Tomorrow is 6 months and today is 181 days since I stopped Drinking. Neil and Mike?s postings and your responses led me to post separately.
Thankfully, I have not relapsed, though like Neil, I think I?m frightened at the thought. I have come to realize that whatever lingering desire I have to take a drink is to get drunk. No longer do I question, no longer do I hope that there is a possibility I can drink. I do not want just a drink or two--- even when I was on Topamax---I drink to get drunk. Anything less is pure fantasy.
I don?t mean I have regrets. One of the things I cherish the most is my new found freedom. I now have the option to do anything else I want, whenever I want, without asking or questioning my drinking self. That's a huge rush. You and this site have made that possible.
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