Admitting your an alcoholic

[Guitarista]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Hi Mario, and everyone,
At just 18 months sober, i am strong, commited, focused, and loving my new life, and the new me, but i'm definately not out of the wood's just yet.
For me, my THINKING, and what i do with my time is crucial. I alway's try to remember where i've come from, and how wasteful my life used to be. I still get occassional thought like your's too, Wine free, i.e. can i drink again, i wonder? So you're not alone there. But i know for today, for the here and now, not drinking for me is the way. I look at the huge change in me since being sober 24/7, and i can't argue. The evidence is irrefutable. There are absolutely no negatives in being sober. And for today at least, i know this is my true path. Our thinking and mind set/headspace is very, very important, and we must work on it to maintain it.

Best wishes all!

[techie]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Guitarista,
Powerful words. I was touched by your honesty re: poison thoughts, but your sincere comittment to your sobriety rings clear through your reply to Mario, et al. Thanks much!

[gyco]

Admitting your an alcoholic

hi mario,its a good question,xcellent thread,i remember being in a n AA meeting,and a member said,quote i say AA,cause you use there philosify,you are when u say u are,[an alchoholic] ,no one else,ive lerned over time,there are reprocussions to admittance,found tht out b4,and of late,im not critisizing you,but dont kid yourself,society still has not come far enuff,or accepted the fact that we xist,,man or women alike,have not evolve d enuff yet,recent i wnt into the emergency to refill my perscription for pain releif,prescibed by my specialist,i think he new what he was doing,cause the hospital has to have all the fact and they also have my history,the doc on duty ,i tol d i went thro treatment,[alchoholism]cause he asked,by the way the other doc prescibed oxycodone,10 to 20 mil every 4 hours,i am aware of any risks,i did go thro treatment,daaaa,i had an alchohol problem,i dont any more unless i let it go rampent,i am not a drug adddct,never had the problem,nevr will,beware of who you admit it to,thnx mario and i am happy for you gykes

[Doggygirl]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Guitarista, I too like your post a lot. My own mind will try to play tricks on me. But it usually doesn't start with something BOLD and BIG. It will be a small thought. Just something little like "boy doesn't that margurita on the billboard look good." And if I'm not careful, and if I let my mind wander where *IT* wants to go, I'll soon be thinking things like..."If I ever went on vacation in Mexico then maybe I could have marguritas just on vacation....." Next thing you know, I'm thinking the Mexican taco stand right down the street looks like a vacation destination.

Once the physical withdrawls are past, this is definitely a challenging mind game. My gratitude list is one of the most important things I posess.

DG

[Jane Thompson]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Hi Everyone – I’ve been AF for 14weeks (although it seems a lifetime!) after drinking for 20+ years, so I’m cautiously optimistic but still have a long way to go. The last few days have been hard for some reason – no life ‘issues’ but its hard to accept that I will never drink again – like Doggygirl said, those cocktail/wine ads can look so tempting… surely just one won’t hurt?… but then I remember the crap I’ve been through to get to this point and I know its not worth it. This time AF, I’ve found the tools in ‘Rational Recovery’ (there is a website, book, etc.) really helpful (I’ve posted about this on the Newbies site) – there are no excuses in the RR approach: I’ve made a promise to myself never to drink again and that’s all there is to it – no relapses, no moderation. The cravings are not me, they are my Addictive Voice and my challenge is to recognise that voice when it whispers, or yells, for attention, and realise all it wants is the pleasure trip of getting smashed – but I’ll be the one who has to pick up the pieces afterwards. As I said, it doesn’t seem to be getting easier, but I have no choice, and my AF life is definitely preferable. Good luck everyone, JT

[mario]

Admitting your an alcoholic

mario;839682 wrote: Have i admitted i am an alcoholic ? Have i swallowed my pride & admitted i was different from ordinary drinkers ?
Have i accepted the fact that i must spend the rest of my life without alcohol ? Have i any more reservations, Any idea in the back of my mind that i will be able to drink safely ? Have i taken an inventory of myself and admitted the wrong that i have done ?.

Keeping sober is the most important thing in my life,The most important decision i ever made was my decision to give up drinking, I am convinced that my whole life now depends on me not taking that first drink, Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety, Everything i have depends on that one thing,
Can i ever afford to forget this, even for one minute,......For me no way..

I still feel this way Thank god.

[Doggygirl]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Me too Mario, me too. Thanks for bumping this up.

DG

[Wally22]

Admitting your an alcoholic

This is a great thread. I still can't say I'm a "you know what" out loud. It just sticks in my throat.
However I am much happier being AF and I don't ever want another drink.
I do however want it to be much harder for people to post tempting ads about booze right in front of my face. It's just so damn inconsiderate!!!!

[Sunnyvalenting]

Admitting your an alcoholic

I am no longer alcohol dependent and I don't go around telling others that I once was. That being said I know I will never drink again and that is such a relief! I know I have a vulnerability which will last a lifetime. Abstinence, tho important, is no longer the defining issue in my life. I presume and expect it as a natural part of me but only one part of a whole life. What a blessing. Thanks to all who share their stories. It is so encouraging.
Sunny

[choice]

Admitting your an alcoholic

Well, yes I can say it now. I am an alcoholic. I feel better knowing this because it means I can't drink. It means I don't have to struggle trying to drink normally anymore and fail. I was scared of how dangerous my drinking had become. I've only told a few people outside of MWO because I feel like the word makes people uncomfortable.. When I have said it out loud I'll admit hearing my own voice saying it sounded pretty surreal. And I don't sound very confident, but I hope that will come.

I guess before I knew I was an alcoholic I thought it was a very sad fate for people and just was relieved I wasn't one. I never thought it could happen to me. I do know that when people told me they were alcoholics I really respected them for not drinking. I felt proud of them. I guess it's just easier for me to admit it then to question it so I can stay sober.

I use to think I was entitled to drink as much as I wanted whenever I wanted because I was an adult. I haven't taken an inventory of myself or admitted to the wrong that I have done. I'm not sure how to do this but I'm beginning to feel strong enough to give it a try. In the early days I think I would have crumbled into self hatred and I'm not to sure if I could have picked myself up. I am able to handle asking people I love if my drinking hurt them. I am able to cope when I hear the words yes. I guess I want to learn more about this inventory process and making amends. I feel like people I've hurt deserve a heart felt apology for the things I have done. From what I can hear mostly I was a source of real worry for my mother and sister.

I'm with you Mario, Keeping sober is the most important thing in my life. The most important decision I have ever made as well. I love the fact that I made a good solid decision that is right without any doubt. And it is enlightening to realize that admitting to being an alcoholic has opened a whole new world for me that is so much more manageable, it's not what I thought... it's not a sad fate at all. Sober life is amazing. I'm happier, richer, smarter, healthier, nicer, hopeful... I just wish I could have figured this out sooner. :thanks: for this thread. I'm still really new at this and it helps to write about my feelings regarding the word alcoholic.