Hi monthly abstainers
I was waiting for todays thread but it doesn't seem to have started yet. I will post on it later. May I say a big THANK YOU to all your replies on the other threads I posted on. If you can remember I was going to join this board and only managed 1 day. I went off to my doctors to see what help they could offer about my problems with alcohol. My doctor told me to wean off it which I now know is impossible for me. Being an alcoholic it is not possible for me to leave some wine in the bottle. It has to be all or nothing for me. I have done a lot of soulsearching over the past week and have realised I am an alcoholic. I cannot stop myself when I drink and I drink to get drunk. I also realised I have always had a problem with alcohol, even as young as 18. I didn't drink all week and then would binge to the point of black outs on a weekend. I was moderating last week but it didn't make me happy and last night I ended up drinking 1 1/2 bottles of wine. The guilt and regret I feel today is unbelieveable, but I am trying to stay positive in that today is a new day and I can change the way things are if I want. I cannot take that first drink. So today I am going to not drink. I will take this one day at a time but I know deep deep down I have to do this for my kids and myself. I do not want my kids to grow up around alcohol and having a drunk for a mother. I want to be the confident loving mother I know I can be. With a little help from you all and my willpower I will give this my best shot. Thanks for reading and looking forward to your words of support. XXSeto
I was waiting for todays thread but it doesn't seem to have started yet. I will post on it later. May I say a big THANK YOU to all your replies on the other threads I posted on. If you can remember I was going to join this board and only managed 1 day. I went off to my doctors to see what help they could offer about my problems with alcohol. My doctor told me to wean off it which I now know is impossible for me. Being an alcoholic it is not possible for me to leave some wine in the bottle. It has to be all or nothing for me. I have done a lot of soulsearching over the past week and have realised I am an alcoholic. I cannot stop myself when I drink and I drink to get drunk. I also realised I have always had a problem with alcohol, even as young as 18. I didn't drink all week and then would binge to the point of black outs on a weekend. I was moderating last week but it didn't make me happy and last night I ended up drinking 1 1/2 bottles of wine. The guilt and regret I feel today is unbelieveable, but I am trying to stay positive in that today is a new day and I can change the way things are if I want. I cannot take that first drink. So today I am going to not drink. I will take this one day at a time but I know deep deep down I have to do this for my kids and myself. I do not want my kids to grow up around alcohol and having a drunk for a mother. I want to be the confident loving mother I know I can be. With a little help from you all and my willpower I will give this my best shot. Thanks for reading and looking forward to your words of support. XXSeto
This is something that is day to day and will take time. After the first few weeks it gets better. I find the greatest motivation in my children. I used to use the stress of parenting as an excuse to pound down a bottle or 2 of wine. I now have a list of other activities to do. So far so good.
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