Rainy day here. It's starting to get cold which means-brrrrr-winter around the corner.
My best friend called me yesterday & told me that she had a meeting with my old superiors (I just quit my job) & they just raved about me & wished I had not left-blah blah blah. Remember how torn I was to have left but I knew if I stayed I definately would have started drinking. Well all the old feelings of "making the wrong decision" came up again. But after talking to hubby he screwed my head back on straight. In a nutshell-he said in the past when I stress out & am unhappy I start to drink, am miserable, shut down therfore forcing the family to have no mother-shutting the family down. We looked at the pros & cons of the job & well-even if there "might" have been potential to get another job in the city while working the hell job- I would have to endour all this negativity (who knows how long) & I know I would have started to drink. The job itself was good-the people were awful & screwed in the head. Better broke & sober than drunk & wasting the money on booze anyway~LOL.
Well-gotta tidy up my downstairs in preparation for the grandparents & my daughter's friend (who's sleeping over) to come over tomorrow for daughter's b-day.
Have a great AF day everyone!
p.s. Karma how did your appt go? I very often drank due to social anxiety which I still suffer from. I feel uncomfortable even when I pick up my son from kindergarten & the moms stand around gabbing & there is me-alone-afraid to join in the conversations for fear I'll say something stupid. But in the past-give me a buzz on-& I'll talk to the Pope!
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