September Mod Squad

[drinkingal]

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understood LG I've gone through and cleaned up my posts because I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, i thought you did want to talk about it

[LibraryGirl]

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I do want to talk, but maybe privately.

[ToMyHealth]

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Yesterday was a very good day. Went to church, played 9 holes of golf, had vegetarian pizza for dinner. Did imbibe in 1.5 drinks. And you know, it didn't even taste that great.

This a.m. did my V.1 lower body floorwork. Think I have it memorized so can do while in MN, and the place we stay at has a nice Fitness Center. There is also a lake down the road that I can walk around if it's not too cold - LOL

Hope you ended weekend well, and are having a good start to your week!

TMH

[FarfallaP]

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Glad you had a good Sunday TMH ... I did too, spending some quality down time with my little grandson. Every time I read abt. Your exercising I feel encouraged! My leg is oh so gradually feeling better, but every time I consider starting to dance again, I remember how my dh cured his rotator cuff tear, and that was by NOT starting too soon, so I calm down again...have a good week, mod squad! FF

[vlivengood]

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How did everyone's Monday go...... Mine was blah it's only 6pm but I can already tell I will likely suffer from insomnia tonight....... Still hasn't pushed me to wanna drink tonight really no desire..... I will try some tea and reading later and hopefully will sleep like a baby.....

Hope everyone else is enjoying an AF or moderate Monday!!!

[LibraryGirl]

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Just a little note to let everyone know I am here and accountable. I have been AF for two days and plan to remain so indefinitely. Maybe some AL this weekend, not sure. My low carb diet is going well and I have dropped a few lbs already. Wednesday will be a full week since I started it.

Hope everyone is well, and I will write more tomorrow.

[vlivengood]

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Hello Modders, hope everyone's morning is off to a good start. I was AF last night and plan to go for another day today.....

Something I cant seem to understand is yesterday I did not have EVEN the slightest craving, I never suffer any withdrawals from not having it and cant stand how I feel the morning after SO WHY......? Why would I even bother with it, at least on a daily basis? I can see how a nice cold one can be enjoyable now and then or socializing with friends but as far as a daily basis why?

I say that now but know that when I get home tonight and hubby cracks one open that I will tell myself I want one even though I really do not? It's not even like I leave work and cant wait to get home and have one?

When I was drinking liquor I did have that feeling driving home I could not wait to get that first shot in me, not even for pleasure more to just make the pain go away, I feel I am past that and never even think of liquor (although put in my face I may cave) but the idea of ever stopping on the way home at that liquor store never even crosses my mind anymore.

Ok, sorry lots of random thoughts here, better get some work done, stop thinking about it and just know that I will not drink today.... PERIOD

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A FABULOUS DAY

[FarfallaP]

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LG, I am so very, very happy for you that your weight loss efforts are succeeding...that is such a good feeling!
V, congrats on an AF Monday. I always feel good about an AF day, because it was not too long ago that that was an unthinkable possibility for me. As to your WHY??? Boy, do I share that confusion!

I think that Lance Dodes in his books, the Heart of Addiction and Breaking Addiction, pinpoints the real key...the underlying, deep triggers are really our own tensions and anxieties. And the difficult part is to recognize them and take steps to defuse them BEFORE our relief-inducing activity presents its happy little head!

When I figure out the golden key, I will post it here. LOL

TMH, hope you had a safe trip and the weather is gorgeous in MN.

Happy Tuesday, one and all! FF

[DfromCT]

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Hi, All,

Just a quick check in.

LG good luck on your diet and string of AF days. Don't forget you promised me a DeMille review!

V--I wonder the same thing, often! I am probably going to make it to 90 days, but the past weekend I had a couple of temptations/cravings. One was in the grocery store where they sell all sorts of beer. I knew I'd be home alone watching football for a good portion of the afternoon and a nice 40 oz microbrew looked attractive--then I said "Why?"

Hope everyone else is doing well.

[vlivengood]

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DC - glad to see you are well an on your way to 90!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how are those babies?

[FarfallaP]

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DC, you are an inspiration to us all, I think! FF

[LibraryGirl]

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Hi Everyone!! I started a post on this thread at work and didn't realize it was going on 5 o'clock. You know what was more important, don't you? Ha ha, I had to jet!!:H

Congratulations on going for so long and strong AF, D!!! Don't make light of it either, regardless of what you were doing before, you've proved that you had the balls to conquer anything, I'd say.

Good job on staying AF last night V. Baby steps is what it takes, and if you don't make it tonight don't beat yourself up. I know all about having resolve early in the day only to start to look forward to having a drink at home.

Thanks FF for congratulating me on my weight loss (even though I've just begun really). It means so much to know I have friends pulling for me.:l I talk to bf about it and he tries to be supportive, but I can tell it doesn't interest him and he also can't really relate when he's probably the heaviest now he's ever been (160 and 5'11).:H I guess I should be grateful that he seems to think I'm just as desirable as a more slender woman already.

Things are so much better than they were last weekend. I have gotten a better perspective, and bf and I have come to a good place together. We are communicating a lot better these days. Whew, I really almost lost it for a while there, lol. Thanks everyone for your support when I probably talked a bit too much.:l

AF again tonight...makes 3 nights so far. I thought hard about buying wine at the grocery store this afternoon while I was there, but dismissed it with the promise to myself, if you want it tomorrow you can get it. I plan to tell myself the same thing tomorrow.:H

Hope everyone is doing well!! Love you guys!

P.S. D, there's a review of Demille's book on the forum "What We're Reading".

[Lila]

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hey all -
hope you are all having a good week - i am doing fine, except that i have decided (5 days ago) to stop taking my zoloft, just started having some withdrawal feelings today, yucky feeling. i think it makes one crave carbs, and then put on some weight. Life is going to be calmer from now on, less anxious, so i decided to stop.
dave - 35 weeks is a little early - good they have a doting dad!!
L

[LibraryGirl]

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Lila, are you tapering off zoloft or just quit cold turkey? That could be a beast!! Good luck, and I hope your symptoms are mild. There's some info in the meds section on AD's and quitting, I believe.

[drinkingal]

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D you are an inspiration and you are doing fantastic.

"Seriously, I was drinking shots to quiet my overactive brain,"

Can you share how you are dealing with this now? I have the same problem, my brain gets so overactive, distracted, noisy and I haven't found a way to stop all that mental clutter yet. Even during my recent af stint it didn't go away, but seemed to just get worse.