Hello all, another sip. I'm trying to remain positive. I didn't smoke though.
I think mayeb my mind is reqarding myself with the alcohol. I had 2 and a half beers and 2 glasses of wine. Not too bad but not none.
I had planned none but got annoyed with OH. i thouht we'd planned to spend all afternoon with our friends. He spent an hour and a half and then met his other friend(he said he's always planned that but i don't recall).
We were going out in evening. i feel he prioiritises thsi friend above me, e.g my mum was over ,I see them once a year and he was angry as i asked him to stick with us rather than see this friend in the evening.
irrationally i wound myself up all pm about how after meeting him he would be late for our meal with other people in evening . he wasn't but i was already wound up. then he wanted to go drinking after meal, i didn't and asked him to come back with me but i wanted him to want to.he was a bit petulant about saying so and so will be disppointed. I said if he was more concerned about them not to bother and go out anyway. He came back with me, we were both a bit pissed but not in a nice way.
We were both pretty drunk, he refused to discuss anything and I went to bed in tears.
We go round in circles on this one I think other friend is ok but around when he needs something. His oh has been very rude, dismissive to me in past and my oh won't see it, denying it.
So feeling confused and upset is another trigger.
I think mayeb my mind is reqarding myself with the alcohol. I had 2 and a half beers and 2 glasses of wine. Not too bad but not none.
I had planned none but got annoyed with OH. i thouht we'd planned to spend all afternoon with our friends. He spent an hour and a half and then met his other friend(he said he's always planned that but i don't recall).
We were going out in evening. i feel he prioiritises thsi friend above me, e.g my mum was over ,I see them once a year and he was angry as i asked him to stick with us rather than see this friend in the evening.
irrationally i wound myself up all pm about how after meeting him he would be late for our meal with other people in evening . he wasn't but i was already wound up. then he wanted to go drinking after meal, i didn't and asked him to come back with me but i wanted him to want to.he was a bit petulant about saying so and so will be disppointed. I said if he was more concerned about them not to bother and go out anyway. He came back with me, we were both a bit pissed but not in a nice way.
We were both pretty drunk, he refused to discuss anything and I went to bed in tears.
We go round in circles on this one I think other friend is ok but around when he needs something. His oh has been very rude, dismissive to me in past and my oh won't see it, denying it.
So feeling confused and upset is another trigger.
c: :heart:
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