Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

satori;180898 wrote: Don't worry tho'



What a talent - What a hunk! You have to agree!

Er, Um, yeah, Satori - a real hunk. Are you sure they couldn't scrape enough of George off the pavement to be, er, um, usefull?

Thanks for the great show, Satori. I AM grinning from ear to ear!

And thanks for all your wisdom, guidance, humor, and potshots along the way. It all helped keep me on the "striaght" and narrow. :thanks:

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

lease:

Finding My Feet;180902 wrote:


It's a great achievement!! And, like Satori, you've helped so many of us along the way with the things you say....STRONG LADY!! You've done it with loads of things going on that have been (and are) really hard, too.


Enjoy Satori's Hunky Prezzy!!! (FAB, S.!!!) I hope they all treat you impeccably in the manner that befits a great lady!

Thanks, FMF, but I'm not that strong. It's only with the help of all you wonderful people that I have been able to do this. Lord knows I have tried before, and never got beyond maybe two weeks before the BoozeBeast called me back. Thanks so much, all you great people, :h you all.

And re Satori's Hunky Prezzy - Well, maybe they don't have to treat me all THAT impeccably. . . . .lease:

[rob]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

:banana:: BIG CONGRATS HANNAH!! AND NOW THANKS TO DOGGIE I'VE GOT HANNA BANNANA AND THE NAME GAME STUCK IN MY HEAD!!
:banana:

Hannah, Hannah bobanna, bannana, nanana, nana, bobanna, fefifo fofanna
HANNAH!!

:rockband:

Hope you're rockin on your special day.

You add so much fun and spirit to our little travelin salvation show. Hope you stick around to keep talling our AF days and missing body parts

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

[QUOTE=Doggygirl;

I just dropped these guys off at the end of your driveway. The one on the right said his name was Satori.



DG
Oh, Doggygirl - I just knew you were a special friend! Satori, you bin working out! Love the pom poms! :giggle:

Yes, yu may have Johnny. I will be keeping busy w George, - Pinkie, Daniel is up for grabs :H

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, DG, for your sense of humor and your dedication, and your friendship. You truly are the Alpha B*tch around here, and I mean that in the nicest way possible!:thanks:

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Chief, thanks for the congrats, and for dropping off the cheerleading squad! I'll take the 2nd guy from the right (nicest pkg - oh, slap my mouth) the more the merrier. And good luck to you as you continue down the AF road, you are doing awesome.

Pinkie, (check out my gift, Daniel is available), thanks for being there. You have been a major contributor to the nonsense around here! Pinklady, Rob2, thanks to you too, and hope your journey down the AF road continues as well.

M. Mama - Thanks a bunch. You WILL get to 30 days AF (And BeYonddddddd...), I just know you will. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and begin again. You'll get there, one of these times it will just all click into place, and you will be :racer: down the AF road!

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

DG - I'll get you for this!

Rob - Gee, thanks. :exclaim: Actually, I fashioned my "screen name" from a book written by Janice Hold Gilles, titled "Hannah Fowler". It was fictional story about a frontier women (Hannah) and her husband who carved out a life for themselves in the Kentucky wilderness. I just tried to upload the book cover w picture of Hannah, but the "file failed to upload". If you go to Amazon.com they have it. I'm sure the poor woman never ate a bananna in her life! But you can call me Hannah Bananna if that gets your rocks off (Sheesh - thanks a "bunch" DG) :H

Rob, remember who sold you back that particular body part?!!!!!!!!!!!!!:bat

[Guest]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Great to see you triumph Hannah..........just knew you would.

Love,

Starlight Impress x

[Red]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

That's SOOO Awesome Hannah!!!! Keep up the good work!

Red

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Okay, guys, finally got something to work - The Hannah Fowler pic wouldn't work, and another pic of hubby & I in period costume didn't work, but this one finally did. Me at 25.
There you go. Few more wrinkles now, and the hair color comes out of a bottle these days. :H

Starlight - Thanks to you for being there for me too, Always felt a connection w you, you are so compassionate and real.

Red, thanks to you too.

Is it time for my ramble? Where to start?

30 days ago I was in a very bad place. Trouble began a long time ago, really, but escalated about a year and a half ago when we moved, and hubby changed jobs. Never, ever, should have done that - we have been so very sorry since. This job has him working himself absolutely ragged, is away a lot, and worn and out and tired and depressed . . . . anyways, this always affects the wife. My response to being alone so much and worrying about him so much was to drink more . . .and more.... until the drinking itself began to overshadow the other problems. I had said to hubby on more than one occasion that I just wished I could check myself into "somewhere" for a few weeks, and get over the hump. I knew AA was not for me, because I was sure to see someone I knew there, and I would be absolutely mortified. I am (was) a closet drinker - could handle myself fine in public, so really, no one really knew.

Then one day I sat down and googled "alcoholism" and this is one of the sites I checked out. It was like a light bulb came on - I immediately recognized that if I ever had a chance, this was it.

Another major difference between this and my previous attempts was that this time I resolved that I was quitting whether or not hubby did. We had always made our attempts together before this, and it was typically him who started us up again, even tho he maintained that I was the one who had the problem. Only once did I ever get him to admit that he did too, so still a little denial there. Anyways. . .(nope, not going to be a short post ) surfed the boards for a while, finally got up the courage to log in and start participating, and have never looked back.

Not saying it hasn't been easy. But knowing I would be logging on and reporting every night has really helped keep me accountable. And I owe all of that to you guys - in the early days mainly DG, Satori, Arial, Pinkie, and Almost Famous - but now so many others. Many many thanks, you have been my inspiration, my friends, and my support. :h you all.

Major perks:

I now get up in the morning for work w no hangover! Even if I have not slept well, I am still much more refreshed than I ever was before. I no longer head out on the highway wondering if I would still be found legally drunk if I got stopped.

Once I get to work, I no longer have to eat mints like a madman (also have a pot of herbs outside, and used to eat parsley every morning) in hopes of hiding the booze breath. Imagine my horror when I read somewhere that the odor comes out in your sweat too! Not much you can do about that! And I did find I broke out in sweats, just had always attributed it to our ladies good friend menopause. Those have quite too, halallulah!

I joined a gym (actually, 2) about 2 years ago, but often didn't go because it's not much fun to exercise when you are hungover. Now I look forward to going, have shrunk several sizes (actually found my abs, but lost the T's and A) and look pretty damn good for an old lady. (If only I could afford a facelift!)

As far as being lonely, now that I feel better, I go out for walks w the dog, etc., have got to know a few people via the gym, and spend a lot of time on this site. It's all good.

My mind is more clear. I don't let the little things bug me anymore. I find I am more able to reach out to others. My sense of humor has returned. I find I feel almost serene as I go about my life, find myself humming and even dancing to songs on the radio. And this sounds horrible in respect to the fact that we are just waiting for my bro in law to die, but shamefully I'm still feeling gulitily happy. I know I'm not going to slip this time, because I have armed myself with enough strategies and ammo to handle almost any situation, and feel ready. My next major project will be to help my sister once Guerrino has actually passed, and then I hope to work on hubby and get him feeling better too. He is also not drinking, but because he doesn't have the support system I have found here, he is only feeling more stressed out. But I am willing to do anything to help him EXCEPT say, It's ok if you bring home some wine tonight, honey. He has begun to look into starting up a business of his own, maybe that will be the answer, hope something is.

Well, enough. Can't tell all of you how much of a God send you all have been. And since I don't want the handle "Hannah Bananna", I am not the least bit hesitant to tell you'all to call me by my real name.

:h you all. Deb Attached files [img]/converted_files/309181=1581-attachment.jpg[/img]

[Doggygirl]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

THAT IS AN AWESOME RAMBLE, DEB!!!

And you are a beautiful woman to go with your gorgeous personality and strength! Thanks for sharing so much of yourself, and thanks for being here supporting us all in this journey. I believe there is something good in everything. One thing is for sure, while drinking wasn't good for me, getting to know so many wonderful people like you here at MWO is good.

OK - so I can't call you Hannah Banana..... Hmmmm...... Can I call the picture of Chief's Cheerleaders Hannah's Bananas????? **running and hiding fast!**

CONGRATULATIONS ON 30!!!! We're heading for 60 now!!!

DG

[Finding My Self]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Deb...

Thank you. I found your 'ramble' really moving. Heartfelt, warm and full of generous spirit.

It is an honour to know your real name - thank you. So much trust going on here. What a special place.

(Having very good time with my 'aunt' (cousin 83) but had to clock in to you guys before cooking. Still a bit wobbly at times but now I'm here I feel OK. So, after my 'fix' I will now attack the saucepans....)

Raising a glass of 'AF Mulled Wine' to you, Deb... been watching my son play cricket - an extremely cold and wet thing to do this year in the UK!!! (Spiced mixed berry cordial with hot water... yum - just as good as the 'real' (?!) thing...)

A simple, love to you girl...
Feet x

[Hannah]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Doggygirl;181097 wrote: One thing is for sure, while drinking wasn't good for me, getting to know so many wonderful people like you here at MWO is good.

OK - so I can't call you Hannah Banana..... Hmmmm...... Can I call the picture of Chief's Cheerleaders Hannah's Bananas????? **running and hiding fast!**

DG

Right back at ya, DG. Having a drink pales in comparison to getting to know you. And I don't know if they're "Hannah"'s Banannas - I'm willing to share!! :giggle: I do intend to PM you sometime w Misty's story - we can compare vet bills and tales of woe. How's Kimba doing? God, can you imagine actually having to wear a lamp shade around your neck?

FMF - love you, you know that. Thanks for the kind words.

[july232007]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Thirty is something!

Deb,

More impressive than your thirty days AF is your commitment to sharing with us here on MWO. You story rings true on so many levels. I think those of us who have found this site and successes here can see parts of our problem in your struggle. I know I can. Mints at work.

The small successes that an AF day can bring is truly a miracle.

Thank you for being supportive of all of us. Enjoy and soak in your accomplishment.

July

AF day 23

[rob]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Deb
What a wonderful warm and revealing post.

Thanks for sharing

Love and Peace
Rob

[Cinders]

Booze Buster Hannah celebrates 30 days AF!

Hannah/Deb,

Your Avatar's eyes and yours are very much alike. Lots of beautiful soul.

Amazing post. Thank you very much for sharing.

Re the "face lift" thing. If you put into a savings account the money you spent on alcohol every week for the next few months, there you go!! (You will be really surprised how quickly it adds up.)

But only do that if you really want to. Sometimes I think the wrinkles I have are a map of my life. I am not sure I want to lose 'em...

Again, thank you for the post. Every success I read about gets me that much closer to deciding finally AF. MWO has been a great help and I have moderated pretty well, with a few really bad exceptions, but AF is my end goal...Bear (MDBiker) has posted the most wisdom about that for me.

My heart is happy that you have found your way.

Love,
Cindi