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[chrysa]

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Live in the now MM... the easy magic road is a myth..no such thing in any area of life...you are fine

[toughintexas]

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MM, we haven't chatted much, but I could've written your post a bunch of times, the deal is, we know we let our guard down, and believe me, fatigue, and not taking care of ourselves, sure sets the stage for disater, but, our old habits won't prevail this time, you laid an egg, like MD Biker has said on the 30 dy. post, you laid it, walked around it, and studied it, and then, wanted to smash it...its not the mindless wondering of days gone by...you learned from it, you owe no one an apology, not even yourself, its a learning experience, sometimes we need a whack to remember our goals....Hang in, you will be a-ok, as will all of us, in time! Thanks for being honest, it makes the rest of us feel like humans too....

[july232007]

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MM,

It is hard to quit. It requires thought and follow through. And, you have and will do that.

You are someone who values the signals sent from your mind and body: mediation, accupuncture, exercise. As you posted, these rythms have been interrupted of late. Gently guide yourself back to these and you'll find your path again.

Take care,

July

[Determinator]

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Med Mama, your post hit me as raw, naked and beautiful. it was reality. it may have well been my own post as i've also had a really dreadful night last night. Your post made me cry...I was right there with you. we must look at alcohol like an allergy...nothing to be ashamed of...plain and simple allergy. no amount of willpower will cure us from an allergy.
we are in this together you sweetie.
Go2 sent me a wonderful PM a couple days ago about my entering the "lions den". I read it, I appreciated it and yet I still got eaten by the bloody lion. I walked in to the bar and intentionally got trashed.....I have no excuses...I really dont even know what to say for myself. sorry...didn't mean to hijack your thread.
you are an inspiration MMama...you really are....I cherish your presence here.

[maxman]

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you are there for me when I need it so feel free to lean on my shoulder whenever you need to

max xoxox

[toughintexas]

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DDDDD...I'm so sorry....you know I understand, been there, done that, and you've supported me totally....you will be ok....we'll do this together! Love you all...

[John35]

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keep fighting

Hello MM; there is no need to apologize. I'm sure many people here comprehend where you are coming from. I think the best thing for you to do is to forget about it and keep moving forward. Everyone slips, you just have to be willing to fight. It seems as if you are on the right track.

[Preciouspinot]

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MM..you know how much respect I have for you. This should be a PM but, I will post here to show everyone how I feel. You are a GOOD person. You cannot define yourself over ONE, stupid evening. NORMAL people have stupid evenings. Do not dwell on the negative. Chalk it up, mark it down, to experience on our journey and move on....to hang on to the negative is toxic.

[Hannah]

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MM - I just logged on, and saw your thread. I feel so bad, I have been so wrapped up in my own little life lately and haven't been there for my MWO friends as much lately as I should -

You know, you have been going through a rough time lately. Really, for a long time - your back problems, the fires, the move, how overworked you are - etc., etc., - don't beat yourself up about this. I thnk it is remarkable that you did so well for so long.

Doesn't mean we mustn't keep trying. As many have said, there are many blips on the highway to success. I hope this will only serve as a "warning sign" and that you will attack your AFness with new resolve. We are all here for you, my friend.

[satori]

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MM-

Don't beat yourself up over this - sh*t happens!
As I am sure you know, Tibetan Buddhists do not "get" the western concept of "guilt".
They have regret and a wish not to make the same mistakes twice - but not guilt - that is alien to their way of thinking - we could learn a lot from them.

Take only those things from the past that make us stronger - and leave the rest behind - now is the only reality.


Love :l

satori

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[rob]

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Oh Dear MM, There's nothing I can add to all the wonderful support and suggestions here. Just want to add my love and to let you know that I have confidence in you and admire your honesty. You could have easily just kept the incident to yourself and we never would have known.

You have lost nothing, and gained knowledge for the future.

[wonderworld]

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satori;235661 wrote: Tibetan Buddhists do not "get" the western concept of "guilt".
They have regret and a wish not to make the same mistakes twice - but not guilt - that is alien to their way of thinking - we could learn a lot from them.

Satori - good to hear you making sense for once

[vinophile]

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MM,

Sometimes we don't appreciate something until we have lost it ,if even for s short perioed of time. Perhaps,temporarily, losing/foregoing your abstinence will allow you to cherish it even more.
You worked hard to achieve 30 plus days. Now I'm sure you are more convinced than ever of where you want to go. Think of it as I learning expereince and thank you for sharing it with us so that we can learn as well.
Take care of yourself during this stressful season. I know you have been working hard. Remember the instructions we receive before taking off in a plane....."put the oxygen mask on yourself first so that you can then assist others". Good advice for life on the ground as well. Another good slogan....."If Mama ain't happy ain't nobody happy!!!!"
You are an inspiration to me!!!!

Janet

[satori]

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wonderworld;235703 wrote: Satori - good to hear you making sense for once

D'oh! - don't want to ruin my rep

Note to self - must revisit my "How to talk unintelligible Zen" notes from Buddhist school!

Love,:l

Satori

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[wonderworld]

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satori;235709 wrote: D'oh! - don't want to ruin my rep

Note to self - must revisit my "How to talk unintelligible Zen" notes from Buddhist school!

Love,:l

Satori

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Thanks Satori - I'm overdue for my next migraine . You just give and give and give......

wonder xx