Friday, 7 March 2008

[Lucy Van Pelt]

Friday, 7 March 2008

I think I can finally post here, and really feel like I am not in the "wrong" place (abs vs. mods)...actually, I really didn't belong in either before.

I am on day 3 now, on antabuse, and doing really well. wow. It is the weekend, and my birthday weekend at that, and I KNOW I wont be drinking, because it will only make me sick. I do not look at antabuse as a crutch, but as a tool that is working for me, when nothing else has. So I am feeling good. Really good.

Cindi- I am so sorry you are struggling and BOY can I relate. Don't know if you told me if you have tried antabuse (was it you are Luvuall-cant remember)...but for me, a chronic struggler, I feel like I may have found "my way out". Let me know if you want to hear more about it.

Everyone else here is just doing awesome.

I look forward to many days AF. Haven't figured out my triggers yet, other than the damn clock, but I am sure I will in the days too come. I imagine I may be in for some rough times emotionally. I have been numbing myself for about 25 years...so I don't think this is gonna be easy. But I am ready. Got no choice but to deal with them, as long as I keep taking that pill.

Love,

beth

[retteacher]

Friday, 7 March 2008

Cindi: I've read that it takes 90 days for our brain to be reset...not that you're cured in 90 days...just better able to control the impulses. Can you take 90 days out of your life for your recovery? You might have to in order to save your own life. Please think carefully about this (while sober) & talk to hubby. Something has to change. Most really successful rehab progs are 90 days. You get detoxed & start the work of your life. Well, enough w/the lectures from me. Good luck!

Jimmy: I've never told anyone about MWO, & my intentions to stop drinking. I was very much a secret drinker, & while my loved ones probably knew I had a prob, they didn't know the extent. Keep going along one day at a time. Stay strong & abstinent. You can do it. I know this, because I've been 36 days AF & intend to stay this way, & I was a pretty far-along alcoholic. Stay away from places that would trigger you. Also, I don't keep any alcohol in the house. I'm sure I'd drink it.

Mary

[Thankful]

Friday, 7 March 2008

Hello my friends.

It's nice to hear that so many of you are on your way out. Keep up those strong spirits. We are fighters, that's for sure.

I never got a chance to post yesterday but went back to read the thread. Wow, you really made me think about resentment. What a huge weight that has been on my shoulders. I took over the family responsibilties when my mom died 16 yrs ago, and I am just now realizing that I was a very heavy drinker for over 15 yrs. Hmmm. I have been haboring a lot of resentment because of my responsibilites to my Dad and my niece have kept me from having my own life. The resentment lies with my sibs. Two are older than me and one is only 2 yrs younger, but not a responsible bone in their bodies. Well, I guess carrying around this resentment certainly hasn't hurt them has it? Yeah, I think it's time I found a way to let it go. Whew, I feel a dark cloud over me now.

Cindi, hang in their hun. Sending you :h and :huggy.

Beth, enjoy your birthday this weekend. A year older but wiser (sober) is something to celebrate. Treat yourself to something nice. Mani/pedi maybe. Anything but that nasty AL. He's not invited to your party. :bday2:

Tk, wtg pouring out the wine. I am so proud of you. But why did hubby bring it to you? Just wondering.

Take care my friends. And thank you for giving me so much food for thought.

Love, Me
:l

[retteacher]

Friday, 7 March 2008

Thankful: We responsible types tend to take on much, much more than we should. Then we get to be resentful of the people who do whatever they want. I tend to be the axis around which everything spins. I did this to myself. Nobody asked me to, & even if they did, there's no law that said I had to accept the burden. Before I retired, I chaired my department at my school. I dotted every i, & I crossed every t. I didn't let anything go & worked myself to the bone. I resented the fact that no one appreciated me. Guess what? When I retired, they hired a young guy who does just enough to get along OK. Everyone is fine w/that. That was a wake-up call for me. I don't have to be all things to all people. The only way I could think of to relax was to get drunk.

M