Thursday, Sept. 20

[retteacher]

Hi Everyone:

I just wanted to start this thread...it's an important tool for me for staying sober. I feel great about myself today. I think I have passed through the guilt & shame of my slip from last Sunday. I think I really needed to mourn the fact that I ruined my abstinent streak. I feel like I'm back on track & have my whole life to build up AF days. I keep track of my days on DrinkTracker, but my focus is one day at a time...especially now that I'm just beginning again. Stay vigilant & well. Mary

[rustop61]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hi Mary and everyone to come.

Its great to see you so positive. I'm having good days and bad days, its hard to keep the momentum going. The craving is still there but these boards are a lifesaver. I had a problem logging on the other morning and panicked.

Had a lovely 3 mile walk this am with the dogs and a friend. I then had two neighbours over for coffee so its been a nice day so far. Getting through the evenings are the worst.

Rustop

[Cinders]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hello all,

Mary, so great to see you so positive. Yes ODAT is a good approach, actually for most of us the only approach. 4-ever seems like, well, 4-ever. :H

We can do a daily commitment.

I am currently still on the early high of quitting, so rustop, I am not dealing with cravings so badly. I did go out to lunch yesterday with daughter, who drinks, and ordered a NA Sharps with lemon. It made me feel like I was doing something special. Didn't finish it though, because I hate beer.

I am concerned about my first gig away in hotel. But, I will just have to plan and log into MWO instead of going to bar.

Have a great day all!!

Cindi

[Determinator]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Happy Thursday AB-landers!

thanks for the kick start Mary and glad your feeling more mellow,
Rustop, I'm so jealous..I want to exercise but this darn knee....waaaa!
Cindi you are beaming this morning yeah!
the hotel thing was very hard for me but then I started channeling my new found energy into fun interesting projects that I'd neglected for years. found other things to do like go to the hotel jacuzzi with a new magazine, workout in the gym, surf the net, and of course MWO!!

be well everyone and all to come,

[retteacher]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Whatever would we do wo/MWO? I just checked in here when I had a break from my b-sitting duties. This keeps me focussed on my sobriety.

Rustop: Your 3 mi. walk w/your dogs sounds wonderful. I love going out w/my 1 dog. And coffee w/the neighbor. Those are the types of things we don't do when we're drinking. love, Mary

[Guest]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hi Mary, Rustop, Cindi, Det and all.

Mary, good to hear you`ve forgiven yourself and got your fighting spirit back......you`re way bigger than the booze.

Rustop, I completely agree that the evenings are the hardest part.......I only ever drank after 8 pm and it very much became a kind of ritual for me.......was my way to unwind.
Could still merrily down a btl. any evening, but I won`t, as I now appreciate that the wine wreaked havoc in my life.......A.F. is a far more relaxed and constructive way to live. I no longer suffer from any overwhelming cravings.......it`s just that "wicked thought" that invades my head from time to time and I rapidly shoot it down in flames.

Cindi.......great to hear you doing so well.......hold on tight to that high!!!

Det, I think one of the best things about being AF is having the energy and motivation to undertake some of those "fun interesting projects that I`d neglected for years".......we live such restricted lives when drinking to excess.

Wishing you all a splendid day.

Much love,

Starlight Impress x

[Finding My Self]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hi all. Good to read such upbeat stuff.

I've been helping my one Cornish girlfriend (!yea!) to strip wallpaper today! Fun.

I think I've rather overdone it with al this new stuff though - typical me, bull at a gate! I'm spending too long here late at night (you're such lovely company!) and waking pretty early. So I'm aching form top to bottom - like really painful. so feeling a bit ugh.

But going to the theatre with my daughter tonight and really looking forward to it. I'll be taken out of myself and sitting down!!!

So, hopefully a good night's sleep tonight and be fresher tomorrow.

So you think all this parent/money stuff could be really getting me more down/tired than I am letting myself know? I mean, it's so nothing compared to the real stuff others have got going on but as it's been going on for so many years might it have tipped the balance without booze to 'numb it'....? Grateful for any views or other similar stories.

I hope you all have a great day/evening.... Thinking of you all!

Love FMF xx

PS Haven't rung Mr. Ansafone yet....might text later. Think I have to feel more on top of things before I ring him.... Will let you know!!!

[Lucy Van Pelt]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hi all!!

Just one thing for me to say today!!

Day 11 WOW

I couldn't have gotten here without you all

You guys are the best:h

Beth

[barry]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hi fellow absters: Looks like everyone is doing well. Today, I was reflecting on how amazing this MWO program is and how lucky I am that I stumbled upon it. After all the mornings of "never again" and never being able to actually stop it is incredible to me that simply by following RJ's book I'm five and a half months without a single sip. When I started I don't think I even had any idea of the reality of actually being a person that doesn't drink alcohol, it was such a foreign concept to me. Getting sober over the internet, how cool is that.
Be well all.

[Determinator]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Day 11 must feel like heavan Beth!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Accountable for Me]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Great going everyone! You are doing so awesome Beth!! Keep at er'

Got home from the hospital just over an hour ago. I am officially 'spayed' now :H . Kind of sad about it but whatever. Feeling pretty good tho.... very noninvasive surgery nowadays. Just bloated. I know if I had been drinking like I use to my recovery would be shit. So grateful for sobriety and the health benefits it brings!!!

Where is everyone anyway?? Popeye? Breez? All you others that I can't remember your names but I know that you use to post here!? Where are you??

[Chief]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Hello AFers!! Day 41 here, (hard to freakin' believe!) and all is well in Chief-land.. Sounds like everyone is focused and marching along, That's what we like.. and yes, Barry, how cool is that??? Go MWO!!!

[Finding My Self]

Thursday, Sept. 20

Just wanted to say - tonight - the National Theatre in Cornwall....amazing! Full houses for 7 performances - unheard of here. Quality - stunning. The History Boys by Alan Bennet....incredible. (Notable line had everyone howling...."History is just one f*****g thing after another..." !!!) And an evening spent with daughter #2...at her totally favourite play.... me chirpy again!

Beth - well done you. I am so glad you seem to be feeling very happy - and I hope proud!
Det - howz the knee? Ouch!! (is 'Det' OK or...?!)
Mary - doing this thing with the same amazing spirit (sic!) and dignity. Good on you.
Wee Lady Up There - Glad you've got your name back from here (for a bit anyways!)(except you seem not to have as I try to post this!!! Had to change your name and cut and paste this to new opened post...?!?!?!) And the lbs continue to fall off...wow! A great incentive/gift/prize! Howz the numbness?
Cindi - I am sure you'll do great at your hotel...stick here if in need! - what sort of gig is it?
Rustop - thanks for all your posts...mean a lot - we seem to be pretty similar! Hope you enjoyed your walk..
Barry - that's great. Soooh glad for you.
And to following TOBBs...and folk I've missed on page 1..Hi.

Right, I WILL get that early night tonight - I've felt a bit too rough today...scary! I don't do feeling rough.... (?!) 'Drove me to drink'!!!! (Don't know why - yet another discovery to find out...help!) It was certainly weird to feel exactly like I felt when in the past I would have had a drink to energise for the next round (and hand on heart it would have physiologically helped...rasing the cortisol levels and all that) but didn't and accepted that I can't push myself to the hilt and kill the tired feelings with booze any more. I must learn to take care in a different way. But if you knew how scary 'just going to bed for a rest' (or worst, saying I feel ill, let alone too ill to go out) is to me absolutely terrfying....what's that about?!?! Something about feeling massively vulnerable is as far as I can get so far.....!

Right, shut up me! Love to everyone and have good nights/evenings wont you?

FMF xx :h

[Finding My Self]

Thursday, Sept. 20

AFM and Chief - sorry, missed you with all the cutting and posting!
Ouch AFM - you ok??? Hope you feel better tomorrow...sounds quite a big thing (if it's what I think it must be?!)
Chief - so glad all is well in Chief-ville!
Love FMF x

[Newyear]

Thursday, Sept. 20

AFM - hope you are still feeling ok. Hope the doc gave you some nice drugs to ease the pain.