Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

[Janice]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Phil, So sorry to hear about your sister in law. Don't be too hard on yourself. Dad dying last year soon had me back on that slippery slope after a good AF spell. We need some comfort at these difficult times and look what we turn to.....be strong and look after yourself today.

Not had such a good afternoon......sorting out more of Dad's estate; I've got Power of Attorney for mam's affairs cause she's in such a bad way, she's incapable of dealing with any financial affairs. All because of the alcohol. Had to make lots of phone calls to banks and solicitors and it just brings it all back. Find myself talking to Dad "is that right Dad, is that the way you want it?" and "am I doing the right thing here Dad?". A week ago an afternoon like today would have seen me with that first glass probably at 2pm. Not today though, gonna work my way through this one with a clear head. Just for you Dad.
Janicexx

[trixietrack]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

hi all I actually feel very proud of myself for being able to post here. I am AF for three days now.
there is even wine in my house but I don't even look at it. This makes me feel like I am in control of myself.

you guys are so encouraging. the last 2 days I have caught up with all the work that I got behind on cause I was coming to the office hung over. it's amazing how much energy it takes to keep up a bad drinking habit.

Trix

[Jimmycrackcorn]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Morning all. Day 4.

Its good not to have to hide low in the morning hoping no one can smell the beer and cigs from last night on me. Also makes the workouts in the morning worth doing.

Friday night is approaching. My mind has been racing with thoughts of being good, and being bad. Being bad is so easy and I am a trained profession in rationalizing it down to "sure it will be fine".

So far so good though and I am really looking forward to my first Saturday in months to not have a hangover.

Hope everyone has a good day.

[Di]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Good morning, Jimmycrackcorn:

I'm half way into day 5 AF. I, too, am SO hoping I make it to awaken hangover free Saturday morning so I can actually garden and not hide from the world or myself. The Campral I'm taking does wonders to reduce physical cravings.

Thanks for the post - Hope you have a great day.

Diana

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[retteacher]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Jimmy: When I feel I'm trying to decide between the good me or the bad me, I remember that when I drink, there is no good me. I'm working hard on seeing myself as a non-drinker. It's not easy, but I feel that's what I have to do. Why? When I drink, I always overdo. I do not & cannot drink like a normal person. Mary

[Cinders]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Jimmy and Mary,

Me, too!!

I am such an alckie. Give a couple and then give me 10 or plus.

I hate to say that because so many rely on the give me a couple...

However, today, yesterdays, OMG MANY YESTERDAYS, and many tomorrows say, No moderation, It is all about ABs.

However, I love the ABs thing. It is about NOT BEING HELD ACCOUNTALBE for anything.

Just being ABS.

I hate it and I love it.

Cindi

[Determinator]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

wow, I'm so late today. and this thread is on fire!! so nice to see

got home last night and just been sorting out things for a very busy time at work. Doing it AF is such a weight off the shoulders as I'm sure you can all relate.
sorry to be brief, must run for now. Peace and strength to you all!!!!!!!!!

[retteacher]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

I like that: "A weight off the shoulders." There's nothing to figure out. No machinations of when, where, how, & how much.

I just had a brief but not-very-pleasant discussion w/my husband. It left me upset & resentful. The AA's say: "Resentment is our #1 enemy." That is so true, because I wanted to drink. Instead, my husband & I opened the conversation again, & I aired some of my thoughts & concerns. I think he really listened, & I felt I could let go of the resentment.

For me, processing difficult issues is very important. I think that the more I bottled up, the more I drank. I don't want to blot out problems any more.

Thanks for listening everybody. I feel a whole lot better about myself & about my husband...he just needs to be put in his place now & then. He's an Aries & doesn't understand that concept. Mary

[Ask For Help]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Resentment is a big trigger for me

One of my learnings here has been how much resentment drives the thought "I deserve something' (food or drink) when what I really need is to be heard or taken care of. So I applaud you Mary for re-opening the discussion . . . and all the rest of us for finding other ways to put ourselves first, take care of ourselves, pamper ourselves and leave that resentment feeling out in the cold. Thanks for sharing Mary
Ginny

[Cinders]

Thursday 6th March Daily Thread

Mary,

Thank you so much for sharing because it is it truly is about letting OUR NEEDS be known.

One of the reasons we were alcoholics is because we were relying on our family and better halves to "understand."

Nope. Stupid.

We must take care of ourselves and them.... in that order...

Love,
Cindi