Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

[Elizabeth]

Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

Retteacher, I'm new to this section of MWO and I truly admire you for what you have accomplished. Your recent drinking session cannot take away or destroy your 100+ days of sobriety. You are an inspiration. Thanks

[satori]

Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

Mary,

I am so glad you got right back on here and posted - OK, you had a drink, but we can all see you are still determined to beat this addiction.
I guess if it were easy, none of us would be here at MWO!

I have managed to hang on to my AF status - but I too was within a hair's breadth of drinking myself while flying back from a business trip to Houston overnight Friday night.

Even after extended periods AF - we still have to face down the demons every now and then.

I was flying alone - so no-one who knew me and my struggle with Al would have known - but - what is the point of being here if we are not totally honest?
TBH I just couldn't face the "fessing up" to everyone here, so decided at the very last minute to have OJ! - PHEW!

You are doing great Mary - OK you may not be totally AF - but if you are only drinking a couple of times a year - don't be too hard on yourself - that is AWESOME compared to where you were when you arrived here!

Love

Satori

xxx

[Finding My Self]

Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

Wow. I'm just back from a week of not being able to post much, if at all....and life is (Edit! 'feels!!) tough at the moment....and for so many I know...and now here I find the same the world over...and I can't find the words....so much love and support here...so many familiar 'faces' and names...and TG for that....

Some slipped, some nearly.....I have to admit to knowing that, TG, again, I am not 'enjoying' my wee 'half-glass-moderation' enough to make it much bigger, but the thinking has been there this week with me too...the desire to just 'grab-something-to-make-it-all-better'....to take me away from the unrest and ruffled atmosphere I sense all over....my aunt was the most unsettled I have ever known her: my normally steady-as-a-rock one family member I can rely on to 'Be There'...she was 'all-over-the-place'....I couldn't wait to leave (an absolute first) to get home (where I can normally not get away from fast enough!) yet found here heaps of unrest and atmosphere as well! And rain and grey and b***** hormones (why now for G's sake???!) and my mother waking me at 7.30 am this morning in a wail and moan scenario...

I say all this because, well.....I am trying to remind myself how 'common' this is - I am not alone (seemingly!) and that, of course, this too shall pass. This is a 'tide's out' situation and as sure as anything is sure, the tide will come in again, the sun will shine again, there are good things to be found in this day if I look for them... And that to get not much done today except looking after my frazzled edges and, even if I can't sooth other's, not make them worse by letting mine worsen....well, the day's end will be accomplished with some sort of grace and gratitude and that will be very good.

I comfort myself that there definitely are times when the moon and stars affect us all...some of us more than others. And that there are definitely huge energies happening in 2008 that, to bring about their progress and benefits, are going to 'shake us about a bit' while we move closer to our real, beautiful selves....but that we are trusted to ride them with our hair streaming backwards and with a whoop of joy in our hearts..... and not to sink down in terror and hide in a bottle - NOT because that is 'wrong' but because this ride is for us and we are worth so much more joy....and that joy does not lie in alcohol.

Thanks for allowing me to free my thoughts from this morning's shackles....Mary, you are an amazing lady....the drink was just another foothold for you in the climb to the top of the mountain for your fabulous view....onwards and upwards!! So with you, love! :h All I can see is 100+ days - which is fantastic!

And everybody....Satori, fab..very fab, my dear friend.... :l And everyone else on this particular bumpy bit of path....let's hang on to one another, lend hands and get through and out to the sun again?!

Little steps....big trust...and the laughter of friends....

Hugs all round.
FMS xx

[Thankful]

Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

FMS - I'm blown away. Your post was beautiful. Like I need another reason to cry this week! Good tears this time though. :happyheart:

Love, Me
:l

[Hannah]

Sun. - Jan. 20 - Daily Thread

Mary, just want to add my support to all the others. You are a wonderful lady with many friends here. This slip is just that - I know you will recover from it, and carry on....

Take care.