yet another relapse

[tf3030]

mollyka- Shakes, sweats, and anxiety make it impossible for me to perform tasks that I needed done. How can you drive when you have DTs? you can't. Try holding a steering wheel when your arm is shaking so hard. Not trying to be mean or anything, I'm just sayin
JackieClaire - been there before and it cost me 5000+ dollars...I don't have that kind of money

[roxane]

AA doesnt cost.

[JackieClaire]

OK then............dial the AA number...........they'll put you in touch with someone who'll help for free.

[tf3030]

It's just so hard to deal with people because I fear they will judge me. I took alot of courage to go onto this website today and confess all of this stuff. The reason I started drinking a long time ago was to deal with social anxiety. The guilt, the shame and the depression it causes is just so hard to deal with. I've fucked up my life with this booze and I have admitted it to people but no one quite understands it

[roxane]

call AA. they will definitely understand and will not judge.

[JackieClaire]

Tell you something to reach out today cannot and will not be judged by any one here or in AA..........we have all felt that terrible despair that you are going through......go on give the number a call,please............they can help.

[tf3030]

calling now. we'll see how it goes

[roxane]

good to hear.

[tf3030]

Talked to a guy from AA and he was cool. Now how to get through the withdrawals

[roxane]

that was quick, did you tell him what you told us?

[tf3030]

yeah. mental support will be necessary but first I must handle the physical aspects

[roxane]

ok, i have no experience of AA, thats as far as i can go. anyone else with advise?

[tf3030]

no librium for over 12 hours. Still drinking. Trying to stay awake so the bad stuff doesn't happen. I'm deathly afraid that if I fall asleep I won't wake up

[tf3030]

you've been the best friend i've talked to in a long while...gonna lay down and get back to you

[See the Light]

TF_ If you can rest, that is good..I doubt you will sleep if you are in the peak stages though. After you rest, if you feel better, you may not be through the worst still, so then you need to decide what to do. So drinking AL mildly (maybe without the drugs?) to stop the withdrawal process could be the best thing at this point depending on how bad your dependence is and how far along you are (which again is hard to judge when you are alone), because one thing is clear now…you were not ready. You should not quit trying to quit, but maybe take a break, do some research and come back prepared and NOT ALONE..Home detox is possible, but it does depend on lots of things, and medical detox is much safer still. . If that is your only option, it should be supervised…withdrawal can make you do crazy shit, and DTs are very serious..

DTs are the most serious of several syndromes that can occur when someone who is physically dependent on alcohol stops drinking. By serious, I mean that people with this condition can die. Even with hospital treatment the death rate can be 1-5%, but without treatment it could be 20%. Even convulsive seizures—another alcohol withdrawal syndrome—are less likely to be lethal than the DTs (Symptoms of DTs typically start 2-4 days after the last drink in someone with prior heavy and prolonged consumption of alcohol.)

Let us know how you are doing when you can…but do try get some addtional help as well...