I re-read RJ's book last night to try to take stock of what has happened with me and look for new insights.
The last paragraph of the book really hit me ". . . help build on the body of knowledge by documenting your experience, and never forget the commitment you made that allowed you to begin this journey." Wow.
Well, I can report in that I began this journey 108 days ago. I had my last drink 109 days ago. I used to drink 2 to 3 bottles of merlot EVERY NIGHT.
All I have done is follow the book, the whole program exactly as it is put forth in the book.
I maxed out on the topa at 150mg at about weeks 8 to 10 and now have come all the way down to 25mg once a day for the last two weeks and it, or something, is still working despite a stress packed existence.
I now sometimes have almost fond memories of some fun times drinking but it is not craving and generally fades fast to feelings of disgust, shame and regret.
I drank for so long I lost myself somewhere in there. Now I'm trying to learn who I really am again and be a better person to myself and those around me. I never thought about any of this stuff starting this program. All I wanted to do, had to do, was stop drinking.
Well, that's my experience so far.
I suppose that's what RJ meant by the very last line in her book: "Taken altogether, they will change your life.
Dust on the bottles.
The last paragraph of the book really hit me ". . . help build on the body of knowledge by documenting your experience, and never forget the commitment you made that allowed you to begin this journey." Wow.
Well, I can report in that I began this journey 108 days ago. I had my last drink 109 days ago. I used to drink 2 to 3 bottles of merlot EVERY NIGHT.
All I have done is follow the book, the whole program exactly as it is put forth in the book.
I maxed out on the topa at 150mg at about weeks 8 to 10 and now have come all the way down to 25mg once a day for the last two weeks and it, or something, is still working despite a stress packed existence.
I now sometimes have almost fond memories of some fun times drinking but it is not craving and generally fades fast to feelings of disgust, shame and regret.
I drank for so long I lost myself somewhere in there. Now I'm trying to learn who I really am again and be a better person to myself and those around me. I never thought about any of this stuff starting this program. All I wanted to do, had to do, was stop drinking.
Well, that's my experience so far.
I suppose that's what RJ meant by the very last line in her book: "Taken altogether, they will change your life.
Dust on the bottles.
eace:
I hope you'll hang around; I'm sure you have a lot to offer. It is really nice to wake up to such a positive and hopeful post. Wonderful work on your 109 days, too!
Comment