:upset:Good Morning everyone.
Well...I was af for 35 days for the first time and then al got me. I went to a party last Friday night and everyone there was drinking alot and so I did too..so I drank that night, Sat. night and did not drink Sun., Mon., or Tue., but last night I did it again...I have a boyfriend that I live with and it's like he wants me to drink...I was fighting it hard yesterday then he came home and got a beer from the fridge and asked me if I want one and I couldn't resist..I had even listened to the hypno cd and taken my supps...maybe I need to start Topomax..I need something to help the urges...One of Cindi's msg said something about the urges is what you have to watch out for not the cravings. That's what got me was the urge and it was a hard, hard urge. And now I'm craving wine, witch I have been wanting to drink anyway because I haven't had any for probably 6 weeks...I'll have some tonight..I'll drink beer tomorrow while I'm working in the yard because I love to drink beer while I'm working out side and the weather is so pretty...I hope that it will be like Youngathart and not enjoy it although the 35 days of not drinking was hard and I kept waiting for the good feeling to start and it never really did except that I felt alot better about myself. I'm going to order something to help not sure if Topomax will help with the urges but I'm going to start back on the wagon Sunday.
I would like to know why men don't want their girlfriends or wifes or whatever to drink..my exhusband wanted me to drink too...he picked me up from rehape and took me straight to a bar. Whats up with that??
Does anyone here fall asleep while listening to the cd's? It is so hard for me to stay awake by the time he gets to the part that's suppose to help I'm asleep.
Sorry to ramble on and on..I'm going over to the supplement thread check back latter.
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