I was thinking about the whole concept of "missing out" on drinking...not drinking while others are. What am I missing out on:
-fun: that's very temporary until the whole nausea, dizziness, headache syndrome happens.
-looseness: see above under "fun."
-taste: it was never about taste for me...always about the high.
I think I boiled it down to the first drink: that heady, lose-all-thoughts feeling when the alcohol first hits the bloodstream. However, I never, ever stopped at one, because I was always trying to keep that feeling. The more I drank the worse I felt. And, of course, the whole aftermath...I don't have to explain about that. Do I want all the problems of drinking for a few minutes of a nice high.
I will admit I've never gotten a natural high. I've felt happy (being w/g-sons), calm (walking the dog), etc. But I've never felt the natural high...Cindi could probably explain the brain chem of a high. I can live w/that. I don't need it. I feel content, calm, & happy most of the time. That's more than I could ever have expected of sobriety. Love to all, Mary
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