Sat. - Dec. 8

[retteacher]

Hi Everyone: I'm doing quite well. I'm trying not to feel overwhelmed during this holiday season...that's just a state of mind. There's plenty of time for everything.

I'm feeling more & more like I can face life wo/alcohol. It doesn't add anything at all to my life. I haven't said: "I'm never going to drink again." However, I feel that at some point, I might be able to say that. The ODAT (one day at a time) method works fine for me right now.

The realization I've recently been coming to is about moderation for me. The insight I got from the slips I had in Sept. & Oct. was that I cannot moderate. I know w/absolute certainty that I would slip right back into alcoholic drinking very quickly. Prior to those slips, I was thinking about drinking as a possibility for myself. I now know that I can't. For me there is nothing romantic or convivial about drinking. I don't have to feel cheated out of something just because I can't drink. For me it's almost like sugar to a diabetic person.

Anyhow, I hope all is well w/my MWO cyber friends. Mary

[Determinator]

Sat. - Dec. 8

Happy Saturday Mary and all our great AB friends to come.

yes I look at it like an allergy now Mary...it's about the best explanation I've found anyway...it's not a disease so I guess it's an allergy. if you went out to dinner and everyone had coffee after except for you or I we wouldn't feel horribly left out would we? or if they had a cheese appetizer and we are allergic we would be just fine also...same thing for that toxic alkyloyd that is alcohol.

Feeling a bit more human today thankfully. I'm quite glad it's the weekend even if we are snowed in...it's so pretty and bright outside with the new snow. I don't think the rabbits quite care for it tho!

be well my clear headed friends.

[retteacher]

Sat. - Dec. 8

Deter: Yes, allergy makes sense but addiction, disease, whatever does too to me. It's all semantics. I cannot drink wo/going totally overboard. I've observed normal drinkers, & they drink entirely differently than I do.

Deter, you might want to try the Newbies in Need ODAT thread. It focusses on staying sober today.

Anyhow, I'm glad you're back to your old self. Mary