31 July 2007

[Paddy]

Hi Absville,

How's life? Over here it's raining .... Probably matching the mood. Yesterday had another close call. Came home, totally exhausted. Had been AF for about 34 days with 2 slips, the last one last Friday. So, yesterday was craving badly. So, went out and bought a bottle of Chardonnay. Great!

Anyway, here I was not happy with myself. I hadn't opened the bottle yet. Went into the shower. Thought about how bad I would feel (apart from the hangover, etc), and also because I keep saying that I don't drink anymore. Anyway, I went straight to the fridge, uncorked the bastard, and poured it down the drain. I hurt like hell, but it felt so much better, later :H

Anyway, don't copy me, I'm sure there's better ways to spend your money on. Otherwise, at this stage I'm also pondering in titrating down on Topa. I keep reading about pple having problems on high doses of Topa, and I sort of have bits and pieces of the same symptoms - fatigue, heart palpitations. I don't seem to know what to put it down to. I see the doctor, but he doesn't seem to find anything. I drives me nuts.

Anyway, sorry for the whinge, just wanted to share.

[Newyear]

31 July 2007

Morning All
Paddy- that was great that you could take a little time before uncorking to think about it. That is probably something to remember too - take a shower first and think about it. ANyway- happy for you that you poured it out. And I know you are glad.
Sorry you are having a tough time with it at the moment though.
Wish I knew more on the topa thing but I haven't taken it. I'm sure you could get some good advice here though.

Kathy... A VERY HAPPY 50th AF DAY to You!!!!! inkele: :clapclap: :armsaround:

I'm jumping in the shower and getting ready for a fabulous Tuesday!

Have a great day everyone!
Lisa

[cassy]

31 July 2007

Hi Paddy..a good decision to bin the wine and congratulations on all those Af days.

I,m still messing with the mods goal...i aim to do 5 days a week Af and most weeks since april have done this.i did have 2 binges where i drank the whole bottle of wine when out at a bar b que and another time when out with the crowd!!

i did realise that wasnt a good move and went home early before i drank anymore!!!

Its a pain this addiction stuff and as a moderator on a journey to improvement i always have to be honest and re view my behaviour daily.

Maybe i will do Abstaining one day but mot at that point on my personal journey.
The great news is it sounds as though the alcohol intake is way way down for you and i have definetly got mine way down too.

things can hopefully get better for us all.
I use daily prayer, this site, buddy support from ( a friend with a drink problem too).

when i first came on this site some months ago i felt low about my behaviour with the drink..right now i feel good that some progress has been made.

nobody told me it would be easy to make changes....neither is it instant.

My drinking started 40 plus years ago so i guess old habits are difficult to break overnight.

I seriously thank God i havent as far as i,m aware developed liver disease or turned canary yellow..YET!
Its been tough to try and live a christian life and accept that God loves me even in my weakness.Boy Am i glad i have a strong faith or i am sure i would be in a very dark place by now,

Rock on Paddy and well done you..Good luck and peace are wished to you today

regards Cassy

[Doggygirl]

31 July 2007

**waving hi to Lisa and Cassey**

Paddy, good for you thinking it over and pouring it out. I'm sorry to hear about the issues? (is that the right word) with the Topa. I hope you can figure that one out.

Happy Day 50 AF to Kathy!! That's awesome. You're a Tweener! Half way 'tween 0 and 100 days! I can't wait to be a Tweener!

Mean time, happy AF day to all!

DG
Day 21 AF

[YoungAtHeart]

31 July 2007

Hi All,

Thanks Lisa, for remembering it's 50 days! You're a good friend! Smooch! Thanks for chiming in, too, DoggyGirl! You are so positive; you are a wonderful cheerleader! I've gotta laugh at the idea of being a "tweener"!:H

Paddy, I have had much the same trouble with the topa. After 5 weeks AF, I titrated down to 100 mgs in the late afternoon (wine o'clock). I am tired all the time, and it's hard to get motivated when my time is unstructured. My doc put me on Wellbutrin (an energizing antidepressant), but so far, it's not doing much for me, except making me dizzy when I stand up quickly. I'll keep you posted on whether it helps. At any rate, I'm so glad that you were able to pour your chardonnay down the sink after your contemplation in the shower. :applaud: Good on you!

Lisa, I hope your Tuesday is everything that you want it to be! How long have you been sober now? You're a rock!

Cassie, it sounds like you have come a long way. I admire you for being able to moderate. I can't do it. If I could do 5 af days a week, I would be very happy to do that, but I get sloppy really quickly. So keep up the good work. For me, it's just easier to tell myself that all drinking is off limits!

Happy 21 days, DoggyGirl. You've now reached the 3-week mark! That's a real accomplishment. Keep up the good work! I just love your infectious enthusiasm!

Anyway, on to my day. My turn for a shower, and then off to the doc's to get Maddy her meningitis shot for college, then off to work. Yeehaw!

Hugs,:l
Kathy

[Breez]

31 July 2007

Morning All!

So proud of you Paddy....that was a hard thing to do. In the past when I found a bottle I had hidden with stuff still in it I had to give it to hubby to spill out. It had become my friend for so long that it was hard to spill out on my own-I felt I was doing something wrong. Some of you may not remember but back in April we had a party & hubby threw out about 12 left over beers in the garbage & I could hear them screaming "nooo, I didn't fulfill my destiny" (popeye will remember that one). I applaud you dear paddy:wdn a job well done.


Kath-:yay: you have definately come a long way! Congrats!


DG-congrats on your 3 week mark!
hello cassy & Lisa....:hallo:


Well-called my future workplace & have to fill out paperwork on Friday/then they process/then I start. The family has another vacation in 2 weeks so I'll probably start after then. This has been the slowest start of a job ever!

Still in slow mode today-can't shake the vacation thing. Hope everyone has a great day!

[Determinator]

31 July 2007

big congrads to PAaddy and Kathy on your accomplishments!!!!!!!!

hate to be a downer but I'm so distracted by this skin problem I've contracted. bad rash on both legs and now my eye lids are getting really puffy...I'm starting to look like Yoda...it's gross! Got doctors appt this morning so we'll see. Hope they don't put me in a lepper colony.

day 21 DGirl...time for a hand or two on the card table in Vegas!

Be well everyone...

[Doggygirl]

31 July 2007

Hi Breez and Kathy Famous Fifty and Deter.

Kathy, what year is your daughter in college?

Breez - enjoy the slow vacation mode however long it lasts before new job!!

Deter, I'm really sorry the skin thing is getting worse. Let us know what the doc has to say. I'd offer you the leftovers from the Chicken with Ginger Sauce last night in an effort to make you feel better....but we ate it all. I hope this clears up soon for you. Yuk.

DG

[YoungAtHeart]

31 July 2007

Wow, Deter, your skin disorder sounds fierce! I hope the doc has some solutions for you. You're never a downer--just saying what's happening, which is what you're supposed to be doing! Anyway, I hope you get some relief really soon.

I know what you mean about those "screaming bottles" Breez. I always feel obligated to help alcohol fulfill its destiny. That's why I can't have anything but cooking wine in the house. Also, stay in vacation mode as long as you can! I'm GREEN with envy.

DG, my daughter is just entering college--she's 17--that's why there's a learning curve goin' on around here!:H I'm sure all of this will be much easier the next time year!

In fact, I took Maddy to get her meningitis shot this morning. She ended up fainting a few minutes after the shot. The nurse and I were talking about IV's though, and they make her very squeamish! It's really weird, but I'm sure glad it happened when we were still at the doc's. She's beginning to recognize the warning signs herself, cause she asked to lay down before she fainted away. I've got to admit that it scares me when it happens. This is the 3rd time.

Anyway, I had a cancellation, so I was able to get on here. Have a good rest of the day all!

Hugs,:l
Kathy

[Breez]

31 July 2007

Deter-ouch. Remember I got poison ivy first time in my life this yr. Saw a thing on global warming & they are saying more "infectious" plants are thriving more than ever. Hope it's nothing serious.
Hey-what did you hear about your "squishy". Either I remember reading & my remaining brain cell is making me forget or I didn't read...whichever....bad brain cell-bad:b&d: :H .

[Breez]

31 July 2007

Oh Kath-sometimes the way we anticipate things- make things worse. Poor Maddy!

My hubby always yells at my "this is the way it is" attitude. Must be my medical background. I put crap on their boo-boos & say "grin & bear it-it's gonna hurt-so suck it up". And a kiss kiss after.

Now today-went to library, dropped off books, decided to go to deli & up the road "Run Forest, Run" a stupid squirrel. Run I yelled. Flomp, flomp-felt it under my front left tire. This is my second run over. I shreiked-"oh why didn't you run". So the kids were like `WHAT HAPPENED DID YOU Do KILL IT". No rosy colors for me-yup-mommy killed it-mommy feels bad-it's dead-now turn up the music. Then we got to see it on the way home. I'm not calous, I said I was sorry to it(under my breath). They ate my bird feeders & destoyed them this past winter.

[Determinator]

31 July 2007

ok, I'm not a leper! but really doc doesn't know exactly what it is. in his own words "wow, that's an impressive rash"
umm...thanks? ha!
he gave me a steroid injection and two different prescription creams while I wait for my dermitologist to get done playing golf or whtever they are doing.

regarding the squishy thing under my right ribcage it's never come up as any diagnosable condition....a mystery! thankfully it's subsided and stays that was for the mostpart without alcohol. if I drink heavily or regularly it comes back...can't be good whatever it is. so the moral of the story? we gotta take care of ourselves now and every day! our health is our greatest personal treasure (second only to love in our life).

be well!

[YoungAtHeart]

31 July 2007

Sorry that your doc couldn't come up with anything better, Deter. I'm glad your squishy thing under your ribcage is staying silent. How weird. Anyway, I hope the steroids and creams help with your rash. Health is definitely a very valuable thing!

XXXX
Kathy

[Newyear]

31 July 2007

heading to bed ...had a pretty good day Kathy - thanks!
Can't remember how many days af now but I do know that 10/27 will be one year Yea!
Just wanted to say Deter- hope they figure that out soon and it sounds pretty darned miserable to me. So sorry! Oatmeal bath? Anyway - :getwell:

night all
lisa

[Hannah]

31 July 2007

Determinator - Sorry to hear about your rash, bummer. Hope the steroids and creams help. What about an antihistamine? Possibly an allergic reaction? Reason I ask is I have a few allergies, and my eyelids will swell and it actually makes my vision blurry - anything like that?uch:

Paddy, I think it's great you poured out the vino. Boy, if I had the money for all the liquor I have poured down the sink in my life....... but it's very theraputic, isn't it? Almost like purging yourself. More power to you.:thumbs:

Young at Heart - Congrats on 50 days! :award: