I think I can finally post here, and really feel like I am not in the "wrong" place (abs vs. mods)...actually, I really didn't belong in either before.
I am on day 3 now, on antabuse, and doing really well. wow. It is the weekend, and my birthday weekend at that, and I KNOW I wont be drinking, because it will only make me sick. I do not look at antabuse as a crutch, but as a tool that is working for me, when nothing else has. So I am feeling good. Really good.
Cindi- I am so sorry you are struggling and BOY can I relate. Don't know if you told me if you have tried antabuse (was it you are Luvuall-cant remember)...but for me, a chronic struggler, I feel like I may have found "my way out". Let me know if you want to hear more about it.
Everyone else here is just doing awesome.
I look forward to many days AF. Haven't figured out my triggers yet, other than the damn clock, but I am sure I will in the days too come. I imagine I may be in for some rough times emotionally. I have been numbing myself for about 25 years...so I don't think this is gonna be easy. But I am ready. Got no choice but to deal with them, as long as I keep taking that pill.
Love,
beth
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