Tuesday, 6 May 2008

[Lila]

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

I am thinking how nice it would be to have a nice drink. I feel so in my stuff. Afraid of the future and I feel weirdish, and strange, and it is raining. I have to take my ex to court, I am terrified of being without money. I'm sure it will all work out.
I am getting proud of myself and I'm probably getting thinner, and less like I'm ruining my body, and feeling instead more happy and into clothes and stuff.
Not getting fatter from beer. But thinner from no beer and feeling too scared to eat.
Maybe I should take up yoga or something instead of being ruled by my emotions.
Lila

[wantrealmeaning]

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

Hi everyone :hiya:

Jinga, loved your rant, glad it made you feel better.

Popeye, I'm on day 28af today aswell .

Charlee, I agree with Cindy, what you said is so true. That's what's so different for me this time, I've surrendered and accepted the fact that I just can't drink alcohol. And my God that surrendering and accepting makes this journey so much more bearable. I haven't even felt angry or deprived and there's been no pity party this time. I've also accepted the fact that even though I'm not having any physical cravings, my mind is still an alcoholic mind and will try and tempt me, but I feel indifferent towards those mutterings and that indifference renders them powerless over me. I don't know how long my mind will be alcoholic but I have accepted that it could be that way for the rest of my life. I suppose that why recovering alcoholics are called 'recovering alcoholics' as apposed to 'recovered alcoholics'. I don't know where this surrender or acceptance that I'm feeling has come from but I am so grateful and feel so lucky. :h

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 4THEBOYZ :bday7:

Lorelei, I love what you say here...........

Remember small changes over time add up to big ones!!

Also remember that when you perceive you haven't succeeded at something, you still learn. Eventually you will learn what doesn't work and learna bit more what does, this does not just apply to AL, it applies to life.

so true.........

Cindi, So pleased to hear your daughter is looking and feeling much better.

Det, Congrats on 90days AF :cheering.

Stay strong everyone and Keep on keeping on.

Want
xxxxxx
:l

[wantrealmeaning]

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

Lila, Take care of you and the future will take care of it's self. Don't give in to those AL urges, AL will only make you feel worse. Stay proud of yourself!! Eat something healthy, you need to eat!! Taking up yoga is a brilliant idea, do you have any hypno CD's they help me relieve stress. Please don't have a drink, your doing so well :l

love
want
:h

[Janice]

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

Det, sending a huge Congratulations your way......90 days, fantastic!!!!

love Janicexxx