Last year when I went thru abstinence (something like 40 days and 40 nights, very biblical) I came across a book/program called the 100 day challenge. At the time, I could not imagine and would not consider committing to going AL free that long - which to me was a big indicator of how much control alcohol had over me - how important it was to me to be able to drink.
I'm starting my 100 day challenge tomorrow. It includes following a healthy eating regime and daily exercise - which I hope will help push this nasty depression out the door. The diet allows 3 drinks a week and it wasn't until this morning that I committed to do 100 days AF. Moderating has been somewhat successful for me - coming home from a holiday where I drank daily (without getting drunk or feeling guilty about it), I found I want to continue to drink daily. If it hadn't been for a bout of the flu and taking meds that prohibited AL, I probably would continue drinking daily and be back where I started. Last night I got drunk and I truly hate being drunk. One of the things I'm going to research during this challenge is the Sinclair Method and finding a doctor in my area that supports it.
When I started abs, was there was so much focus on ME, me, me, me - and it wasn't until I hit double digit AF days that I felt I was in a position to support others.
I'm going AL for 100 days and am going to push myself to lose some weight, be healthier, but mostly to feel better about myself. I've been unhappy with "me" for a very long time - just in a state of dissatisfaction. I like feeling joyful so much better. I'm on a journey to find some joy and hold onto it.
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