Just wanted to report progress.
Thanks to the wise advice of this board I was able to have my first AF dinner in... longer than my memory can tell. I seriously can't recall a nice sit down dinner I've had iw/o a drink.
ALSO I heeded the advice to put my remaining beers in the garage so they're all hot and gross.
I guess that means I'm AF but I haven't let go completely. I mean, I didn't throw them out or anything.
I don't know, this whole thing is a confusing process.
I feel physically calmer than i thought I'd feel, but still distracted (like when I quit smoking)-- and VERY aware of every hour that goes by in which I'm not drinking.
Yep, this feels like quitting smoking.
I can sort of feel the time pass. Tick tick tick!
When you're drinking (and smoking) time just sort of slips by because you're in an altered state. When I quit smoking I remember being hyperaware of NOT SMOKING.
Now I'm hyper aware of NOT DRINKING.
Ahhh. When will this damn awareness stop? A week? Two? A month?
I want to forget that I'm not drinking and just go on with things, but for now it seems like that is not going to happen.
Oh well, thanks for listening -- just trying to type to keep my overactive mind off of things...
Hope you're all having a peaceful evening-
:h
~groovychick~
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