Admitting your an alcoholic

[mario]

Have i admitted i am an alcoholic ? Have i swallowed my pride & admitted i was different from ordinary drinkers ?
Have i accepted the fact that i must spend the rest of my life without alcohol ? Have i any more reservations, Any idea in the back of my mind that i will be able to drink safely ? Have i taken an inventory of myself and admitted the wrong that i have done ?.

Keeping sober is the most important thing in my life,The most important decision i ever made was my decision to give up drinking, I am convinced that my whole life now depends on me not taking that first drink, Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety, Everything i have depends on that one thing,
Can i ever afford to forget this, even for one minute,......For me no way..

[Butterflybe]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Wow, that's quite a statement and promise to yourself. Well done and thanks for posting it as it has helped remind me why I have started this journey - I clearly have short term memory as only re-started my journey yesterday and already today struggling to focus on why I'm wanting to be sober!
ButterflyBe

[Guest]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Mario. I know you. YOU KNOW YOU!

[Guest]

Admitting your an alcoholic

I don't want to take away from Marios post, but B, the most important thing in this journey to sobriety is REMEMBERING WHY you wanted to take it. I'm sure Mario will be happy for me saying this. His journey has been one of terrible hardship and he deserves our respect.

[spuddleduck]

Admitting your an alcoholic

thanks mario. a very good reminder. staying sober is the most important thing in my life as it affects my whole life. for the first time in ages i can look forward with a smile

[clare]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Is that one of your tools mario, never forgetting where you came from and how far you have come ?

[mario]

Admitting your an alcoholic

clare;840154 wrote: Is that one of your tools mario, never forgetting where you came from and how far you have come ?

Yes clare by not forgetting what alcohol has done to me & mine, i hope to never have one alcoholic drink again.

[clare]

Admitting your an alcoholic

mario;840166 wrote: Yes clare by not forgetting what alcohol has done to me & mine, i hope to never have one alcoholic drink again.

Good for you mario, you certainlly rock .

[Winefree]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Thanks for posting Mario. I am closing in on the one year mark and having second and third thoughts. Hoping I could be "normal" again sometime.
I am trying to convince myself that I am NOT normal, but keep fighting it.

I hope these feelings go away soon. I haven't had so many drinking thoughts in months.

Winefree
AF 5/2/09

[hazeleyes]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Winefree;846508 wrote: Thanks for posting Mario. I am closing in on the one year mark and having second and third thoughts. Hoping I could be "normal" again sometime.
I am trying to convince myself that I am NOT normal, but keep fighting it.

I hope these feelings go away soon. I haven't had so many drinking thoughts in months.

Winefree
AF 5/2/09

Hi Winefree
Thanks for sharing. I have only been AF for 14 days and am struggling with what to do with myself and looking at bottlestores again and wondering if I will weaken. I have been very strong about not drinking and how bad it is to myself and to my husband and I don't really want to go back, but the thoughts keep coming up. Not sure what to do except come here and keep reading.

H

[Fibejebe]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Hello Mario,

I have a lot of trouble using the *A* word. Am happy to call myself a wino and a p**shead but find the *A* word too confronting. Not sure why. In writing on forums I can say "alki" but I could never go to an AA meeting and say "hello my name is FeeBee and I am an alcoholic."

Oh look .... I just wrote the whole sentence and my computer didn't crash. :H

[Winefree]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Feebee, I've been going to AA for a little over a year. I still have a hard time saying I'm an alcoholic.Maybe that's why I don't share too much, since I don't have to say it as often. It doesn't change the fact however, that yes, I have a problem with alcohol and once I start these days, I want enough to make me drunk and yes, a bit more. Whatever you call it, it's alcoholism. Doesn't keep me away from AA meetings, since these have been my lifeline to being AF for the past year(tomorrow).

Hazel, I had several trigger times in my early sobriety. Those were the times I had to rely on the L-glut, kudzu, vitamins, MWO books, MWO CD's and my new found friends in AA to get through.
It happened several times in the first few months of sobriety, but resolved for many months until this anniversary that is coming up. I am not needing to use the l=glut or kudzu for any cravings, but have had to confide in friends from AA and go to more meetings to get me through. Just the "beast" in my head trying to win again, and I will continue to fight him off.
You can too!

Winefree

[hazeleyes]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Thanks winefree. I really appreciate your comments and the need to stick to the supplements. Glad to here I am not alone in my doubts.

As you say...I will keep up the fight
Day15AF almost over.
H

[godschild]

Admitting your an alcoholic

I knew I was an alcoholic and so did everyone around me, but the problem I had was accepting it. I still had reservations that somehow someday I would be able to control and enjoy my drinking. Alcohol was destroying me but I didn't want to give it up, I didn't want to be an alcoholic, I was going to show me and everyone else that I wasn't an alcoholic. It wasn't until I accepted that I was an alcoholic and made the decision to surrender and do whatever it took to get sober was I willing to take the steps necessary to change. I still think about drinking at times, but just for today I choose not to.

[dizilizid]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Mario that is a great thread. I love it. I am goin to use it and write it down and go over it every hour. Thank you man. Alcohol for me is the same. I cannot even stop thinkin about stayin sober, even for a minute. Everythin in my life is comes down to that. This post has really hit a nerve in me. It's really made me think a lot. I need to stay focused and never forget ever what i'm doin, and why i'm doin it. Thank you Mario.