Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

[cowgal]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

congrats!

Young at Heart, congrats on 9 months too!! WOW!!! I am totally impressed...............

Mary, thanks for words of support(but hasn't had too much of a ripple effect, at least not w/ hubby's drinking!), I feel I am going strong today as opposed to yesterday's doubtfullness..............:thanks:

Everyon else if I missed, sorry, but I am thinking of you all, as I need your help, not doing this alone, that is FOR SURE!!!:no:

love you guys!!!:h:l

MA

[Thankful]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Goodmorning All!

Our darling, Mary ~ Happy Birthday! You sound so positive and yes there is no better birthday present to give yourself.

Kathy ~ 9 months!! That's awesome. I can't even wrap my mind around being AF that long. You should be very pround of yourself!!

i have to say that just plain quitting is 50 times easier than "cutting back" for some reason...

Aperry, when I read this, I thought no truer words have been said. I obsessed about when I should start drinking my first 4-5 weeks sober. It was really driving me nuts! Every single waking moment was, will today be the day? What will cause it? Do I really want one or do I think I want one? Then one day I just decided that I just won't put that poison in my body any more. All of a sudden a great deal of stress just lifted off my shoulders. It felt so good. I hope I never lose that feeling.

Actually getting out of the house today for the first time since I came home from Dr on Feb 26th! Been rainning and cold here every other day and I was scared of getting sick again. But today I have to go out in the rain and praying I'll be ok. I've needed to get out for so long. I'm climbing the walls.

Well, love to all. Just wanted to get a quick post in as I may not make it back to the boards today. Stay healthy and happy my friends!

Love, Me
:l

[Determinator]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Happy Birthday Mary!!!!!!!!!!

sorry, in a big hurry again this morning. work work. had another super AF night last night and ate some amazing gourmet goodies

Be well my friends!

[Accountable for Me]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Happy Birthday Mary!

Way to go Kathy on your 9 months! Good Lord - where does time go? You must be feeling like a million bukeroonies!

Cowgal - my God girl! 24 days AF! It feels like yesterday you were pondering over mods/AF. I am so fricken proud of you! Keep it up, eh!

To the rest of the Abbers here - way to go on maintaining your goals!

[Princess Fiona]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Hi everyone, Happy Birthday Mary, its late here in South Africa, but hope yr day was awesome... Congrats to everyone else, I am 42 days AF, took antabuse for the 1st 5 days and then one a week for two weeks and since then pure determination...hit a huge wobbly on day 30/31, thankfully stayed on track...I log on every day, still a bit shy at replying, but noticed that there is alot of talk on vitamins and meds, I dont really know what we have available here, so dont know what I should be taking... I do crave AL every day, but I think that around day 30, I was begining to realise how big my problem with AL is...scary,logging on here, has made me realise that I am not alone.. so a huge:thanks:, to everyone.

Its really simple. "What am I attracting right now?" Well,how do you feel? "I feel good." Well good, keep doing that. (Bob Doyle...The Secret)

[Guest]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Hi again everyone,

I'm sick so I'm around a bit this week and enjoying the discussions here so I hope you dont mind me popping in again.

Kathy.. wow. Well done gal. 9 months. I'm so happy for you... and I hope that you actually GO to the gym and sweat some and lift some.. so many people (I was like this) join a gym and never go or never keep going. In Australia when you join you get a program to follow and that is quite useful because otherwise, just sitting on a bike pedaling slowly is not much use. Sweat out the bad stuff I say and get that heart rate up. At the end of my session is usually ends with work on abs and then boxing. I tell you the boxing gets the heebie jeebies out of me.. sometimes it really makes me cry (even now).. sure is a lot of emotion in me. And another thing... the days I REALLY dont want to go to the gym are the days I get the most out of it and I'm not lying.

Mary. Happy birthday. I hope you have a lovely day.

I think when we get to the stage of wanting to stop drinking we want to change so much in our lives. For me, I had this range of emotions in me.. I could be the ice queen.. the wild witch.. I'd sway like some mad woman between these huge emotions. I could fill this house with my indignation in a split second. On top of that I"d take on everyone else's problems as if I were in some way responsible for them. People used to come to me for advice (yep, imagine that, in the state I was in!!) and I"d be profound for THEM, but for me, it was another matter. I found it so hard to give to anyone else because I simply couldnt give to myself. Christ, I'd have to have a tank full of wine just to make love to my husband so that I wouldnt be aware of what was happening.

So. I've been there. And I wont forget. But it CAN and it DOES change. Like July said, the exercise really helps get that emotion out - though I find it hard to imagine him being cranky. I also found that once I had some sobriety.. (I started at one month) working on that psychological crap was very important. I had to work out for me what I hated so much about myself and what I was running from and I had to face it. Thinking about how awful it would be to face this stuff was far more scary than actually doing it. Sure, I"ve sobbed some and taken myself to some dark places, but its healing stuff and its so much better than the alternative and I'm a different person now.

This weekend I had a huge time with friends in trouble. Two and a half years ago listening to their agony would have turned me to the bottle. Not now. I am not responsible for them. Funnily, I think that as I can listen with a bit of distance now i'm a better listener but i am not responsible for them.. i can do nothing for them, I can only do what I need to do for myself.

One of them said in a moment of deep thought 'you know what Brigid, I think that when we are honest with ourselves we can tell the future'.. and I think to an extent this is true and when we work it out we have to take responsibility for what we do now because if we buy that bottle we know what will happen.

Stay honest friends.
Brigid
863 days sober today

[cassy]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Happy birthday Mary

I,ve read many of your earlier posts and appreciated your honesty of how hard it was to "get going on this AF thing"...you sound a happier person now and more accepting that these temptations continue ..its how you react that matters.

Have a cal, happy, peaceful sober Birthday...you deserve too,

regards cassy

[panadol]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Day 3!!

Hi everyone
Thursday and day 3 for me here!
It's great to hear how well everyone is going!
Very inspiring and helps to keep the positive
vibe going. Feeling good so far managed to
avoid drinking last night even though others
around me were drinking - did'nt really
feel like it so that was good. Great being
hangover free isn't it?
Gave a great day everyone
Pan

[Cinders]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Panadol,

Alright!! You are on the way now.

Glad you joined our little group.

Good night everyone. I am going to bed sober and only TWO more days until I can get the antabuse.

Love,
Cindi

[YoungAtHeart]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Fiona, I hope you won't be shy and will continue to post. I have the feeling you will have a lot to add. I hope you find a place to get vitamins and supplements.

Happy Day 3 Panadol.

I really appreciate everyone's congrats. I count on you all for your support. Cowgal, Thankful, AFM, Brigid, and all the earlier folks--just many thanks!

Hey Deter!

I hope you are feeling better Thankful and that your outing today went well.

Brigid, I'm glad you pop in periodically. I'm going to get to the gym on Saturday at the latest and get started.

Anyway, another book! Yikes!

:l :l

[Determinator]

Wed. - Mar. 12 - Daily Thread

Last minute check in! Kathy, huge congrads, that's a fabulous accomplishment under your belt. I'm getting there as fast as I can
Panadol, well done! the worst is behind you (day 3 was always hell for me for some reason)
Fiona, big welcome to you!
ATT, huge pleasure having you with us, thank you.

strength and blessings to you each and all....getting sleepy here. Catch you in the morn.