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12th day af
hey guys. day 12 AF. i would have had a hard time without the antabuse. ( makes u sick if u drink-u dont have the CHOICE to drink or the worry ull cheat, or the temptation.. its great!) i recommend it to anyone, unless your really addicted to alcohol, u might drink and become violentally ill. i love it!! im so happy. the first weekend was a bit hard, because i had to sit around and watch my bf and his friends drink and have fun. it was hard. but now im hardly thinking of wanting to drink. i m jst going about my everyday life and feeling proud and happier.i feel less depressed as well. i hardly feel sad or depressed. i had a feeling my depression would almost disappear if i stopped drinking for awhile. I am 26, so I dont plan on staying like this permanently NOW, as in this time of my life, but probably a few years down the line. however, it almost feels good enough to contemplate staying like this for longer than a month. my depression has been a real issue for years now. i notice i appreciate things i didnt when i drank often, and am happy just being relaxed at night watching tv and chilling with my bf, rather than thinking either, "what drink should i get" or " i m tryin so hard not to drink tonight, feeling bored and down". thats what would happen on days i didnt drink. the boredom and sadness. i dont know if i can moderate. i might have to say, drinking once a week. if i can. i cant be the girl that drinks two glasses of wine five days a week. it will be on my mind so often about how much, when, where, what, and my mind woul dthink about it to often. i haevent tried the topomax or taken the supplements the way im supposed to. i felt but could have been wrong, that the kudzu took the pleasure out of drinking, and i didnt like that. but i might hve been having a bad day or whatever. who knows. well good luck to everyone, and i would really recommend the antabuse to those of :thanks: you who know u wont cheat and get real violentally ill!Tags: None
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