I am still feeling pretty down.........and yes, although my goal this month was Af, i know I broke that plan and it will be hard to get back those AF days.........
I am so sad and upset right now.
After 7 years of being single I really thought that after being with Mike for a year and a half things were good.............I was completely shocked last night when I walked into his house and was told "yep, sorry, can't handle the seriousness of the single mom thing"
So now I'm back at square one...........And I know that square one will be much better without AL on my back.............but right now the crutch is making it a little easier to cope.........so please bear with me friends as I fight through this pain.............because my heart is in so much pain right now............
I slept a little but I woke up crying, he sent me an email asking me if I'm okay -- of course I wanted to respond "what the $@$@ do you think #E@$@ #$@$@# but I didn't..........
I am so glad my daughter is at her dad's this weekend because I don't think I could cope right now honestly..........It is 6am here..........I know I will spend the day in and out of bed and probably with a drink in hand for most of it........and I know that is not the best but if that's how I have to deal with the pain well then that's how I have to deal with the pain.........cause I am in so much pain in my heart right now.........I will worry about AF tomorrow when my daughter comes home..........today I need to worry about the pain..........
I am sooooo sorry that I have dissapointed you guys. I really didn't want to and I feel horrible that I did. Please know that I love you guys to death and I feel sick that I let you down. I'm so sorry.
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