Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

[retteacher]

Hi 30 Dayers:
I just read yesterday's thread all the way through...a lot of great stuff there.

During my drinking days, much of the time I was either inebriated to some degree or hungover. That made spontaneity very difficult. Yesterday, I did a pretty big, time-consuming favor for my husband (who's still sick w/the flu) on the spur of the moment. I enjoyed doing it, & it was much appreciated. There's no way I could have dropped everything & done this if I was in the throes of drinking or recovering from drinking. It was something that required stamina & focus. I did not have to make plans to accomodate my drinking/hangover:
-Can I do this in my condition?
-Can I drive there & back?
Those were the questions I had to ask myself before I did something when I was drinking. I guess I've gotten a degree of freedom back that I didn't know I had lost.

I hope all is well w/everyone here. We're all in different places, but it seems we're working toward the same goal. Take care. Mary

[Popeye]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Good day all,

Hope you're all well. I'm on day 13 without a drink. I was moderating for a while, but I found I wasn't really enjoying it so I decided to stay dry for a while. I'm not as panicky about it nowadays. I used to think about drinking most of the time, now it's only quite a lot of the time
Anyway; enjoy you weekends.

[Kirova]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

retteacher - it's nice not to have to "negotiate" each and every decision, yes?
Popeye - great job on your lucky 13! Keep it going.
I was hoping to get out for a run this morning, but will have to settle for plodding through the snow. Oh well, exercise is exercise! (wonder if this counts as cross-training).
Have an exhilirating day, everyone! :h

[charlee]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Morning all
I am in practice mode with doing things spur of the moment, and am suprising myself nicely...not quite where I want to be, but working on it...I call myself a creature of habit, but I think the "habit" was the planning and clock watching I did while drinking. The time and enery that was spent making sure I had enough stash, which store today, making sure I had no late evening plans that would interfer with my indulging......I am now working towards "whatever".....any time, anywhere.......
Wishing you all a great day..

[retteacher]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Yes, the planning for drinking. That was almost as addictive as the drinking itself!

Popeye: After 23 days sober, I have some stretches of time when I don't think of drinking at all. That feels good. Mary

[Thankful]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Goodmorning, my friends!

Mary, I wish I could have times when I don't think about drinking. It's on my mind 24/7. Ok, not when I sleep.

I've been house sitting for almost two weeks and I have been mostly by myself this whole time. It's been so peaceful and healing. I haven't even wanted to non-alcohol beer! It's obvious the place that I overindulge with alcohol is home. The place I shoud be most at peace. A place that's suppose to be a haven. The place were the stress is ridculasly high (from all the alkies who still live there). Got to go back home were the lazy asses don't do anything! Where I feel trapped to handle everything because no one else will. These are not children either. Went home to pick up my niece so she could stay the w/e with me and no housework has been done except dishes!! I was so disgusted that I stayed all of 10minutes and had to get out of there. When I go home Wed and ask for help cleaning the house, they'll complain because the bitch is back home disrupting there TV/drinking time.
I really got to make some drastic changes in my life and I am hoping 2008 will be my year to break out of the prison I call home.

So much for the positive threads we've had this week. Sorry folks.

Stay strong everyone. You can do it. Please take care of you, because no one else will.

Love, Me
:l

[Determinator]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Happy Saturday AB-friends!

Popeye! wow, you've been missed matey, and big congrads on the AF days.

Thankful, sorry your in a rough patch, but you sound resolved and you know what to do. cry on our shoulders anytime. I've come here so down I couldn't see the curb and yet I've always been propped up by the graceful souls of MWO. 2008 is your year!

we are expecting a big storm to roll in tonight and bring heaps of snow to the valley. Maybe we can sneak out for a walk or something beforehand.

Antabuse was a real relief and I'm so glad I talked to Morrison about it when I did. It's making my work trips so much easier I can't even describe it. This way I can "just do AF" no matter what. no decisions, no bargaining, no nothing. Just healthy AF me. whew!
I had a bad dream the other night I accidentally sipped a glass of wine at a party while on antabuse and I was panicking! ugh. just a dream.

be well everyone!

[Determinatrix]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Mary - I love your posts everyday sharing your thought processes and how they are changing in so many ways. You give a lot of thought to this and I learn a lot from you.

Popeye - So nice to hear from you. Congrats on 23 days!

Kirova - cross training is an excellent way to look at it! lol

Thankful - I know this is easier said than done but it sounds like you really need a new place to call home. I hope you are able to save some money and make a move to find your peaceful safe haven.

And Det. I am thrilled that you have some peace. xoxox

Dx

[rustop61]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Hi everyone

Its true Mary, we are all in different places but working towards the same goal. Just as we all got to the same place but took different routes. Some were closet drinkers, others social drinkers some of the time but with bouts of over indulgence. The great thing about MWO is that we are all doing it our way and supporting each other in the process.

Have a great week-end everyone.

Rustop

[Elizabeth]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Hey Popeye, I'm also on day 13 of AF and feeling remarkably good, although until this moment I've kept quite about it. Felt a quiet approach was the best way. I quit smoking at the same day (in unison with my younger sister). We give each other strength and quitting the smokes is a mean task. Anyway fortification, and a new concept on visualization that I'm just getting to understand (I'm slow!!!!) has been part of this journey. I'm excited with each day and hugely thankful.

[YoungAtHeart]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Hey all!

I'm skipping in then skipping out. My sis is here finally, and it is a gray and dreary day. I just wanted to pop in to say hi.

Popeye, it's good to see you back again. You've been missed.

Thankful, I'm glad you have a peaceful place to be. You've gotta get some new digs!

Deter, Dx, Mary, Kirova, Charlee and rustop, here's a quick wave to say hello.

Have a good Saturday!

:l :l

[Determinator]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Elizabeth congrads to you and your sis. kicking one habit is hard, you should get a medal for two!

[vinophile]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Happy Saturday Abstainers,
I said here a few days ago that I was back on track but have floundered a bit since then. The on-again off-again cycle is so draining.
Reading everyone's supportive words is not only helpful to those of you who are on track(and those of you who have been on the abs track for quite a while) but very inspiring for people like myself who are getting ready to give abs a "go" again.
I look foward to jumping on-board with you folks but, in the meantime , wanted you to know how much this corner of the MWO site means to me.

Have a good Saturday.
Janet

[retteacher]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

Janet: You can't imagine how on again, off again I've been. What matters is that you feel committed. One of these days you're going to say enough is enough. You'll just stop! Mary

[Hovercat]

Sat. - Feb. 23 - Daily Thread

on 14 days af now. had very bad cravings on thursday but managed to resist. Hope everyone manages their goals today!