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I totally agree that i cant move away from mwo and that is a small price to pay for being sober which is the best present i can give myself. I am thankful that the long termers did not give up on me as when i was drunk i didnt believe in anything let alone being sober.

TJ i cant wait for one year. 8 months in 3 days and never in my life did i think i would be sober for that amount of time. its a truly wonderful feeling.

Steady Qld was wonderful, it was great to get some Vitamin D and meet a fellow mwoer and see mum. I came back to melbourne last night and by this afternoon wished i was back. Ummm not sure about spring after today but i hope so and it has been a mild winter really. No ice on the windscreen in the morning is a good sign.

Posting, well lunatic linda has settled down thank god but this is our AA and i have to check in to stay accountable and as bryd says its a small price to pay for sobriety.

[Lavande]

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CONGRATS TJAF on your 1 year sober anniversary :wd:
What a great feeling it is! Be proud of your accomplishment & protect your quit forever

Welcome home Ava

[Samstone]

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well done TJAF, one year of feeling sober is all it is cracked to be!!!!!

[Byrdlady]

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Rahulthesweet;1687303 wrote: So I was a drunk !
And life was simple
It was all about work ...
and having a drink ...
Real simple ...

Then it became all about drink ...
And then work ...
It became even more simpler
Work to drink ...

That was my purpose ...
Drink - my fake soul mate
My untrue love
My biggest mistake ..
But it made life simple
Just to have it will give ...
Biggest illusion of
satisfaction, accomplishment ...

But was a lie ... So I had to take it away
I was a drunk...
I am now in recovery
And life's more complicated ... Yes soooo simple !
With drink there for so long .. And now not being there ...
I must find real purpose why I was working ..
It's now - not about work to drink ...
It's now about work to live !
And live happily ..
True happiness. ... Wonder what it is ..
I thought I was drink ... I know now it not
What's what do we live for ?
Success ? Fame ? Money ? Love ?
But aren't they all illusions like the drink ?
Not meant to last long. ..
Or maybe they do ..
But if I have them then what's Next ?

Why are we here ? What are we living life for ?
I see my kids
They grow fast.
I miss their younger years
I was drinking
And working ...
Or just drinking ...
But I missed their youth
Soon they will be teens
Not so long ago I was a teen ...
How did I get here so fast ?
Time just flew ...
What was I doing all this time ?
Besides drinking ... Nothing ... Or just about everything ..
Now I can't do that
I can't drink and can't do just about anything ...
I must do what I should do
What I enjoy doing ...

What do I enjoy ...?
Was drinking ..
But now what ... This work ...
I don't enjoy this ... But why am I working ?
Or maybe I really enjoy it and my mind is numb ..

Used to so carefree ..
No worries ...
I always had a drink ...
But then it was fake ...
I was just being careless,
Heartless, irresponsible ..
Now suddenly I have to be all .. Responsible, careful etc.

It's a new feeling ..
New life ..
New purpose ..
New challenge ..
New experience ..
It's like being re born ...

I don't need drink ..
I need rest ...
Or maybe peace with myself
I know I am free ..
But something's missing ...
It's not the drink ... I don't miss her ..
It's so something else ...
I will find it ...

Wow, Rahul, this is beautiful. You WILL find that peace! It is a great place to be. I hit a flat spot between 4 and 6 months and wondered if this was as good as it's gonna get. I am happy to report, that unsettled feeling in your head will iron out and there is peace on the other side. Time will be your best friend on this journey! Beautiful post! B

[Rahulthesweet]

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Byrdlady,

I have flu ... Was not feeling great yesterday. Was thinking a lot yesterday. Hence the post. I dont know what I was typing.

Tomorrow going out of town for some work ... Actually a customers vendor meet. They usually invite us one day before for a cocktail dinner. But not this time ... Hmmm talk about coincidence.

[Byrdlady]

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Rahul, I'm sorry you are sick. Do you have to go to this business meeting?
I'm sure nobody will want to catch what you have!!! Can you sit this one out? B

[Pavati]

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Hi, all:

This thread is why I LOVE LOVE LOVE My Way Out. Thanks for the thoughtful responses as usual.

Amazing story, Steady.

Rahul - I, too, was very flat until about 7 months, and now feel so much better. Sorry you're sick, and I agree with Byrdie - can you sit one out?

Pav

[Rahulthesweet]

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Thanks for the concern . Nope I can't sit this one out .... But too many things happening on the work front.

[Lavande]

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Hope you feel better soon Rahul

Pav, it's comforting to be surrounded by like-minded individuals - don't you think?

[Pavati]

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TJAF;1687439 wrote: Happy anniversary to me. 1 year. Who would have thunk it possible

Shoot, I missed this, TJAF. That is an amazing feat! I have been watching your journey and actually remember reading on the Roll Call when you had 150 days (215 days ago - right after I joined here). CONGRATULATIONS! And so exciting.

Pavati

[DreamThinkDo]

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TJAF, I'm so sorry I missed the actual anniversary - but what a great thing you've achieved. I hope you are very proud of yourself, because you deserve to be

Doing a happy dance for you.

[Eloise]

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Hey guys! I am getting closer to joining you all! feeling cheerful because I am working today, whoopie!

[Byrdlady]

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Eloise, we are holding your spot! Get in here!!!
Hope everyone is having a great week! XXOO, B

[Samstone]

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Eloise
look forward to seeing here!

[TJAF]

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Thanks all. Anyone keeping in touch with K9. Worried about her.