Hey everyone! This is me starting out May AF! I only have three days under my belt but I believe that with the support of all of you that I can take this ODAT through May. Today is my 13th wedding anniversary (may have said that yesterday) and my husband and I have probably drank or been drunk every one of those. Not tonight. Tonight is a nice dinner out with my husband and children. I have rehearsed over and over "water with lemon please" and visualized how refreshing and satisfying that will be.
I 've been reading about hypoglycemia and problem drinking on this site. I have been hypoglycemic since I was a teenager. It may by why the switch from beer to wine was such a fast downward spiral for me. It gave me such a quick high compared to the beer (although I drank a ton of that too) that I would practically chug the first 16 oz and then continue to drink to keep the buzz going. So, like I said I was reading about the hypoglycemia connection and when I started to feel resentful and weak (after my husband opened his second of three beers), I poured a glass of cranberry juice and chugged it. You know what? Instant high. I was animated and talking a mile a minute. Just as if I had a little wine. Then I ate dinner and the weak moment was gone.
Here's a quote for ODAT that I found. I liked it because I tend to seemed a huge amount of my time being guilty for the past or worried about the future.
Yesterday is but a dream, tomorrow is only a vision. But today well lived, makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Sanskrit proverb
Hope everyone's day goes well - or is going well. I heading to the gym and then work at my husband's business before I come back home and tackle housework and paying bills (yuck!)
I 've been reading about hypoglycemia and problem drinking on this site. I have been hypoglycemic since I was a teenager. It may by why the switch from beer to wine was such a fast downward spiral for me. It gave me such a quick high compared to the beer (although I drank a ton of that too) that I would practically chug the first 16 oz and then continue to drink to keep the buzz going. So, like I said I was reading about the hypoglycemia connection and when I started to feel resentful and weak (after my husband opened his second of three beers), I poured a glass of cranberry juice and chugged it. You know what? Instant high. I was animated and talking a mile a minute. Just as if I had a little wine. Then I ate dinner and the weak moment was gone.
Here's a quote for ODAT that I found. I liked it because I tend to seemed a huge amount of my time being guilty for the past or worried about the future.
Yesterday is but a dream, tomorrow is only a vision. But today well lived, makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Sanskrit proverb
Hope everyone's day goes well - or is going well. I heading to the gym and then work at my husband's business before I come back home and tackle housework and paying bills (yuck!)
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