I am a horrible person

[abcowboy]

Dove, we were all at Day 1, some of us through many day 1's. There's not much more that I can add to the great advice already given, just remember as Sam said, your "want" to quit drinking has to far outweigh your "need" to quit drinking or this journey will be tougher than it needs to be. Hang in there my friend, we're all here for you!

[j-vo]

I'm gonna piggyback on everyone's advice to you. Get yourself sorted out first. You've got to do the work to be sober, and it can be done! And your life can and will be better. Believe what these people are telling you. They know what they're talking about.

[doveagain]

Thank you all. You are all so supportive. My girlfriend says she will work on forgiving me but is worried she will be scared I will do it again. I don't know how to take that fear away from her.

[Choices]

It sounds like you are very important to her and she doesn't want to loose you either if she is willing to stick around. I guess my question is are you willing to ditch the booze to keep her? And more importantly get yourself strait? It's wonderful to have love as a motivation, but at the end of the day it's important that you recognize how during a black out you are still responsible for your actions so... The only way to not black out is.... Not to drink. If you continue to drink odds are you will black out and do this again or worse. Talk can be pretty cheap when you continue to drink.

[treetops]

good straightforward advice here and it's pretty obvious what you have to do. The alcoholic voice is trying to win you over but if you listen to that you will loose your girlfriend and that may not be all. I don't usually like to invoke fear but you have to take action and change you life around. But still at the end of the day it's up to you. We can help and we have had to work bloody hard to quit. It's really worth it and you have so much to gain here.

[Mick]

i can only reiterate what folks have said on here...yep I wanted the magic cure ..whoosh thats it.. stopped drinking job done ..and I was just like all the other long termers on here...but it didnt work like that ...what you need is determination ..support ,strategy friendship..and a massive dose of it aint gonna beat me...mix it all together ...and it works definitely..so go for it..you have nothing to lose..but much to gain:thumbsup:

[YouKayBee]

Only stopping drinking will stop this from repeating, regaining trust will take time, and patience, but it is all possible.

[walter230]

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[Samstone]

Hello everyone, cyberphonehacker gmail com is the best out here. He helped me hack my cheating wife phone. she was supposed to be in Canada working but instead she was cheating on me. Kindly tell him Walter reffered you to him. He'd help

what the hell??

[doveagain]

Yeah, second thread of mine today to be hacked...I feel like 'walter' has way more problems than a cheating wife if he would actually pay a company to invade her privacy like that...just sayin.

[Choices]

That is funny dove.. When threads get hacked I sometimes laugh out loud literally. We are all spilling our hearts and souls out and someone ridiculous just posts the most crazy inappropriate garbage... I dunno... Why I find it comical. I guess because it's absolutely obscured.

[fennel]

Yeah, second thread of mine today to be hacked...I feel like 'walter' has way more problems than a cheating wife if he would actually pay a company to invade her privacy like that...just sayin.

It's not just you...these obnoxious posts are popping up everywhere.

[fennel]

Many of us were or are in the same boat, those of us who quit at one time or another had to make a choice. That's what it boils down to, then the work begins and actually once you are sober for awhile, a person can find it ain't that bad not feeling like shit physically and mentally. Stick with us, read, and post. We're here for you if you want to work on getting sober.

Exactly this.

For me, that first night was the hardest. I had to really focus on other tasks because my natural inclination was to run out and buy alcohol. I cleaned the house like CRAZY that first night! When I got to the end of the day and went to bed, I felt the first glimmers of victory. The following evenings became incrementally less difficult.

I don't know where you stand on AA, but meetings are a great distraction in the evenings, plus you're with like minded people who know what you're going through.

If you want to regain your girlfriend's trust, quitting the drink would go a long ways in helping your case.