5 years sober today

[startingover]

5 years sober today

ATT what an amazing post. The whole thing really touched me, your constant determination and the fact that there are still struggles to be fought.
However this bit really stood out for me


[QUOTE=about time toooo;993736]I

I am aware that I have not kept up with the community on this site. I have had a look around and there are many names that are new to me. I see that this section of the board is still pretty quiet. But if anyone was around when I used to be here a lot and was wondering how I was going (says she hopefully).. I want them to know that I am ok. The journey of sobriety was linked (for me) with this site. Once I got the hang of it I wanted to tell everyone. I wanted to heal everyone else. To give them my hand to help them. Then I got angry... I mean, why wouldnt people just do what I did. Thats when I knew I had more work to do on myself and I started to move away from here. I was unable to watch the volume of pain for that long. For me, that was the right thing to do. I can only do this for me... and to do it for me, I have to listen to myself and act where I need to. You know... I think that when I first 'got it' about sobriety I wanted to help the world.. I went into overdrive trying to pull people along when all along it was me that I needed to work on. I guess many of us might think we can 'be there' for others in this journey but my reality was that I needed to 'be there' for myself for to think that I was worth the effort. That was hard for me. I'm not saying that others didnt help me, you understand.. far from it.. what I am alluding to is the need for us to work internally on this.

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Thanks for coming back and telling your story again, it it wonderful to hear x

[stirly-girly]

5 years sober today

It is a great inspiration to all when a person with such a long sobriety posts here to remind us all that it can be done. Thank you About Time for sharing your thoughts and experience with us and congratulations on 5 years AF. A fantastic achievement!!

[dancelot]

5 years sober today

About time too - Congratulations on 5 years AF!!!!! Thank you for sharing so honestly. It's always good to hear from anyone who is making it long term. I remember feeling like a long termer around here at 5 months, then going to AA and meeting people who's sobriety date was around the time I started (1973). Look forward to hearing from you next year, and hope you have a great one!

[tiptronic_ct]

5 years sober today

Truly inspirational.

Thank you for posting!

[sapphire1]

5 years sober today

Thankyou so much for sharing your amazing story with us. It has been the highlight of my week to read this truly inspirational account of your journey from addiction to sobriety. I will save this post and read it regularly and it will give me strength on my own journey out of darkness and into the amazing brilliance of a present, sober and engaged life. Thankyou and much love and grace Saff

[about time toooo]

5 years sober today

You people are too kind. Reading these posts has made me smile. thank you all.

Reggie I dont know if I can say there was one thought. I can say that I knew with every cell in my body that the path I was on was wrong.. no matter how I tried to fool myself I was not having fun with it. Jeepers drinking was my 'rewad' (as if)... I didnt think I could do it but I hoped. I guess I was aware that I was killing myself but I just knew I wanted something else, but I was afraid even to hope.

I did not decide to go the long haul on that first awful sober day. I think I just thought I need to change.. Initially I thought I"ll do 7 days. Having done that (the first three were absolute hell) I just hung on for dear life...

At about 30 days things started to change for me.. I started at the gym and I started counselling. I figured if I dont sort out why and how I'd got to that dark place I'd go there again. It was time for something different.

If I were to say one thing that helped me as a one thing it would be honesty. I decided to be honest with myself. I still try. Being honest is not easy for someone who could drink so secretively and so voluminously but its free and its possible.

Determination helps too.

Sapphire - your post really made me smile. Good luck to you too.. Life IS better this way, I'm not lying.

And here I am at 5 years. Yay, yay and yay.

B

[boycie]

5 years sober today

awesome achievement gives us all hope, thank you so so much for sharing

[gyco]

5 years sober today

about time toooo;993985 wrote: You people are too kind. Reading these posts has made me smile. thank you all.

Reggie I dont know if I can say there was one thought. I can say that I knew with every cell in my body that the path I was on was wrong.. no matter how I tried to fool myself I was not having fun with it. Jeepers drinking was my 'rewad' (as if)... I didnt think I could do it but I hoped. I guess I was aware that I was killing myself but I just knew I wanted something else, but I was afraid even to hope.

I did not decide to go the long haul on that first awful sober day. I think I just thought I need to change.. Initially I thought I"ll do 7 days. Having done that (the first three were absolute hell) I just hung on for dear life...

At about 30 days things started to change for me.. I started at the gym and I started counselling. I figured if I dont sort out why and how I'd got to that dark place I'd go there again. It was time for something different.

If I were to say one thing that helped me as a one thing it would be honesty. I decided to be honest with myself. I still try. Being honest is not easy for someone who could drink so secretively and so voluminously but its free and its possible.

Determination helps too.

Sapphire - your post really made me smile. Good luck to you too.. Life IS better this way, I'm not lying.

And here I am at 5 years. Yay, yay and yay.

B

:goodjob:very inspring thread,it is nice to see someone that has taken somthin from this site and lerned from it,also , its nice to see you return to the routes of your delema and give back with your knowledge and where you are today,:thanks:gyco

[Doggygirl]

5 years sober today

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[LVT25]

5 years sober today

About time--thanks so much for sharing this! And congratulations! At a little over 2 years since al has touched my lips, I still wonder at times if this is a forever thing. Thanks for putting this out there to reinforce the reasons we quit in the first place.

Best wishes to you! :l :goodjob:

[mario]

5 years sober today

Great post and thanks for sharing & showing that this can be done :-)

Be nice if you could drop in now & again to keep us on our toes.

[Peacefull]

5 years sober today

Congratulations!!

[rebirth]

5 years sober today

That was a fabulous read. Thank you for posting. I managed five months of sobriety but drank yesterday. I didnt go overboard , just four glasses of wine. I have luckily not had the compulsion to drink today...

Five years is really amazing. Plese stay posted. x

[Doggygirl]

5 years sober today

Rebirth, you are doing the right thing to get right back on the wagon. I hope you will be able to go to a meeting tomorrow? Glad you contacted your sponsor - that was the right thing to do. Keep moving forward. Cunning, baffling, powerful. It's not easy but it's worth it.

DG

[Going Strong]

5 years sober today

B you were one of the first people to help me when I first came here.

Your success then as well as Tawnys was one of the reasons I kept on coming here and trying.

Finally I am winning too!

I am so glad you posted as I think of you often.

Take Care

Shas (formally Sharyn44)