SATURDAY, SEPT 15

[barry]

Good morning all: Lisa I loved your story yesterday about smelling alcohol on the engineer's breath in the elevator. It makes me wonder what peolpe really noticed about me before I quit the sauce. I used to drink at least two, usually three bottles of Merlot a night. I would brush my teeth over and over again in the morning, I wonder if it really worked. There was no way to hide the blurry eyes. Nobody ever said anything to me, maybe because I'm the boss, but looking back people must have known.
I saw some people yesterday I haven't seen in about four months, they said I looked much thinner and younger! Asked if I was on a diet! Ya, ice cream diet!! I've actually gained almost twenty pounds but my face is no longer swollen from the booze. It felt great, just another benefit of putting down the bottle.
Have a great wekkend everybody.

[Guest]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Hi barry and all to come.
I find it hirarious to be losing lbs. whilst saving ?s at the same time!! lol
Fab, having quit, when people notice how much better we look, eh?

Have a fantastic Saturday all !!!

Much love,

Starlight Impress x

[retteacher]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Hi Barry & Star: I too have gained weight since I stopped. I'm fine w/that. Eventually, I'll tackle the extra pounds. Today, I feel a new committment to sobriety. I'm really starting to understand at a deeper level that drinking is not an option for me. I cannot sip a cool glass of white, because I'll always want to finish the bottle (& then some more).

[Newyear]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Hi Barry, Star and retteacher...Good morning

Barry- I kind of wondered what people might have noticed about me too.I asked a few questions of the dir of mkt too like..'do you think it was from last night or do you think he was drinking this morning?"
I partly asked that because I never drank before work but often had hangovers from the night before.

oh, and I just remembered seeing someone I used to work with - actually, she worked in housekeeping and I didn't really know her well- but she was always very nice. Anyway, I saw her in the lobby of my old hotel and the first thing she said was
"You look so young!"
She seemed genuinely surprised...and it sure made my day!
Kathy - ready at anytime for confetti!! Hope your day is going well

Chief- your question from yesterday about why some people who have been af so long are starting to question maybe trying a drink -
I guess one of those people would be me.
I think it comes from a number of things.
One is that we have gotten a little comfortable with being sober and tend to forget or gloss over the bad parts of drinking. Or we have a thought that since it has been so long maybe we can handle it.
I tend to come here and read and post and try to remember why I'm not drinking and that has worked for me so far.
Maybe for me one more trigger is that I am coming up to my one year anniversary - and I need to make another goal for myself. Should that goal be 2 years, 6 months or forever? Forever is still hard to deal with and just thinking of it now...for myself, I think I will say 6 months more. And then I will make another goal Of course I need to get to a year first.
Kinda heavy for first thing Sat morning I guess! Just wanted to share some things - hopefully it is helpful to others too.
Each time I consider drinking I think - 'but do I really want to?" I don't think I will even like it anymore. Being sober is so much better for my mental state - and it makes me like me more.
Have a great Sat everyone!
Lisa

[Determinator]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Super Saturday ABoriginees!

Barry, Chief, Lisa, Starlight, Mary, and all our friends to come

had a great AF time at the microbrewery restaurant last night and got not one but several comments on how much wight I've lost ....yeah!!!! that's always a boost as others here have mentioned. Our friends that normally put them away pretty good actually drank very little...perhaps I'm a good influence for once in my life on the drinking issue.
Absolutely beautiful day here in the high desert...a little chill in the air reminds us that summer is going. Good bicycling weather now. I've even proactively bought some bicycle lights so that Dx and I can cycle at night this winter.
be well everyone!

[Determinator]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

if anybody want a little taste of how hard mods is here's an experiment for you:

dump a bag of M&M's into a bowl and place on the living room table. now eat just one. and let it sit there for a couple of days. and really listen to the arguement that takes place in your head everytime you see the bowl. interesting! You learn about yourself with these little experiments.

[Hannah]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Boy, Deter, you couldn't have picked a more apt example of mods. To me that is EXACTLY what it would be like!

[retteacher]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Lisa: I don't have as much sobriety as you, but I was having some drinking thoughts & a dream last week. I agree that w/a good deal of sobriety, we tend to forget what wreckage alcohol made of our lives. In fact, I asked about it on long-term abs (thread: "Just Wondering"). The answer I got from the long-termers was not to forget all the negatives when those loving drinking fantasies start up. Get specific about remembering the hangovers, blackouts, & vomiting. Remember why we came to MWO in the first place. This site is a way out of it all. I have a new committment today to stay sober forever (I'm scared to say that). Love, Mary

[Determinator]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Mary, you are very brave to say that. Congrads.

[barry]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

Hey Deter: my M & Ms are gone already---hope I can make it to the store before it closes to get some more, darn shouldn't have ate that first one. . .

[Determinator]

SATURDAY, SEPT 15

LOL!!!