May 3 - May AFers

[time2change]

Wastedtime- I hope that it is ok with you that I started this thread. Yesterday you said anyone who gets here first, so I thought I start us right off.

For me today is day 5 and I intend to make it right through May. Las night was a lonely night for me as the kids were out. Normally lonliness is my trigger, but I'm still AF thanks to this website and reading all of your posts. Thank you all for being here.

It's a beautiful day here in sunny Florida and I plan to stay busy and AF.

Hope you all have a great day. Keep posting.

[flyinhigh]

May 3 - May AFers

Morning time,
east coasters will probaly always start this thread..."here comes the sun"

Today is day seven for me on this journey!!! I can't believe it, it is the longest consecutive days I've gone since I can remember!!!

Time- Last night was REALLY hard for me, and loneliness is one of my triggers too. Glad to hear you made it through!! I think last night was one of many hard hurdles on this journey. The first friday night....phew....that is over!

I understand the shout outs now....for I am very proud of myself and do want to shout out today!!!!
I know the journey will have twists and slopes and steep hills to climb, I just hope to keep this sure footed nature as I continue.

A friend told me, that as we go along each AF day, we collect something in our "goodie" bag...or a new tool in our toolbox....and save that tool for the day when you are really struggling. Use the memories of pride and happiness to pull you through those dark and gloomy moments. So, today I put a new tool in my toolbox, and it is entitled: PRIDE!!!!!!

I look forward to hearing from all of the other AFer's here this month, and hope you are feeling good today too!

flyin'

[retteacher]

May 3 - May AFers

Flyin: Thanks for the tip about tools. Yesterday, I was very exhausted, both mentally & physically. I got through & feel good about myself today, because I was very tempted last night. I will definitely save this experience for another time.

Today, I'm doing things but don't feel frenzied. I think part of my drinking was the pressure I put on myself to do everything (perfectly). I only had one way to relax, & you all know what that is. Today, I'll take breaks: MWO, walks w/puppy, reading the newspaper, etc. Take care everyone. We're all in this together.

Mary

[Mohun]

May 3 - May AFers

23 days AF and planning a AF May. Lots of yard work to do today and looking forward to the fresh air, sunshine, and dragging the kids outdoors to help. "But I don't want to go outside", "I'm bored". Looking forward to that.

Time and flyin, good job. It feels great doesn't it. Keep it up, it only gets better and better.

What kind of puppy do you have Mary?

Good luck to all.

[Bessie]

May 3 - May AFers

I'm here - doing ok. Busy to the power of ten but checking in during a break. Should be ok for today. Hope everyone is ok.

bessie x

[Janice]

May 3 - May AFers

Hi everyone.....not sure if this is our daily thread or the new May AFers but it doesn't matter. Didn't have time to get on yesterday and I really missed my MWO fix. Both my kids came home from uni just as I got in from work, by the time we'd had a catch-up and then sat talking over dinner, it was really late. Its amazing how much I've come to depend on my daily MWO visit!

Over the last week I've felt a change in my attitude....not necessarily wanting a drink, but I've lost that positive outlook I had in those early weeks and have felt quite "down" lately especially at work. I realised today that I haven't done any exercise for about 3 weeks or my hypno cds. I know I have 67 AF days to be grateful for - and I truly am - but I'm learning how both exercise and the cds play a major part in both my physical and spiritual well-being and therefore my sobriety. So, this morning I dragged myself along to the gym and tomorrow I shall swim. This is an ongoing journey and I must be alert all the way.

Hope everyone is doing good and enjoying the weekend. In the UK we have a Bank Holiday on Monday, a long weekend. If I don't post much over the next couple of days....like I said, my kids are home and mam takes last place in the queue for the computer!!!!

love to you all, my special friends

Janicexxx

[rustop61]

May 3 - May AFers

Hi everyone

Like you Janice, I find it hard to get my MWO fix when the kids are around and it does make a difference. Likewise the exercise and the cd's. I'm being extra vigalent this week as I have slipped in the past after achieving my 30 days. I get lazy especially with the cd's and taking the supplements. This time I am taking no chances. Day 35 and hoping for an AF May. Have a communion tomorrow but am driving later. Wont get to check in so enjoy the rest of the week-end everyone.

Rustop

[Lila]

May 3 - May AFers

It is day three for me. I am a single mom of three, and my older daughter, (12) had a sleepover party. The girls were messy, and I cried. Am I supposed to clean up after her sleepover? Her best friend is a very nice girl, but the other one is just kind of wild. I am angry and tearful and indirect. I do way too much house work I think. I don't want my kids to have the sucky childhood I had.
Anyway, it is day three, and I will be thinner and well, certainly am saving money. There is no alcohol in the house.
Is there any moms of preteens out there? My daughter is great, but kinda messy.
Lila

[Peanut]

May 3 - May AFers

Hi everybody,
Day 3 for me too, and I am shakey. I had a rough night - blood sugar issues I think. Felt cold and shakey and ill until I got up and ate at 3am. I wrote on another thread Days 1-30 Hello Sober Living, asking for advise from those in the know. I am thinking I might go see my doctor too. I believe the Kudzu and L-Glut are really working well for me. I guess today and tomorrow will be the real test. I just have a feeling the hardest part is yet to come. Esp tomorrow with a run and potluck with all those boozehounds I hang with!!!
Anyway, have a fabulous and successful Day 3 AF. Enjoy the warm weather. I might just drag my bike out today and go for a spin as it will be a beautiful warm day on the prairie today!
Peanut

[nojoke]

May 3 - May AFers

Not sure about the counting thing. Today is day 3 consecutively but 17 since I jumped back on the MWO wagon. Either way, I am really being conscious of my drinking urges and have cut way way down. I would like to say one day I can't remember the last time I had a drink, and I don't miss it!
C u all 2mrw xx

[Determinator]

May 3 - May AFers

Happy Saturday ABeroooos!

Time2change, thanks for the kickstart

Peanut I sent you a PM concerning some things that I hope will help

I'm so happy, my dear Dx comes home tomorrow morning!!!!!!! hooooooraaaaay!

normally she'd be coming home to a terribly struggling guy but I've managed to keep it all together quite well this time. whew!

be well my friends

[retteacher]

May 3 - May AFers

Janice: I remember the long AF stretches that I've had since I came here (Apr. '07). There was a point at which the "honeymoon" of being AF began to wear off. I looked ahead at the real work I had to do:
-deal w/feelings.
-deal w/relationships.
-deal w/issues.
Those were the reasons I drank in the first place. I think we just have to power through & a real joy & happiness in being long-term sober will emerge. I'm not sure if that makes sense.

Take care of your sobriety today. For me, I have to remember that the 3 most important things I have to do today are:
-Not drink.
-Not drink.
-Not drink.

Love, Mary

PS: Your Dad was one lucky man to have such a lovely daughter.

[jinja]

May 3 - May AFers

Hello all,

Just kept my head down today - feel totally blah! :yuk:

Maybe it was the Reiki yesterday, I slept like the dead and woke up exhausted!?!

Still AF tho'

See y'all tomorrow
Take care
xxx

[Saje]

May 3 - May AFers

Hi-All-

Saje here---always good to read how positive everyone is and we are starting our 30 day journey well.

I am on day 21 and feeling fine. It is amazing to be able to wake up early and feel good. I went to Weight Watcher this morning and officially down 5 lbs and then I was off to the gym.

I am going to treat myself later today to a facial at the spa near me, cannot wait.

Will check in tomorrow and hope everyone has a great Saturday!!!

Saje

[aquamarine]

May 3 - May AFers

Hi Everyone. I guess this is the daily thread today. Day 64 for me ,I think. Janice I feel the same way, just kind of down. I think others have mentioned that around 60 days this happened to them. At one point I got close to 90 days and I do remember becoming very irritable and down and then actually gave in. After I read that that can actually still be part of withdrawal that will go away eventually. I was confused because I had felt so good earlier and basically didn't have the patience to see it through. But I am really going to try this time and hopefully come out the other end.
Mary- I do feel like the"honeymoon" is over. Although I definately feel better than if I was drinking.But you are right I guess you have to just power through it. I feel like for me this will be the really tough part. I kind of knew it was inevitable , but I do feel pretty strong.
Det- Great job being on your own. I am impressed. I would be terribly tempted if I were by myself. I guess it's good for me that that hardly ever happens.
Hello to everyone who has posted today. It's great to have everyone to get through May with. BeWell and Stay Strong! Aquamarine