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Roger
There are always many decisions to make in life. None of them are easy. I just want to say that I hope you put your happiness first. Your kids are so important to you and I know you will never forget that, but just make yourself happy.
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[AAthlete]

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T, thanks for the honest post.

I know from experience that a lot of the choices that I made in the past were made under the influence of alcohol. If I had my current sobriety then most likely I would have made a lot of the differently, but that is something that I cannot lose sleep over anymore. The past is in the past and there is nothing that I can do about it, right?

So I guess what I am trying to say is that you need to determine what is most important to you and remember the positives that you have in your life. For instance, I don't know for sure that I would have married my wife had I been sober back then. But I need to balance that with the fact that I do care for her, and she gave me the most wonderful son in the world. If I left her, I would hurt everyone and I am not willing to do that.

In the end life is all about finding the right balance, right?

[doubter]

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be strong...

Roger!

Whatever struggles you are going through now, please do remember you are in a better shape to face them when sober. I don't know about your material situation but I'm sure that your one year plus of sobriety must have brought about dramatic positive changes in the way you react to life's problems.

Also do remember the concern that you shower on all newbies coming to mwo. We are all grateful to you for your help.

Remain strong and I'm sure, you will come through your present difficulty successfully.

Karmayogi

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thank you all and you all are right... i will overcome this part of life .. really you can say i have alot to lose but as long as i know.. what i want right now and try to work it out .. life will go on.. and i will not let this bring me down ..but learn and keep on asking questions and try to find the answers ..
the first answer is that alcohol will just make it worst ..never better ..
like the saying goes ..just add alcohol and pour .. instand asshole .. now thats just me ..

thank you stay strong and im trying to stay positive ..

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hi wally22 .. im 41 drug free for 9 years and af you know how long .. and yes i use to put the blame .. on everyone else .. but me now that im awake and i can see clear .. i see everything that has been said and i would try to sweep it under the rug .. whats bad if i leave now what would i look like an asshole becuase i left her when she was in need .. but there is always a needy time and it never ends ..and yes at times i feel i should have never woken up and stay asleep ..meaning stay drunk .. and as for a mid life crisis.. lets see fuck around on my ex did drugs seen people get kill on the shit i have sold them .. try to kill myself,, but hell god its not my time as they say and should i go on and on ..
sorry just venting and the feeling like im totally alone ..but hey there someone here but not here .. if you know what i mean

[startingover]

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Mr T, I dont have any wise words or advice for you but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Determinator]

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hey bro, sorry about this rough patch you are encountering. all in all you have life in pretty good order it sounds like. have wife and kids that love you a lot even though they may not get together all the time. and work is rough but you are clear headed to do whatever it takes to keep food on the table. All this is thanks to your good decisions and the reward of your great AF lifestyle. I don't have any super answer but what you said in your first post is critical: that you decide to be happy.