I was talking to a friend yesterday who said that she was struggling with becoming af as she seemed to fixate on the negative, or deprivation thinking that can often plague us at the start of our journey.
I wanted to start a thread and look at the positive life changes that come with long term sobriety, in my case 2 years.
For me, I am a completely different person than the p*sshead that I was. I was nervous, unconfident, constantly worrying about the future, about now and about the past. I felt I didnt really have much of a life, and what I had was boring, empty and with not much future.
Hitting my rock bottom and deciding to get sober was a scary prospect and I went through many emotions that have been well documented on my journey. But now, looking at 2 years down the track I look back and see what a different person I have become.
In order to fill in time I would have spent drinking, I enrolled in a university course, through this I got some voluntary work which led on to a change in career to something I have a passion for which is helping people instead of making corporations money.
I have made friends that have become such an important part of my life who I love dearly (you know who you are) and although I dont see them often, they are there for me all the time at the click of a mouse and some I meet up with a couple of times a year. I feel blessed to have made such wonderful friends through such a horrible problem. I could never make friends before as I didnt want them knowing my dirty little secrets.
I have travelled alone to new countries and met new people. Being able to do this with the money I have saved and the confidence I have gained.
My husband, from being initially worried about how sobriety would change me, never ever wants me to go back to the person I was.
I am relaxed in my own company and the company of others, not always needing to get away and actually enjoying the mundane parts of life and enjoying being part of life.
Oh and I think I look better too
Anyway, these are just a few of the changes I have found in myself since turning my life around.
I hope it gives someone the impetus to get through the initial days that can be fraught with worry about so many things. Like will my life be worth living without alcohol, without a buzz.
The resounding answer is YES!!!!
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