So I had 6 glasses of wine on Friday night!!!
Friends came around early Friday afternoon, which wasn?t planned and it tuned out to be an absolute party at our place which went onto the early hours of the morning.
And whilst all of this was going on I had a family crisis to deal with. My baby sister (18)who is overseas staying with my brother, who I have always suspected but have since found out is a druggie had a nasty fight and kicked her out of the flat!! Needless to say I was having a rough time trying to deal with it and my dear Mum whom I have now told the whole story to?. She suspected but didn?t know how bad it was.
So while I was making phone calls back wards and forwards overseas my glass of wine kept getting filled up whilst the party continued in the other room.
I am so ashamed of myself for slipping like this, I have managed to mod for the last 9 weeks, so this is a real blow and I didn?t even feel a buzz, just felt miserable!! Even when I did join the party I was a bit of a drip just sitting there with a fake smile plastered on my face thinking of the people I normally chat to on MWO and the advice they would give me, but took the next sip anyway?. Drowning my sorrows I suppose.
One good thing did come out of the whole evening, I was chatting to my hubby and telling him that I didn?t want a repeat of it happening again and he agreed with me and told me how proud he was of my modding and even though I had drunk 6 grasses of wine, I was far from pissed and I told him that I wanted to up my game next month and go AF during the week and he wants to do it with me. I never thought he would volunteer to do that!!!
This coming from someone who threatened to leave me because of my drinking not so long ago!!! I never did this to please him, I always did this for me, but to hear him say that just made my day!!
WISHING ALL MY FFELLOW MODDERS AN AWESOME WEEK!:dancin:
Friends came around early Friday afternoon, which wasn?t planned and it tuned out to be an absolute party at our place which went onto the early hours of the morning.
And whilst all of this was going on I had a family crisis to deal with. My baby sister (18)who is overseas staying with my brother, who I have always suspected but have since found out is a druggie had a nasty fight and kicked her out of the flat!! Needless to say I was having a rough time trying to deal with it and my dear Mum whom I have now told the whole story to?. She suspected but didn?t know how bad it was.
So while I was making phone calls back wards and forwards overseas my glass of wine kept getting filled up whilst the party continued in the other room.
I am so ashamed of myself for slipping like this, I have managed to mod for the last 9 weeks, so this is a real blow and I didn?t even feel a buzz, just felt miserable!! Even when I did join the party I was a bit of a drip just sitting there with a fake smile plastered on my face thinking of the people I normally chat to on MWO and the advice they would give me, but took the next sip anyway?. Drowning my sorrows I suppose.
One good thing did come out of the whole evening, I was chatting to my hubby and telling him that I didn?t want a repeat of it happening again and he agreed with me and told me how proud he was of my modding and even though I had drunk 6 grasses of wine, I was far from pissed and I told him that I wanted to up my game next month and go AF during the week and he wants to do it with me. I never thought he would volunteer to do that!!!
This coming from someone who threatened to leave me because of my drinking not so long ago!!! I never did this to please him, I always did this for me, but to hear him say that just made my day!!
WISHING ALL MY FFELLOW MODDERS AN AWESOME WEEK!:dancin:
c: :heart:
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