November Mod Squad
Hey Crocus and MM - you are doing fantastic! So pleased for you. And hi Lila!
Unfortunately, I have discovered the opposite re: obsess over al since trying to mod. I think about whether to drink, feel bad when I do, yada yada. Yesterday I was down on myself - did drink at the Mon eve dinner at friends' house, started out with a nonalcoholic beer & then had 2 gl of chardonnay. Again, one b4 and one with dinner. Feeling down on myself yest translated into playing golf badly. What's wrong with me? Was it because I drank? All those thoughts whirling around in my head. After golf I did a fairly hard 1 hr workout tape and walked 2 miles. Obviously, I was not hungover. Last night I was kind of sick of agonizing over this decision & remembered something my oncologist told me back in 2003. My question: Is it ok if I drink alcohol while on chemo? His response: yes, live your life as normally as possible. Last night, dh & I had a drink, then a glass of chardonnay with dinner. I was happy all evening, had a great night's sleep, today I've been very productive and happy. I have walked/run 3 miles, did 10 min on the Elliptical trainer and am even entertaining training for a half marathon. (used to run marathons and always drank while training, pretty much daily). Did it help curb? Of course, you can't run hungover, you don't drink the night before a long training run or race. Heck, we & friends ran Napa Valley Marathon 3X - visited wineries right up until day b4 race, then celebrated night of the race. No one really got out of control. We joked about being drinkers with a running problem!
While composing this 'book' I just rec'd call from my dr saying he will order trazadone for me. (my request got lost in the system, I guess). That is going to help knowing I can sleep when alcohol free - been a big issue for me.
What am I saying? I'm not real sure; all I know is I feel good today and optimistic & already tighter in body and yes, want to preserve my health as my username says. I want balance in my life and may come to the conclusion that for me moderation is having that 2 gl darn near daily. No hangovers, no blackouts, no regrets. Please don't misunderstand this as encouraging drinking. I think by letting go and feeling better, being even stronger at my activities AFTER AF days and because I now should be able to get the sleep I need - this will make me want the AF days more than the drink days.
TMH
Hey Crocus and MM - you are doing fantastic! So pleased for you. And hi Lila!
Unfortunately, I have discovered the opposite re: obsess over al since trying to mod. I think about whether to drink, feel bad when I do, yada yada. Yesterday I was down on myself - did drink at the Mon eve dinner at friends' house, started out with a nonalcoholic beer & then had 2 gl of chardonnay. Again, one b4 and one with dinner. Feeling down on myself yest translated into playing golf badly. What's wrong with me? Was it because I drank? All those thoughts whirling around in my head. After golf I did a fairly hard 1 hr workout tape and walked 2 miles. Obviously, I was not hungover. Last night I was kind of sick of agonizing over this decision & remembered something my oncologist told me back in 2003. My question: Is it ok if I drink alcohol while on chemo? His response: yes, live your life as normally as possible. Last night, dh & I had a drink, then a glass of chardonnay with dinner. I was happy all evening, had a great night's sleep, today I've been very productive and happy. I have walked/run 3 miles, did 10 min on the Elliptical trainer and am even entertaining training for a half marathon. (used to run marathons and always drank while training, pretty much daily). Did it help curb? Of course, you can't run hungover, you don't drink the night before a long training run or race. Heck, we & friends ran Napa Valley Marathon 3X - visited wineries right up until day b4 race, then celebrated night of the race. No one really got out of control. We joked about being drinkers with a running problem!
While composing this 'book' I just rec'd call from my dr saying he will order trazadone for me. (my request got lost in the system, I guess). That is going to help knowing I can sleep when alcohol free - been a big issue for me.
What am I saying? I'm not real sure; all I know is I feel good today and optimistic & already tighter in body and yes, want to preserve my health as my username says. I want balance in my life and may come to the conclusion that for me moderation is having that 2 gl darn near daily. No hangovers, no blackouts, no regrets. Please don't misunderstand this as encouraging drinking. I think by letting go and feeling better, being even stronger at my activities AFTER AF days and because I now should be able to get the sleep I need - this will make me want the AF days more than the drink days.
TMH
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