May Mod Squad

[Stewarts]

May Mod Squad

Well, I was drinking last night. The Rangers had a big game and they won. The only thing I did that I regret and its not a big deal I emailed my ex.... I simply said, "I hope your well, I know your father is having a rough time and it breaks my hurt, I know your birthday is coming up in June I want you to have a great birthday and hope you had a great mothers day... " I was feeling very drunken gleeful from that win.

I got the response in the morning..."don't contact me again." So I didn't. An hour later I get this response, "j., I don't know what you're talking about with my father and my birthday is not in June. If this continues I will have to file charges."

I think that is extreme, and again, why not just "block sender" I was going to write back and say, sorry July (I forgot), regarding her dad, when we were still friendly, her dad was suffering from cancer...which that reference was... I was going to explain all this...but I didn't.

At first I felt bad, a little, but then I was thinking, "file harassment charges for that." One, and if there are any lawyers here, chime in...is that even possible? There's no threats... what's the charge, this person sends me nice emails from time to time?? Second, more practical matter, it only opens up the whole can of worms with her extra-marital affairs...

So, what did I do? Nothing. First, I don't understand why she just does not respond or block my email. Second, I see this as a test as some dark force trying to hurt me...not necessarily her, just some dark force. third, I'm thinking, I don't need this... being made out to look like a criminal for something so jovial...maybe a little non-sensical and silly...but really??

I actually ended up blocking her email address now and...the most important thing! To ensure no trouble...and I didn't know you can do this... I wish I knew earlier...deleted the email address from the recents in my iphone!!!! I wish I knew that trick earlier...because that's how I pick up her email address all the time...

Besides being slightly hung today...I think I am doing ok.... I'm not going to lie, it does hurt feeling that someone I loved and care still do care about hates me.... but I really can't do anything about that. I can't make this person make me feel like I'm a bad person....I'm not...I don't think...

j.

[nonamegirl]

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Hey, everyone.
My computer was down, and so I have been out of the loop. I am so sorry! I haven't had time to read all the posts, and see that there are a bunch. I will get to them later today and make appropriate comments (well, at least I'll comment. Who knows if I can actually be appropriate?)
Thanks for being patient with me.

[-143]

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Hey Eve! I hope your son wanting to play football will encourage him to get his act together! My hubby went through the same thing and he is 46 years old and still regrets not getting his grades up so he could play. He actually cries at the beginning of each season and even doing some games! He feels like he missed his calling..... like is life is just not what it was suppose to be except for marrying me. He blames himself for our money situation. He didn't have children then either.

Good job on not drinking your troubles away!!!! I don't have any af days for the week... so far.... but have been taking it easy since Mother's Day! Lol I plan on starting again with my af Monday!

Stew so glad you deleted your ex's email! At least if you get tempted you won't be able to follow through!

I was wondering where you were NNG!

Happy Thursday modders!!!!

[Stewarts]

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Missed Time

143 I feel for your husband. I jokingly, or half jokingly, told my parents that they missed my calling and I should've been a professional skier. Of all the things I do, sports and physical activity is when I'm most happy. If I couldn't run, play hockey, ski, etc., I think it's a depressive state I couldn't get out of.

Thanks for the encouragement. I'm kind of glad that little incident happened, it really showed her true colors. I mean, for all I know she is just desperately trying to salvage this messed up "marriage" she has, and I'm sure I am being pointed as the fall guy. A normal person would've said, "Look, I appreciate you trying, but we both know we cannot communicate with each other. I am trying to salvage my marriage and you're not good for it nor am I good for you." or something to that effect. This ridiculous "harassment" threats just portray her as "stupid" or "evil" or perhaps a little of both. In the day of technology deleted someone from your life is so easy...you can block email addresses, why not just block mine? I think she wants me to retaliate so I DO do something stupid that has consequences to my life. This is the same woman who when I sent her a video, by accident, of my little cousins having an easter egg hunt (ages are 4-8), the loud mouth five year exclaims, "I'm not telling!" when asked where the eggs are hidden, as harassment ???? Maybe she's desperate, maybe she's scared, who knows. We live in the same neighborhood, I am not going to walk around with my head down, if she wants to, that's her problem.....she should've thought of that before sleeping with other men behind her husband's back.

So yes, that made me delete her email so it comes up in no searches and made me block HER email address from contacting me... I still don't get why she even responds? I mean I'm glad she did, because it makes things clear to me, but why respond, and to be a broken record, why not just block the domain?

When I was walking to my event last night, I started feeling sad. It was that lonely feeling creeping up on me. I called my work colleague, partner, left him a VM. When I got my event, which I was one of the hosts, I started feeling better. All my business peers were there, the chairwoman of the organization loved the job we did, and that is when my partner called. I told him I was starting to feel better when I started mixing it up with all the people we knew. I did drink as well. Which leads me to the whole point of this board.....

So, another reason to not drink. Eating bad goes along with it. Also, I notice, sometimes I just get real sick the next day. I am not talking hung over, I mean what I said, sick. I was home reasonable and around 6am I started getting anxious and even dry heeved. I just don't feel like my A game. Maybe it's my body trying to tell me this is no good for you anymore, even in moderate amounts.... I don't know. I'm debating about going on a run later. The weather here is real crappy...we shall see...

j.

[Emmy Lou]

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Hello! I posted a long one here last night and now it's gone! I don't have time this morning so I'll just say hi & bye for now
X
Em

[nonamegirl]

May Mod Squad

Hey, everyone.
So sorry that I have been MIA recently. My computer was down and I had a really bad cold, so couldn't deal with the technology. But we are both doing better now, and are getting back on track. Just no energy. I missed my training workout last Saturday due to the cold, and really should go tomorrow, but right now I just don't know.

Stewarts, you are doing the right thing by not contacting that lady anymore. She is history. You have a wonderful future, I just know it. Keep on taking it step by step and you will do well. Are you training for any races at the moment?

Eve, so sorry things are still rough with your son. Since I don't have kids, I can't offer much input, but I do sympathize, even if I can't empathize.

-143, Your posts always sound so exuberant! I love the !!! and all.

Emmy, miss you. Have a great weekend.

I bought some tomato and herb plants today, and will probably get them in the ground this weekend. And also gather loads and loads of lilacs to take to the graves. It has always been a ritual with me, to visit the cemeteries on Memorial Day.

Glad to be back amongst the living.

[-143]

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Lol..... thanks NNG! If you knew my family you would be cracking up!!! Most of the!!!! Are because we talk loud!!! Lol!!! So I guess even my thoughts are loud!!! Lol

I know you are going to the cemetary on Memorial Day...what are plans for the rest of you guys? Hubby has to work and so far haven't been invited anywhere.... so.......

Hope everyone has a great moderate holiday weekend!!!!:h

[-143]

May Mod Squad

Just needing to vent for a minute..... most of you know about my roof situation. But a week or so ago it rained hard and all day. It was leaking from my third floor where we sleep.... down to the first floor. My grand daughter's room (second floor) was flooded....that's why the first floor was leaking. I was shedding as many tears as the water running freely through my house. I was so desperate I started a legitimate fundraiser and posted it on a social media where some of the people I've known for more than twenty years. So far we got one donation from someone I've talked to over the last couple of years but never met in person. It makes me sad to know that the people I thought I knew.... whom we have sat at my house and ate and drank wouldn't even inbox me to see if we were ok. I'm not one of those people that post my personal stuff on social media.The stuff you guys know about me they would never know. My life friend list is going to be a lot shorter. I even made the option to just donate a dollar privately... no responce!!! Am I wrong???
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[-143]

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They didn't even comment! Some like the post but no response! I purposely posted some crap and people responded! In other words they saw my plea and ignored it.....for weeks now!!! But called some of my family to talk about me! Then my family was questioning like I'm crazy! If I (being a private person) put something like that on social media wouldn't it be out of character? And worth a checking into if you really cared????? Thanks for letting me vent......

[bear73]

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I know how you feel a bit,my roller derby team has got a bit cliquey recently, I feel like I am invisible sometimes and outside looking in. We had three people break limbs in the last month and I've seen each one,bit freaked out by injury aspect and clque isn't much fun,plus.needed new skates which will cost few hundred pounds.feels a bit of a crossroads,will give three months i reckon and see how it feels.

Other than that,drank too much this week,six plus drinks Fri and sat at a wedding ,need to quit smokes too.losing weight slowly,sticking to exercise and eating better.

Next week back to max of three units each time I drink.

[nonamegirl]

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Well, poop. Just wrote a long note to -143 and Bear and lost it. First time that's happened. I'll do a quick bit to cover most of what I said.

-143, I am so sorry about your roof problems. It is a black time when you need help, reach out to friends, and get no response. Have you tried asking churches for help? It is possible that you may get volunteers to fix your roof that way, or at least some interim dollars. What about the YWCA, they may have some ideas. My thoughts will be with you, as you try to dry out and get help. Damn it. Poor kid.

Bear, it is a step by step process, so don't be hard on yourself. We learn more about ourselves each time. You have all the guts and nerve you need to tackle this, and you will. I'm sure of it.

Here, my own cold is better, but had a bad migraine yesterday. I did go on the training walk on Saturday, and had a good work-out, now just need to keep it up.

Howdy to everyone. Hope your holiday weekend is going well, and that you are all safe.

[-143]

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Thanks Bear and NNG! No I hadn't thought about checking into those places but I will tomorrow.
Enjoy your Memorial Day!!! :thanks2:

[Stewarts]

May Mod Squad

-143, most people suck, it's unfortunate, but it's true. At least now you've seen all their true colors. I don't know which is worse, actually I do, "liking" your post with no comment or ignoring it....obviously ignoring it. There's a chance they didn't see it then, I don't see everything that comes across my FB page

[-143]

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Hey Stew.... I know I miss some post too... but I've been reposting it almost everyday! Everybody should have seen it at least once you know?

It rained a lot yesterday.... even with the new buckets we bought we still didn't have enough!!! But on a good note I took Nng advice and I googled roof help for homeowners and found two organizations in my area one is suppose to send me out an application and the manager from the other one is suppose to call me today or tomorrow!!!!

Some of you might know I'm a self-proclaimed singer/songwriter and I write some poetry and short stories too. But I haven't written anything in a long time but this situation is inspiring me to write something!

Was suppose to be af yesterday but hubby brought some home when he got off at 9pm...and I didn't hesitate...... but I took it easy and finally dosed off. Was fine this morning..... but more rain on the way...
I still feel hopeful tho!!!!

[Stewarts]

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143, my message was a little messed up... liking it and not posting a comment I think it's worse...again, like I said, most people suck and are very phony....I'm happy to hear you found some organizations that will help you.... it's kind of surreal, your friends ignore you, but some random strangers will come to help you out...