Mary goes on a trip...and my go-to...thread has disappeared. I sure will be glad to have her back.
I have read through the "inn" threads a bit. All inspiring. Yet, I have trudged this road. For some getting rid of the drink may lead them to solve the real issues of "why" they drink. But for many it does not lead there. It did a bit for me....but never enough to keep me off the drink because mid on-my -way to real sobriety I would turn back. I did 2 stints of Af in AA for about 9 months each. There were the bonuses...but since I did not address the real issue I always turned back. Read very carefully into the post by the "long timers"...it never was just about giving up the drink that turned the corner for them it was just the start. Being down this path many times....2x looking all so successful...makes me at times look at them with awe because it takes alot to do what they have. I don't know that I have it in me to do all the "work" they describe. It looks quite exhausting. But then I remember it all started with a single step. Had they seen the work in front of them would they have tredged on?
I just have re-read the "Alcoholism and Addiction Cure" for the second time. For the record I have read all the books...never any 2x. This one finally resonated what I hear so many times on the boards from those struggling to those who have succeeded. I guess I needed that validation. This book, these boards with those long timers have given me the strength to go on...even after 2 failed attempts at long terms....and thousands of short term.
I reccommend the book for the "mindset"....it spurred me to really evaluate what was going on. I see a specialist (on my issue) on Thurs...and I have a detailed account to hand her that dates back to 1993...not about drinking....but my real issues. I need help in that arena. Not rehab...not a 30 day -9 month stint of AF...if I want to be AF. Drinking is a symptom not the problem. What I thought was the problem was just the surface...now I am ready to dive in. I will not promise AF....but I will promise to keep moving forward towards it. That is why I post here.
And yes, I know that AF is better...but it will only hold water until I deal with some physical and emotional issues I have.
Karma
I have read through the "inn" threads a bit. All inspiring. Yet, I have trudged this road. For some getting rid of the drink may lead them to solve the real issues of "why" they drink. But for many it does not lead there. It did a bit for me....but never enough to keep me off the drink because mid on-my -way to real sobriety I would turn back. I did 2 stints of Af in AA for about 9 months each. There were the bonuses...but since I did not address the real issue I always turned back. Read very carefully into the post by the "long timers"...it never was just about giving up the drink that turned the corner for them it was just the start. Being down this path many times....2x looking all so successful...makes me at times look at them with awe because it takes alot to do what they have. I don't know that I have it in me to do all the "work" they describe. It looks quite exhausting. But then I remember it all started with a single step. Had they seen the work in front of them would they have tredged on?
I just have re-read the "Alcoholism and Addiction Cure" for the second time. For the record I have read all the books...never any 2x. This one finally resonated what I hear so many times on the boards from those struggling to those who have succeeded. I guess I needed that validation. This book, these boards with those long timers have given me the strength to go on...even after 2 failed attempts at long terms....and thousands of short term.
I reccommend the book for the "mindset"....it spurred me to really evaluate what was going on. I see a specialist (on my issue) on Thurs...and I have a detailed account to hand her that dates back to 1993...not about drinking....but my real issues. I need help in that arena. Not rehab...not a 30 day -9 month stint of AF...if I want to be AF. Drinking is a symptom not the problem. What I thought was the problem was just the surface...now I am ready to dive in. I will not promise AF....but I will promise to keep moving forward towards it. That is why I post here.
And yes, I know that AF is better...but it will only hold water until I deal with some physical and emotional issues I have.
Karma
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