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[rebirth]

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Hey MM- I know that feeling. Like a hamster in a wheel. But the main thing is that you don’t give up cause you will get there. I have been moderating for ages and I suddenly blacked out last Sunday. It was out of the blue and it has shocked me a bit.It’s’s a reminder that Alcohol is very very powerful and I have to be constantly mindful when I drink.

Hi Trixie- I am still not sure if I should not drink sunday and the reason is because I normally work Saturdays so it would make sense to not drink Friday night. Anyway will see. I may drink every two weeks…lol. Although I doubt that very much. Let me know what Kudzu is like

TMH- I tried L-glut but it didn’t do anything for cravings. The only thing that works for me is willpower and determination.

Talking of triggers..I had a really bad day yesterday. I had an argument with two teenage boys who said a few racist remarks when they walked past me. That upset me. Then I didn’t concentrate as I backed my car into the drive and I scraped the side of the back bumper. I felt even worse after that and just snapped at my son till his bedtime.
I realised I needed to calm down so I decided to do a workout. ..which lasted an exhausting two hours but I felt mentally better afterwards.
I woke up this morning realising that not ONCE did I think about having a drink last night.I had subconsciously decided to work off my stress with exercise. What a change in me! Two years ago it would have been the perfect trigger to drink myself till I was comotosed.Drinking would have taken priority over everything..

But to have an AF weekend is difficult for me still….
Its strange how the mind works.

[Trixiebelle]

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Awesome Rebirth,

To not think about having a drink once is fantastic.

I didn't have a drink last night, woo hoo!!!

I'm in Brisbane (Australia) seeing my daughter who has her wisdom teeth out today. Being on antibiotics she isn't drinking, I 'chose' not to as well - so proud of myself, cause I could have, quite easily had a few.

[mightymite]

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Evenin' modders. I hope everyone is doing fine and modding in a way that makes you happy.

Renton, what an eye opener that must have been to see the young guy with the beer gut. I am sure that helped to put things in perspective. Awesome going 4 days AF. How are your studies going? My son is close to taking finals as well and I know that is a very stressful time. Glad to see you will be staying close by to stay accountable. Good luck with finals.

Trixie, have a great trip. Pop in when you get back to tell us how you are doing.

:hallo: Drinkingal. How are you doing?

Lila, are you around? How have you been? I hope things are ok. We are here if you need a shoulder to lean on.

:hallo: TMH. Great job on stringing some af time together. You have been a busy bee with your workouts and golf. I think you do a little more every day. That's great.

Hi RB. I am so sorry to see you had a bad day last Sunday. You are right. It just sneaks up on you and before you know it, you drank too much. I have that problem too with not eating and drinking too quickly. Something definitely to keep ahead of. I am also so, so sorry to see you had such a rough day with those two teenagers. When oh when will people stop with the senseless remarks that hurt others. I just do not understand it. Even though you were hurt, you kept your resolve and did not drown your frustrations in alcohol. I am sure you feel so good about that and you should be so proud.

I am feeling better from my snafu on Monday and Tuesday. I have still been working like a dog in the yard but have not felt the need to reward myself with wine. I have been trimming trees and bushes, painted the tin roof on our pump house, power washed the north side of the house, painted a bench, washed the inside and outside of 37 windows and planted some flowers. Tomorrow I will clean the inside of the house. I am so tired but a wonderful tired. When your body is sore but a good sore. I know I will sleep so well tonight. I love being busy like that and just moving from morning to evening. It's days like these when I appreciate all that I have and thankful for being healthy enough to do all of this work.

Have a great evening.
MM

[ToMyHealth]

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Ok, coming here for support. It's what Renton said. He said 'bored and lonely'; I'm listless and lonely. Have movies I can watch, have a decent summer romance book going although everytime they turn around they're opening a bottle of wine or champagne. It seems like every song I hear has stuff like "well, it's 1:00 in the am. and I'm a little drunk and I Need You Now. It's a song I like. Listening to my Ipod out running - can't believe how many songs revolve around drinking. Think Billy Joel. Oh, of course, I'm watching the PGA tournament and when the commentators come on you see the ad "Grey Goose, the 19th hole".

Did my lower body workout before golf; had a good golf game today; hit Fitness Center and did 20 min on elliptical trainer & 20 min biking. Contact order came in so did a Costco run. My step goal/day is 14K; I am presently at 18,300 so don't really want to add more exercise. I've given myself a pedicure & manicure.

RB - see how strong you are!!! Fantastic, girl!

Trix - good job for you too! Will tomorrow be Day #3?

MM - talk about busy! Good grief, my dear! At least with all your physical activity, you are accomplishing something!

I can't believe I'm not pooped (got up at 5a) but just thought of something. When my son chose to stop drinking, he said he couldn't believe how much energy he had and how much less sleep he required. Hhhhmmm. Yes, MM it does feel good to be healthy. Think I'll make some popcorn for dinner and read my book.

Thanks for 'listening'.

TMH

[Trixiebelle]

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ToMyHealth;1314223 wrote: When my son chose to stop drinking, he said he couldn't believe how much energy he had and how much less sleep he required. Hhhhmmm. Yes, MM it does feel good to be healthy.

It's something I definitely lack - energy. I have been fatigued for the past (almost) 5 years, and have cut out wheat, dairy etc etc to try and find out why I feel so tired all the time.

Never cut out alcohol - funny about that hey

TMH - enjoy your book and when they mention AL try to immediately think of something else, or have a drink of water or something AF - I find if I drink water, it puts off the desire (momentarily) to drink AL.

[drinkingal]

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Hi modders,

Renton great job on 4 days af, let us know how the rest of the week went.

RB I'm so sorry for the day you had, wouldn't you just love to slap people when they act so obnoxious? That's amazing though that you didn't run to crack open a bottle at the end of the day and exercised instead without even thinking about drinking!

TMH that's fantastic about your 2 af days. woot! you can do this girl. How are you feeling now? did you make it through the night with your popcorn and book?

MM great job on pulling it together for the rest of the week, you sure got a lot done. I only wish I had that kind of energy to burn!

Im feeling pretty chipper, got my 3 af days in and am going to have a few drinks tonight. I've stolen rentons idea of writing each night how many drinks I have on the calender and it seems to help a bit because I can see exactly what I'm drinking through the week.

Have a great weekend everyone!

[ToMyHealth]

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Top of the day to you all ~ this is fantastic! Feel like I could already write a book and I'm only starting Day 4 AF. What I love is losing the anxiety of regrets, nursing a hangover or at least a headache. I awaken not thinking ok, I should get a 3 mile run in today; it's I get to run today.

Trix - dragging through the day is exactly what I'm sick of also. Now my minor aches/pains are DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) and that is a good thing. I actually feel like I want to do more, run farther, but I don't want to burn out, have a plan in place. But see the difference? Funny - I, too, went off dairy or at least lessened my intake.

DG - yes, made it with flying colors, thanks! Read, started a movie, found an AF beer to go with the popcorn. Initially tasted good but did not finish it, felt very satisfied. Do not feel it was an actual craving for alcohol, it was craving for the ritual of relaxation and company (dh is traveling) and I see why it is so important to have a list of what you can do otherwise and then keep trying until one clicks.

TGIF! Which, of course, being retired doesn't mean as much, heck, I have to check Outlook or the Iphone to see what day it is. :H

TMH

[rebirth]

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Awesome news Trixie! These little steps of achievements are so big in our eyes. It just shows that we can do something if we put our minds to it.

MM- I love love pottering around the house. Its one of my favourite pastimes. I have a day off from work on Monday and I was thinking of giving my house a spring clean.Its a rewarding feeling when you see your house looking the way it should. Yes it does make you feel grateful for your health..

TMH- Your fitness routine really amazes me. I admire people like you who incorporates exercise in their daily routine. I like running on my treadmill and jogged/brisk walked for an hour last night. I really enjoy it too. Its almost like a meditation dont you think?

DG- Good one you for having three days off. Its healthy to give your liver a bit of a break.

So today is Friday and I usually have a few drinks but I am going to break the habit and not have anything. I will do a run instead.

[rebirth]

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I really would like to have an alcohol free weekend.

The benefits being:

I wont be drinking empty calories
I will have more energy to exercise
Not drinking hinders fat metabolism
I would like to lose one pound by the end of next week

I will take it day by day

[drinkingal]

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Thanks RB, as far as I've come with my drinking, I started to feel like 5 nights a week drinking is still pretty shocking, and yep I'm giving my poor liver a lot more thought lately.
Good luck with your af weekend, that means by the time you drink again you'll have about 11 or 12 days af under your belt? I'm rooting for you! :grouptrophy:

[mightymite]

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Good morning everyone and what a beautiful day it is. Everyone seems so upbeat and happy and doing so great with their modding. It's so nice to see so many on here and giving each other such great support.

TMH, you sound so much better today. I think it's so normal to get into funks and I kind of allow myself those times knowing that I will snap out of it. You sound like you are ready to conquer the day.

Everyone is getting some great AF days strung together. I would like to not have any wine tonight. I'll see how it goes. Cleaning all day today, but I don't mind. Got to the gym and had a hard workout as well. If I don't lose any weight after this week then it will never come off. Oh well. ull

Awesome DG on 3 days!

RB, you are doing fantastic. Send me some of your resolve please.

Have a great weekend all.
MM

[Trixiebelle]

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Morning all,

Seems we are all doing fine - I succumbed last night, had 3 ciders, but had a 6 pack I could have knocked off - I should have only put 2 in the fridge, no real harm done.

Here's to another day and let it be low or no AL for all of us.:l

[ToMyHealth]

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Good day. Starting Day 5 AF. :day5: It's been since January that I've gone this long w/o a drink. Besides posting here I am keeping a written journal on what I did previous evening and how I am feeling in the a.m. Wt is slowing going down (lost 1# since Tues a.m.).

RB: yes, exercise can be like meditation, esp. walking/running where all you have to do is put one foot in front of the other. Thanks for kudos. I admit I'm a little prejudiced against people who say they don't have time to exercise. I knew a mother with 6 children under 6 (set of twins in there) who I would see out running in early a.m. hours while Dad was still home to mind them. Like anything, modding being one, it takes planning and discipline. I also admire you as you work FT, are raising a son, and have a beau, and you care enough to find time to take care of yourself.

Going for a run, then doing a Denise Austin Pilates tape, then turning on The Players (golf tournament). May treat myself to a rib eye steak tonite. Hope you are all enjoying a great start to the weekend.

TMH

[Lila]

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hi Modders
wow! so many new people here!
Checking in - well, I had some disappointments lately - I am going to drop out of grad school for awhile, get experience in my field - get a job, take a break from the pressure. Get more balanced, start working out again. Last time I was here I was modding great and working out. Time to get back on track.
happy Mother's Day - all you moms!
L

[drinkingal]

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Hi modders, how is everyone doing with their drinking goals this weekend?

TMH, wow! 5 days is fantastic! I can't even remember the last time I went that long without a drink.

Hi Lila, it sounds like you're making some needed changes to reduce the stress in your life and get back on track. keep posting, and let us know how you are doing. I found recently when I was struggling a bit, posting did seem to motivate me.