May 2 AF - May AFers

[wastedtime]

Well, I made it through my anniversary without AL. It has to be the first time in the whole 13 years (except the time I was pregnant). I was all set to say water with lemon please while trying not to sound desparate to get the drink ordering overwith, but before the waitress came to the table, my husband showed me their specialty drink list - over 55 specialty drinks and great prices no less at this nice family restaurant. I had my next answer all ready and rehearsed, "I don't think I should drink while taking this medication. I haven't felt very well since I've been on it". He laughed and said, "Maybe you should stop taking it". I said no way and we both laughed. I can still hold on to this excuse until Monday so that should get me through the weekend.

Before we left for the dinner, my husband chugged two beers and I had to sit around waiting for him to get done (boring) - then two more at dinner. I drank cranberry juice before we left and watched a recording of Sunrise Earth on Animal Planet. This may sound corny, but I was watching this recording of the sun coming up over Yosemite National Park and it ran through my mind that there are two ways to greet a new day. Drunk or sober. Drunk hurts. When you are sober, morning is a blessing. I love starting a new day with all it has to offer. AL had tried to get me to indulge again, to stop the aches and pains and put away the stress of the day, to celebrate. Any excuse AL could throw at me. I was so down and insecure and stressed that I thought about chucking the program. But it was that vision of a clear morning, of a guiltless memory of yesterday, of a day with more energy than the day before that made me tell AL to stop wasting his time with me today. I want to see where this road leads.

Hope everyone had a great Thursday. Can't wait to hear from you all.

[cpn1004]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Greetings, I made it through yesterday for day one AF. It was tough around 230pm when the beer started calling me. But I acknowledged the call and said 'not today'. Feel great this morning, even exercised for 30 minutes.
Have great Friday.
Love and Peace,
Phil

[wastedtime]

May 2 AF - May AFers

One more thing quickly because I'm running late again for a kids' event at the school - field day - remember field day? So i forgot to say above because I was so fixated on last night that I wanted to say I DID NOT YELL AT MY KIDS THIS MORNING!!!!! In fact, we played together for about 20 mins. Who knew patience was contagious? Feeling achy and still feeling very foggy headed. If anyone has gone longer than four days in this group before, can you tell me how long this will last? I thought I would be more clear-headed by now. I still feel a little AL stupid - kind of like a slow mild hangover. When will this pass?

[blondechicktoyou]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Hey there girl and everyone else. We are on day 5 and still hanging in there. My mother bought me a beatiful rose bush, to replace the one I lost. But after sitting on my nargitus for 3 months, those aches and pains are still there, might have to wait until Monday to plant, the rose and the 2 other flowers, I bought. Must be that AGE THANG.

May 1, AF ODAT, we will make the whole month!!!!

[Peanut]

May 2 AF - May AFers

grumpy

So, I did my day 1 AF for May. I think the Kudzu and the L-Glut helped, as I did not crave it as bad as I did on monday night when I went AF. I listened to the CD's too, but I don't think it worked. I could hearmy beau talking to his son outside my bedroom door, then he put music on YouTube, then I heard the neighbors, etc. So much for some quiet time, eh? And that was 11pm last night!!!! I had a nasty headache all night too, just like last monday. I still have it. Hardly slept of course, and now today, I am feeling particularly grumpy. Everything from the guy's recycling stuff on the counter, not in the recycle box, to how much my beau smokes (yeesh - almost 2 packs a day) to how long his son was in the shower!!!!

I will try to cheer up, but I am bleary and kinda mad - maybe mad at myself for getting myself into this predicament in the first place??? I am dreading tonight - friday night!!!

My 16 yo boy is out of town this weekend, at a family reunion for his dad's family in a neighboring province. My 2 daughters are going to it too - I wish I could go - I miss that family. That's the trouble with divorce - you lose a whole other family (which isn't bad in some cases, especially one I read about in a thread last night!!!!!)

OK - on with my work day. Possibly aspirin is in order!!!
Have a great day(evening?) everybody!
Peanut
Peanut

[Lila]

May 2 AF - May AFers

I am going AF too, this month of May. I kinda wish there wasn't two threads. I wonder, how do I stop feeling like I have the flu and can't get out of bed in the morning? It's not so bad, but I am surprised, I was only drinking a few drinks a night.
Lila

[rustop61]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Hi everyone

What a lovely post Wasted. It's good to be reminded of the advantages of waking up clear headed the next morning. For those of you just starting out, it does get easier. I had little or no side effects but the cravings did come, sometimes out of the blue. Stay motivated and stay strong, before you know it the first week will be over and then onto double digits. Every step is an achievement.

Have a lovely week-end.

Rustop

[Yosemite Sam]

May 2 AF - May AFers

wastedtime;320480 wrote: Who knew patience was contagious? Feeling achy and still feeling very foggy headed. If anyone has gone longer than four days in this group before, can you tell me how long this will last? I thought I would be more clear-headed by now. I still feel a little AL stupid - kind of like a slow mild hangover. When will this pass?

Hey Wasted
Get yourself some B complex vitamins and take them early in the morning and after
dinner, that should help with the fog. It goes away after a while.

Patience and love are both contagious! I've noticed that since I've quit Al [ and all ],
that I am the emotional regulator of the family and I never say much about it at home.
I find that all I have to do is be at peace myself and it seems to radiate to the rest.

with love and health, Sam [ 22 days AF and lost 8 pounds so far ]

[Yosemite Sam]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Peanut;320517 wrote: So, I did my day 1 AF for May.

I am bleary and kinda mad - maybe mad at myself for getting myself into this predicament in the first place???

I am dreading tonight - friday night!!!

Have a great day(evening?) everybody!

Peanut

Peanut,
Please, Don't be angry at yourself, It is counter productive to the proper action
and damaging to you emotionaly. And I know what you mean about the dread
thing, but this is more of the same damage, Look forward to friday as a chance
to soar, like the free spirit that you really are. Picture yourself over coming
this and what you will say to people. You will be great and do good for yourself!

positivly, with love and health, Sam

[compassiongirl]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Hi there

Brand new to this...I just ordered to cds and the gaba and the kudzo...hopeing this will help....I am so sick and tired of feeling embarrased at my drunkin behaviors. Last night i made drunk phone calls...i feel so much self loathing after an event like this....i feel like the whole world hates me...even though i know thats not true....have to work this evening and i feel depleted. any advice on how to get through these feelings of self loathing?:new::new::new:

[Bessie]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Quick check in as I have spent too long posting elsewhere!! And I gotta get on with some stuff. Day 2 feels pretty good to me so far and I am already well into the witching hour with only cravings for another cup of tea!! Think I'll be putting a BFZ (big fat zero) in the tracker tonight.

Love to everyone. Stay with it - it will get better. A revelation to me.

bessie xx

[wastedtime]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Hi Compassion Girl,

Boy, do I know about those drunk phone calls!! Made one Sunday night - or three??? which was the last time I drank. I would look at my call log the next morning and not remember what I said to those people or what I could have possibly been rambling about for over an hour to them. But you know what? The further I go AF, the further I am away from "that me" and those phone calls. So I"m pushing them away in my past with each day and that feels really good.

I'm so sorry I messed everyone up doing a separate post for today. Now I'm afraid if I go back to the original post, I'll lose you all here or people may give up on me altogether. Someone who has been on here longer or who has more experience posting on websites (this is my first), pleeeease tell me what I should do to fix this. I'm checking both all day b/c I realized I messed a lot of people up and now I'm still posting on both.

Looking forward to hearing from you all.
WT

[YoungAtHeart]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Hi Wasted and All,

Wasted, you can cut and paste your other posts here if you want. Just use your toolbar to do so.

As far as feeling foggy and aches and pains and stuff, I rediscovered Advil when I quit drinking. I didn't realize how many aches and pains I was medicating with wine. It took me a while to get clear headed. I also realized that some medication I was taking wasn't working and switched that, so I'm doing much better. Give yourself some AF time before you feel discouraged. Some people feel better right away, but others, like me, didn't. It took me several months, and I needed to make some other changes that had been hidden by my alcohol use.

Hang in there--it gets better.

:l :l

[Peanut]

May 2 AF - May AFers

busy busy

Hey guys!

A wide range of feeling out there today. Thanks Sam for your encouragement. I am finally stopping for a bowl of soup, starving here as I have been really busy this morning. But super foggy and still with a headache - I have messed 2-3 of my tests up already, and don't seem to be thinking straight. I actually stopped and asked myself what the f*ck is wrong with me?!?! I wonder if it is the Kudzu?? Or maybe must my lack of sleep. I keep thinking my technician must think I drank to much last night!!!! Headache. Groggy. Ha!! Foiled her this time!! No wine stink!

Compassion girl - just move on and forward. Try not to think about it as there is nothing you can do to change it. I know the last time I was at the bar, I was a dancing fool and am very embarrassed, but I promised myself I would have more control next time. Yah right - I have no control when I drink!!!! Which is why I am here today. I need help and I have to change if I don't want to feel badly about myself anymore. Wish me luck, eh?

Back to work!!!
Peanut

[time2change]

May 2 AF - May AFers

Everyone seems to be doing very well today. Last month I went 20 days before I screwed up, but this month I am in for the long run. it is sooooo much easier to stay sober than to go through days 1-5 over again. Please remember that. if you make it past day 5 you won't ever have to do it again if you never start drinking again. I hope that everyone has a good sober weekend. I will be around alot and if anyone wants to PM me that is fine. I know for me lonliness is a trigger and I am usually lonely. Good Luck to everone.