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    The Craving: (in a most wicked and condescending voice), "Day 3 for you. You must be proud! All the congratulations must give you a sense that you can actually fight me off! Haa haa! For now, you will. The physical symptoms you feel right now are your strength, no one likes to feel like shit, oh the embarrassment, the shame, the guilt, the missing work, the laying around for a whole day, the not remembering what you said or what was said to you, the shameful texting..... Go ahead, think you can beat me"

    ME: "I hate you Craving. I know you don't care. All you care about is getting me to take that first sip, that first drink. Do not for one second think that I am not aware of the false sense of hope you give me on these first days when I feel sick and ashamed.

    I don't know how you can be so powerful, the anxiety you can create in me is distressing. I don't want you now, but I know in a few days I will begin to bend to your lure. How do you do it? What sick pleasure do you derive from this? What is wrong with you?"

    The Craving: "You're right, I don't care... My game is to get you to take that first drink because we all know, there is no such thing as ONE drink for an alcoholic. Even if one night you take only ONE drink, it won't be too many nights away that the one drink will turn into an oblivion of drinks and I will have won 2-3 of your days. Days which you can never get back! I know you so well!! and that is my pleasure"

    ME: "You make me sick! You make me physically, emotionally, and spiritually sick! For now Craving, your power is strong and for so long you've made me think you were more powerful. You put up a good deceitful and manipulative fight, BUT I'm on to you now... I know the anxiety you can create can be so strong, I can feel it run through my veins! But I'm on to you. You keep me up at night but as I get stronger, I will sleep through your evil tactics. And you know what Craving? All I have to do is .. NOT TAKE THAT FIRST DRINK! - I am on to you Craving and I will fight you to the end ... and as time goes on, you will weaken. In fact, in time I won't even think about you, and if you do come lurking around, I will remember your once held power and Will Not give it back to you! You are an evil SOB and I have my fight on!"

    The Craving: " We shall see, LoL!"

    ME: "And so we shall...."

    Good Night. Fighting It. Hate Cravings...
    IWMB :lilheart:

    #2
    The Craving...

    Nicely done! Good way to think. Keep us posted with more

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      #3
      The Craving...

      Thank you anne1232, you've inspired me to write more...

      Unfortunately, I did but it wouldn't let me post and refreshing the page erased it all! augghhh! Perhaps tomorrow!

      Good night all!

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        #4
        The Craving...

        Iwant, you hit the nail on the head with al, it took nearly everything from me but with pure grit and determination i am winning. I have lost so much due to al but not anymore. I still have cravings but i put al in his box where he belongs but i will never become complacent in my sobriety. My quit is my life, literally and if i take that one sip i am a slave to al again. It is my choice to say no and therefore for today i will not drink.

        An excellent post.
        AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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          #5
          The Craving...

          I am so glad I looked at this thread tonight! Exactly what I needed to read, it's like you took it from my mind. Great stuff!
          AF 08~05~2014


          There is a 100% chance I can't do this by myself! ~ Me

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            #6
            The Craving...

            Ava~ Your posts always speak volumes!
            AF 08~05~2014


            There is a 100% chance I can't do this by myself! ~ Me

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              #7
              The Craving...

              hank you Ava and Matt for your responses.... I am so appreciative

              THE CRAVING: I'm baaacckkk! But then you knew I would be. You silly, silly little girl, thinking you could so easily push me away. I know this game much better than you do. I have millions of, " players of the game" throughout the globe. I break players of the game everyday! I even told you; I will give you space for the first few days - allowing you to think you have gained some ground. It is my biggest advantage! Then 7 or 10 days later I come back in full force....

              ME: Congratulations Craving. You throw an amazing welcome back party! You are amazing in your tactics. However, you Shitpile, you are grasping at straws. You know it was the environment that broke me, not you!! You knew I could not back out of that invite and you, being the coward that you are - took full advantage of that ONE weak moment.

              I will not give up. I will fight you to the end!! I will not sulk in shame and guilt as you laugh and taunt me.... Even you have to see that it was not an EPIC fall. No embarassing moments, no drunken texts, stayed away from shots and the hard stuff. You are losing ground you f'n asshole!

              THE CRAVING: haa haa haa haa! I love a good fight, most of my games are so easy! In fact, I welcome all those who challenge me, keeps my game up! You see, its such an easy game, all I have to do is lure the players of the game to the first drink..... You keep up the fight! Thank you for the entertainment. See you soon....

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                #8
                The Craving...

                Glad to see you are still hanging in there Iwantme back!!!
                (AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months sober

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                  #9
                  The Craving...

                  Wow, I want...how powerful is that post!!!!

                  I can see a movie here called The Craving'... It is entirely creepy.... Thanks so much for making that POS tangible.
                  :l
                  On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
                  *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
                  https://www.mywayout.org/community/f11/tool-box-27556.html tool box
                  https://www.mywayout.org/community/f19/newbies-nest-30074.html newbie nest

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                    #10
                    The Craving...

                    Thank you Elosie!

                    jane27 - Thank you for the encouragement..

                    Kradle27 - Creepy indeed! ...

                    THE CRAVING: Day 4 again IWMB? You bore me. How many times must we re-do Day 1 thorugh 4? .... Keep up the good work IWMB! .. See you in 3 days. You know you can't stand the detachment you have created in your life. You need me I make everything wonderful

                    ME: Day 4 and I kicked your ass today! It was hard, I'll give you that you POS!

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                      #11
                      The Craving...

                      Dont drink!!! I did and I pad for it. Stay sober I wish I did

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                        #12
                        The Craving...

                        I am on day 2, (couldn't afford the $250.00 a DAY "co-insurance" for an inpatient detox), and I REALLY needed to read this. I found 10 Librium I was given a few years ago...while trying to stop drinking for the 50th time...and that helped put me to sleep...for about 30 minutes....now I am up and feel like crap....but reading this has helped.

                        KEEP IT UP...don't give in to that POS Craving!

                        d(-_-)b

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                          #13
                          The Craving...

                          Hi Cornczech! Good on you for day 2 of your detox. Lots of helpful stuff to read around here, especially the Toolbox. Link below.

                          https://www.mywayout.org/community/fo...25721-tool-box

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