Sara, you are wise beyond your time in sobriety! Congratulations for not giving in. If you are anything like me when it comes to AL, then one drink surely leads down the ugly path - and fast. It is hard at first. It gets easier with time, but I know I will forever have to be on my guard for the random "now I'm fixed and can have just one..." thinking.
Mr Doggy is a complete "normie" when it comes to AL. I've taken some time over the last year to really observe how he is with AL. RJ makes a comment in her book to the effect that if AL is no more / less important than butter, you can handle it moderately. Well, in Mr. Doggy's case, if given the option of keeping butter or beer in his life, he would keep the butter-thank-you-very-much. And yet he is not a complete non-drinker. He has a beer or sometimes two (or sometimes zero) after dog training and at holiday parties - stuff like that. I have NEVER had that kind of relationship with AL- not even when I first drank as a teen.
So - looking really hard at these facts, I can never change and morph into a moderate drinker. I guess the analogy is this. We start out as cucumbers. With the addition of AL, some of us become pickles. Once a pickle, I can never be a cucumber again. (and on a good day I'm a sweet pickle. On a bad day, a dill pickle. When I'm scatter brained I'm pickle relish...)
Sara, I like the way you think. That's a huge part of this battle IMO.
DG
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