The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

[j-vo]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hey Modders,
I just posted on the drink tracker now, because I like what Kid said - It's only 12:51 here and I know there is no chance for me to have any drinks today (well, I guess there could have been, but this makes it official!) Any little tool that will push away a drink is helpful.

Lila - I'm glad you're feeling better. I know with spring in the air, that's the most natural anti-depressant for me. It's a beautiful day here in the northeast US!

Vlad - Good luck at your performance this evening. It'll be great! And good for you for not having that drink when it was calling your name. I know that's a major trigger for me - my anticipatory anxiety - what is to come. I slip up a lot due to that.

Eve, according to my standards, your three would be a success with a night like that. Don't be too hard on yourself. You're in control and I see it from here! I want to get to the place you're in. I'm workin' on it. Hey - don't steal your hubbies ticket tonight, ok!

Well, it's Thursday, and despite a nasty cold, I'm doing good. Tomorrow, I start my third class of three and I'm so happy that I did much better with my anxiety than I'd anticipated. This program that I'm doing daily to work on myself is coming along, and I feel some of the benefits of it already. It'll take months before I'm finished with it, but I feel like I'm moving forward, away from some low self-esteem issues that have haunted me in the past and now. Baby steps!

As for the weekend, I have a plan. Since my class is in a conference room in a hotel, and if my classmates (hehe! that sounds so funny being I'm 44 years old) want to stop in the lounge afterwards on Friday evening, I'll allow myself ONE drink. No, not wine. Just one light beer. Sat. I'm going to buy a bottle of wine for my husband and I to drink. No more than three is my goal. I'm going to take my kudzu. I will not forget. Sunday, nothing. Ok, I've made my plan, and I will report on the drink tracker my success on Sunday.

Have a great day everyone.

[Delta Moon]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hi Modders!- as you all know I'm AF and hubby too for lent. Well last night after a golf tourney he called and said in a slurred voice, "you've got to come pick me up I can't drive". Well the old feeling came back in the pit of my stomach and I took a deep breath and said "I'll be right there". OF course I wanted to say alot more than that but I am learning patience........He immediately said "April Fools!" and we laughed and laughed. I was so relieved and realized how afraid I am of going back to that dark place of drunkeness in our lives. So it was a blessing to help me see that.
Have a blessed day, all.
I'm off to play some new licks I'm learning...........

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Oh DM, that was nasty!!!

Our 'performance' tonight went brilliantly, with lots of good responses - a really good buzz!

Another AF night - although, pravda guvarit... I went to two off-licences afterwards for some beers, but they were shut. The decision to be AF has been made for me yet again.

[Sarasmiles]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hello Modders,
Just wanted to check in. I'm still working on this mod thing...Doing okay, most of the time. I had more wine than I should have on Sunday, totally in response to stress, and of course that meant I felt pretty bad on Monday, a little better on Tuesday, and almost like myself again yesterday. So what did I do in response to feeling pretty good? Told myself it would be fine to have a glass of wine! I had 2.5 and stopped. Now I want to do an AF stretch, because I have to look at this pattern and break it. I'm going to try to make it until the family and I go away to Florida for school vacation, April 20. In the mean time, I need to make a plan for that vacation week.

I came back here after an absence because I missed the support, and the outlet, and the humor of all of you guys. I hope I can fit back in, somehow. :thanks: Sara

[Lila]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

hi everyone
hi J-vo hey what's that program? You're right, spring is a great AD.
DM, that is funny!
welcome back, Sara! I know what you mean - I feel like stress does it to me, and then the 'glamour' of celebrating something, you know?
I think I have been drinking a bit more than is good for me. Today, I worked out and just went straight home, and then I realized I am out of wine, but I am just not going to go get any tonight, at least. I can just get comfy and have some nice tea for tonight.
Lila

[Delta Moon]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hi Eve! Have fun at casino night-two tickets sound like a natural limit tamer. Last time at an event like that I had had my two and someone gave me another ticket. I graciously declined although passing up a free glass of wine was not my habit. I was so glad when I got home and posted on the tracker.

Good on you. Lila- just sit tight and sip that tea.

Nice to hear from you, Sara. Missed you! For me, checking in here is the key to staying on the plan. Do you have a plan?

vlad-it is a rush to have a great performance, isn't it? I'm glad the off-license was closed. Made the decision for you!:H

j-vo the drinktacker REALLY works for me. I am such a visual goal-oriented person.

Great Friday to you all!

[Kid Shelleen]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

What a damned lazy day...

Oh well, that's what's SO great about an AF day;
you can kick back, accomplish NOTHING,
stay here on the boards half the day
and still feel accomplished by saying...
"At least I didn't drink!!!" :H
So, that's it.

Lila: You and Vlad have Providence on your side!
You TRY to drink and CAN'T!
Sara: Welcome back. Good luck with the stretch.
Vlad: How can your luck POSSIBLY hold out tomorrow???
Delta: That's funny! I wish I wouldn't have read it to my wife. Do you think I could "fool" her with it next year?
j-vo: I'm glad that class is helping. How are you treating the cold?

Well..Apparently just "not drinking" is not enough for my child.
Gotta go cook my (braceless) honey haired girl some supper!
Later ladies,
~Kid~

[j-vo]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hi All,
DM - I think we're all going to use that next year. Damn, that was good!

Vlad - Congrats on your performance! Long ago when I was in the orchestra (played flute) I used to get such a rush after a performance and feel so good. I think it's a rush for me just to feel good about myself lately.

Hi Sara! Yes, I agree checking in keeps us in check. You said you are going to Florida on the 20th. I'm going to visit mom and dad the 14th and coming back on the 20th. What part of Fla. are you going to? I've already begun to devise my plan so that I can enjoy my days and nights while there. Come up with a solid plan. You want to love your vacation and get the relaxation I'm sure you need.

Lila - My program - overcoming social anxiety. It's helped me a lot!

Kid - ya know, since being on my sabbatical, my lazy days are the norm. But my AF days are more the norm than they used to be and I'm greatful for that.

Ok kids. I'll be back on Sunday. My class starts tomorrow and runs through the weekend. Have a great one!

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Kid - glad to hear the braces have been removed!

This evening, I have youth club which will mainly be a meeting to discuss what format it's going to take in future - we know we need to do some street work and then try reopening again.

Oh and I need to drop my car off for it's MOT tomorrow.

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Hmmm, was having a look at the company website's stats this morning to see who'd been looking and to see if I could pull off any leads.

Found a company that looked like a possible and looked it up in Google, got their website address and realising it was an American company, thought, 'Oh well.' No, I'm not prejudiced against Americans, it's just that we don't sell to America. OK, that maybe is prejudiced. Anyway, looking at the Google listings I realised their was a UK site - no, it was a completely different company selling liquer and spirits.

I am now drooling. Had to tear myself away from the site. As I felt myself getting thirstier and thirstier was telling myself, 'No no no, that's bad, close it, close it, CLOSE IT!!!'

I have closed it.

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

I had this ripping pain in my stomach this morning, in fact all the way from my stomach up into my throat. I used to get that alot when I drank half a litre of vodka a day. It was an unpleasant surprise to have it this morning. It seems to be subsiding now thank goodness.

By coincidence, when I semi-woke up this morning, I instantly thought, 'Oh no, I have a hangover, what did I do last night?' (I'd been dreaming about drinking AGAIN!). Then I realised, 'Ha, I didn't drink anything! Ha!'

Bit of a funny day today.

[Mad Mummy]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Morning all

Not going to lie to you modders - anyway it is on drinktracker for all to see - no zero for me last night but just a 1 instead!

Will be zero tonight as Fridays are part of my plan and I usually run first thing on a Sat morn.

Modding for me is to aim for 3 or 4 AFs during the week and not to exceed the 14 units recommended over the 7 days (drinktracker I put units rather than drinks). This works good for me and has taken about a year to get to and feel comfortable with. Still have to battle but that's life isn't it?

Luv to all
Bx

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

Mad Mummy;585327 wrote: (drinktracker I put units rather than drinks)

I count 2 units as one drink.

[Mad Mummy]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

I'm easily confused - need to keep it simple, children turn brains into mashed potato! That's my excuse any way.

[vlad]

The Mod Squad Weekly Thread for March 30th

I don't know MM, there's always an excuse! :H

I think vodka turned my brain into a mashed potato.