It's 92 AF days for me today. As the days pile up, I realize how more & more my life has changed. The daily drama of driving around, buying, secretly drinking, trying to act normal, & disposing of the bottles is eliminated. That daily drama was just as addicting as the drinking.
-There was the high of trying not to be discovered.
-There was the high of the purchase.
-There was the high of the anticipation.
Those are powerful highs, & I must find more acceptable ways of enjoying life. It isn't always easy. Now that the frenzy of the holidays are over, the let-down is setting in. What am I going to do now?
That's what living is all about. That's what I forgot how to do when I was wasting my life drinking. I now have to find ways (sober ways) to enjoy life. I know I'll do it, because there's no way that I want to destroy what I've built up over the past 3 months. Mary
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