Vegas was a bad deal

[Mags]

Vegas was a bad deal

Det

You know you're my main man. I struggle with you. No one, not even RJ ever said this woud be easy. The only thing we all know is that it is worth the struggle - but boy that struggle is hard. The good ones are the ones like you who just keep getting up off the floor and carrying on with the fight. You study martial arts - you know what I mean. You're a tough guy. You'll get back up. You've got a little magsy love there with you.

:l

[retteacher]

Vegas was a bad deal

Deter: Thank God you didn't stay away from us. That's a sure path to disaster. You'll be on the way up soon. Love, Mary

[CaptJBean]

Vegas was a bad deal

My mom used to say, when we act the worse, that's when we need to be loved the most. Well, you know you're loved here.
Now, when you're up to it, go out and make a 12 pound meatball and get over yourself. ;-)
JB

[Cinders]

Vegas was a bad deal

Det,

I am sorry LV was a real hurt. Been there, done that.

Just get back on the train and make it right. Okay??

I'm sorry Dx is angry with you. Dealing with that stuff myself. Big time. No, read that BIG TIME!!

Do NOT let this derail you. Okay?? Vegas is tough and so is, hmmm, every hotel I ever stayed at.

You are special. Okay?

You help me and there are few that do.

Love,
Cindi

[Determinator]

Vegas was a bad deal

Again huge cheers to you my incredible suppoort system. not sure If I feel better todyay...just diferent. I know there is light aat the end of this tunnel at least. I'm also deeply in awe of my amazing Dx. she has done nothing but support me throught this last episode. she' done all the work at the doctors, she's written me shcidules for my meds and waited on me hand and foot. I must not have been hitler in a past life because I've been reiincarnated as the luckiest guy in the universe. I'll be on me feet soon my friends. mile grazie.

[retteacher]

Vegas was a bad deal

Deter: Do you think you're ready to make complete abs a goal? This Vegas episode might have been a bottom...if so, then you can be thankful for it. If I've overstepped my bounds, please let me know. Mary

[Determinator]

Vegas was a bad deal

no you are fine Mary and I appreciate you care. I can finally articulate what my needs are: I simply need to hear from someone of medical authority ( or knowledge) why specificially someone like my just can't moderated. I don't buy the rational recovery/AVERT philosophy that I'm just selfish. I don't buy the AA policy that I must let go and let God. I need a real difinitive answer. oNce I get that answer I can finally lay this to rest. and I am ready to do so. I'm very ready. thank you for your patience.

[gabby]

Vegas was a bad deal

D, Reminds ya where your not goin back to or somethin. Life is so damm weird. Grasp the meaning somehow.

[toughintexas]

Vegas was a bad deal

Det, I don't know the answers either, but I think some of us just can't be "normal" drinkers...I really think its a allergy we've built up...like babies drink too much cows milk, and end up allergic to it...have to switch to rice milk, etc....If you find a concrete reason, I'd sure like to know what it is too tho...I think once we've abused alcohol, and suffered such blows to our health, that our system just can't moderate anymore...its like playing with fire, you can juggle it, but sooner or later, it'll burn you again...I think our bodies are screaming..."Enough already!".....our brains just aren't listening very well....its a disease, makes no sense...we can beat this together tho....it isn't easy....we all know that all too well....

[toughintexas]

Vegas was a bad deal

Oh and btw, DX is incredible, you are sooooo lucky to have her on your side...do this for her too, and yourself....do it for each other....

[Cinders]

Vegas was a bad deal

Det,

I am with TNT. ( or Tit if you prefer..)

Some of us just simply CANNOT drink AL. He takes us down. He hurts us.
He pulls all stops out and says "you are a drunk." to us.

Been there, done that.

I hope you are okay today.

I hope DX is okay.

My hubby is angry, too. I screwed up yesterday and expect there is more screwing up to happen. I truly wish I could tell him it will "never happen again," but that would be SUCH A LIE!!

However, for you and Dx, I pray and wish for peace and serenity. We need it so much!!!!

Love,
Cindi

[Saint Jude]

Vegas was a bad deal

Hey Det,
Just saw this, want to send some hugs to you & Dx...:l
Like you I've fallen on my face more times than I'd like to count ... but there's something to be said for good old determination & heart! You've got so much of both.
I know how painful these days of "re-grouping" and "pulling your head back out" can be...but you can do it, all the color will come back into the world soon, be gentle with yourself.:h
Get back on that horse Det! Lets ride! Hope you feel better real soon.

Hubby & I are heading to Vegas in a few days... I'm a bit nervous about that.
I'm more determined after reading this thread though. Hope you take that in a good way...I know I really need to be Ultra vigilant.

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[retteacher]

Vegas was a bad deal

Deter: I too agree w/ToughinTX. I cannot drink moderately. I tried for years & years. I had tons of rules about what, when, & how much to drink. At this point, one little sip would start me on a binge. I'd go out, get a bottle, & drink the whole thing. That's a fact. I'm trying to look at the reasons I became an alcoholic. I think that's why the daily thread on the abs forum is so helpful. However, the daily work is just staying away from alcohol...plain & simple. I don't want to lose what I have...a happy marriage & loving family. For me, becoming abstinent simplifies the whole process. I'm concentrating on not drinking at all. I don't know if anything I said was helpful or made any sense.

Love, Mary

PS: It just occurred to me that if I were to start thinking I could moderate that would be "playing w/fire."

[retteacher]

Vegas was a bad deal

Cindi: Get back at it. You can do it one day at a time. Mary

[Accountable for Me]

Vegas was a bad deal

Thinking of you and Dx. I can't add more than what the other have said except for 'been there, done that!'.

In a couple more days you will be feeling great again. Be well.