anyway, my hubby and i went out to dinner, about 730. i usually would have had one at home prior to going out, but was so proud of myself cause i didn't! So, i order a wine and sip on it. i thought that the glasses were huge, but didn't feel like the pour was too much. so, dinner came and i hadn't finished my wine yet. but was almost done so i ordered another glass.
i had most of it left when we were finished. my husband had 3 glasses of wine during this time. so, his was all gone and he helped me drink mine. he probably drank 1/4 of it.
So, we come home and I'm feeling like I did pretty good. not EVEN 2 glasses at dinner. so, i poured a 1/2 a glass. i drank it then went to bed about 1030p.
so, about 2am, i woke up in a sweat. you know the feeling...the one where you've had too much to drink? heart racing, anxiety just KNOWING you're gonna be hungover tomorrow? can't sleep, etc. I have had that happen numerous times over the years when i have overindulged. but why last night?
why? WHY? I didn't feel like i drank too much. I don't have a hangover today, which is good, but I'm not sure what the fuss was about at 2am!
even if the pours were big, which they didn't seem big, I still had less than 2 of those.
so, it's gotten me scared into thinking it was withdrawals. if it was, it's ok now, right? i mean i'm past it, right? could i go AF tonight without fear of withdrawals? i'm scared to go from an amount that makes me do that, to none at all! is that just my ocd again?
i feel like it sabotaged me and I didn't even do anything wrong!
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