesome to have people share their lived experience.
It sounds like the meds are doing their job its so good to hear you sounding better. Sooooo you have a hot date??? Can't wait to hear how it goes (I have to live vicariously these days) . Lovely steps into a new life..... Stay well!!

[coriander]

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Hey panny , the bloke I'm meeting at Casella's for lunch is someone I met in the APU ironically!
He's a fair bit younger than me so the "hot date" ref is pretty tongue in cheek. But we got on really well so it'll be more friendly than romantic!
Back to see my doc again today, before he goes away until October . I really think the added quetiapine after lunch is helping a bit.

I hope that continued posts on here remain as supportive and understanding as they have been.
Thanks everyone.

[MossRose]

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Still here Cori. Got distracted by life for a minute. But so glad you are sounding better. Can't wait for an update on the date. btw...what is the APU? Keep practicing self-care. You deserve it!

[coriander]

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Mossy, APU is the acute psychiatric unit in Bunbury . Pathetic huh.
Woke up fairly positive, but how rapidly things change.

[mama bear]

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I am so happy you are feeling somewhat better. I remember black, dark days and even five minutes of peace was worth it
XOXO